I tossed constantly in bed because I couldn't sleep, and I also began to feel strong pain in my body, in my bones. I woke up shaken, drenched in sweat. I didn't know what was happening to me. I stood up and opened the window to get some air. The first thing I noticed was the huge red moon that was in front of me. I was surprised to see her like this. Could it be the cause of all this? I will not convert.
"I won't be a monster again," I told the moon, fighting not to turn, "I won't." At Kayler's house they still had the lights on and there was movement too. I felt hatred for those people, I felt like killing them one by one.
KAYLER
"It's the blood moon, Kayler, fledglings can't control their desire to kill," my father tells me. We had met to avoid any accident or imprudence. The one that worried me was Carolina, I knew that she had returned to the lake house. She's new to these things and I'm sure she's not having a good time.
I have to go with Caroline.
"It's dangerous for you to go out," my father tells me, "the wolves don't recognize anyone with the moon."
In that we hear a howl too close.
"Who's outside?" Dad asked me.
“I don't know. I looked out the windows. A wolf ran past. A wolf, you have to be prepared.”
"Everyone already knows what to do."
We hear blows and howls from other wolves.
"We have to get out," I told them.
"Whatever it is is destroying the other wolves, I will not allow my pack to be in danger."
“Father...”
We heard a noise in the garage, as if the place had been penetrated. Footsteps, footsteps, we were all attentive. At that an enormous gray wolf with white and with a bloody muzzle joined us in the room.
“Carolina.”
But it was Carolina, she was under the effect of the blood moon.
She looked at me: hatefully, wanting to kill me.
She made one last grunt and then lunged at me. I had her on top of her, wanting to bite me, to rip my head off.
"Caroline, it's me!" I tried to tell her but in that state I didn't listen to reasons. “Carolina.”
It was strong, when I thought it would bite me I heard a shot. Carolina stopped fighting with me. I looked at my father in horror.
"What have you done?!" I snapped.
"Don't worry, it's just a tranquilizer. She will sleep through the night, take care of her.” He handed me a blanket. Little by little Carolina's body was no longer a wolf but a fragile human. I quickly covered her with her blanket and took her to my room, put one of my shirts on her and laid her on the bed.
She Hates me.
Now I'm more than sure she hates me.
However, when I thought Carolina was asleep I lay down next to her, but she opened her eyes. I was paralyzed to see that her eyes were not her usual blue eyes, but were red. Red as... the blood moon.
2
CAROLINA
I opened my eyes slowly, I was sleepy, I wanted to continue sleeping, but there was something that was bothering me. I looked in my stomach, there was a hand there. Then I realized that I wasn't in my room but in another… Kayler's… Kayler's. How the hell did I get here?
“No!” I yelled, a scream that woke up the person next to me.
“What? Carolina?” Kayler murmured sleepily. “What are you doing? Go back to sleep.” He said, as if we were together. I jerked my arm away from him and stood up. I had almost no clothes. Shit!
I don't know what the hell I'm doing here. I yelled, grabbing the shirt off the floor and pulling it on as fast as I could. I have to get out of here, I don't want to and I shouldn't be in this room… just thinking about Piper being here makes me cranky.
"Carolina, wait." Kayler stands up. "We need to talk."
"We don't have to talk about anything," I stopped him. Surely my hair was disheveled and I had bad breath. In the morning I'm not very nice to say. Thinking about it made me feel insecure so I headed to the bathroom to wipe my face. Even though he and I aren't together, I won't let him see me make a mess. So you can see what you missed.
“Carolina, we have a lot to have. You left for many years and I didn't say anything, I gave you your space as you wanted” he said from the other side of the door “Now I won't do the same, please.”
"Don't bother, Brown.” I don't know what was wrong with me but I was acting like I barely knew him. Maybe I never met him, I acted like I went back in time years ago to when I hated him. Now I wish that had never happened. I dried my face and went out.
Kayler took me by the arms.
"Let me go," I glared at him.
"Can you stop being so annoying for once in your life? Learn to listen.”
