~Ariana's POV~
I unlocked the door to my apartment and walked in, noticing unsurprised that the house was uninhabited, of course they wouldn't return home tonight, not when they knew they were in deep trouble with me, rolling my eyes I walked up the stairs to my room.
While in the shower, I felt as though there was now a presence in the house, although I didn't hear the door open, it was probably Sky and Luca sneaking in, hoping I was asleep.
After my shower, I dried myself and pulled on some panties, and a huge white shirt which was admittedly a bit see through, however I knew neither of those two traitors would come out of their room, they wouldn't want to risk my wrath.
I stared lovingly at my saxophone but grabbed my guitar case instead, heading to the room adjoining mine, I turned on the lights, looking around at the see through glass walls, that enabled me see out the room into the hallway, my grand piano sat lazily off to the corner, and then the shelves filled up with books at the other end, this was kind off my music room/study room.
Taking a seat on the marble table, I unzipped my guitar case, pulling it out and caressing the strings.
I positioned it properly and began playing a soft tone, humming, after some minutes, I changed my tone and my voice rang out filling the room with the song that had been ringing in my head, even as I soothed my aching heart.
"Still got the flowers that you sent,
And the note you wrote that said, that we're meant to be forever.
I keep them all as evidence, in a drawer under the mirror, filled with empty promises...."
I paused, sighing sadly before continuing.
"I don't know why I keep, letting you lie to me, hard as I try it seems, I can't break away...
I thought that you would be the hero, come and save the day,
But you're a villain, your sins unforgiven..."
"I'm going down and you have watched me drown,
In a river of tears, lost beneath the stream...
Under the waves, I've found the strength to say,
The river of tears, has washed me clean."
My eyes fluttered close, as the words flowed out my mouth, filled with so much emotions.
"Go 'head and wish me well, I'll cry a wishing well,