"Am I annoying now? Perfect” I got away “the only thing I was missing, that's why I'm not with you, Kayler Brown, so I don't keep bothering you” I went out the door. I just hoped I wouldn't run into her father or some other acquaintance out there. I don't want to hear from the Browns right now, except from their silly pack.
“Caroline, wait. We need to talk about Piper and Kylie.”
I ignored it. Kayler never gave up, he took me by the arms again, this time I let him say what he had to say and I could let me go.
"Caroline, please. We have to clarify. I... years ago... was very bad when you left me here alone. I swear I don't remember anything from that night... Piper... I just don't remember anything.”
"I don't care, Kayler. You have to accept that ours couldn't be, period, please leave me alone.”
“No!” He hit the wall next to me, making a hole in it. On another occasion I would have been surprised but not this time. I already knew how temperamental he was. “I do not want to lose you.”
"You lost me when you slept with her."
"You are my mate!"
“I'm sure that can change. I have to go Kayler, bye.” I brushed him aside, this time thankful he didn't follow me. I was thinking we're mates too, but I'm sure not all mates are together, I'm sure most are apart. I had a life before Kayler and he too, I'm sure we can live apart. Even though my heart beats for him, even though I want to be with him.
I walked along the path near the lake until I got home, so lonely and empty. Although there is no difference from when mom was alive. I was tired and hurt, being alone meant listening to my thoughts and I didn't want to. I went home and heard a noise. I stayed still in the same place, looking for where that came from. I swallowed hard, thinking it had been a thief. I took the broomstick and advanced to the kitchen with a stealthy step. Another sound and another...fuck it, I'll get in.
"What the hell are you doing in my...?!" I froze as I entered the kitchen and looked at Gadreel there, making some scrambled eggs. "Gadreel?"
The boy had his hands up like I was a cop and I was going to arrest him. Gadreel was shirtless, in jeans and military boots. His hair was messy... okay, he seemed very sexy to me like that. I lowered the broom and cleared my throat a bit.
“Hello, Kitty.” He smiled at me sideways “You look terrible. Where were you? I waited for you all night.”
I sighed deeply because I don't understand what he's doing here, especially after what happened that day at mom's wedding. He... an angel... his wings... his friends... the pact they had against me. Another who wanted me for a sacrifice.
"But why are you here?" I threatened him again with the broom “Do you want to take me back to your friends?”
“Calm down, Carolina, we already cleared that up. I come in peace.”
"I don't believe you." I narrowed my eyes.
“Really. I'm sorry about what happened and I'm sorry I didn't tell you who I really am. he said. A fallen one. A fallen angel.”
I felt my guard down so I left the broom in a corner. I was still surprised.
"Actually it was impressive," I admitted. "Eggs burn," I said, when I smelled burning.
"I'm sorry, I couldn't accept that I wanted to go back to that…guy. I love you, Carolina and I just want you to be happy. Yes, I was blinded by hatred and jealousy, but Kayler disappointed you again. I knew you needed me.”
“I don't want to think about it,” I said, “I just want to forget about the last few years and pretend I've never met Kayler Brown, pretend I never fell in love with him.”
Gadreel smiled as soon as I said that.
“I think it's perfect” he approached as soon as he turned off the stove “You know I'm here for whatever you need, kitten” he hugged me. I felt his aroma of forest, I liked it. Gadreel would be the perfect man for me if only I had met him before Kayler Brown, but I still have time to fix that little mistake I had.
"Thank you," I whispered.
I pulled away to look at him.
"Are you here since last night?"
“Yes, I thought you'd be in the forest so I didn't worry.”
He rubbed my hair.
“I was. I think the full moon made me... wolf again... seriously, I don't want to become again, if there was a way to kill the wolf part of me I would.” I confessed with a lump in my throat, deep down I knew that if I killed my wolfish part, my feelings for Kayler might die too. And that saddened me.
“When you want to do it I can help you.”
I frowned.
"Can you do that?"
He nodded.
“I Can.”
I looked down at the window that overlooked the lake. I was shocked to see Kayler standing there, looking at us. His gaze was dark. I knew that he had listened to us all this time.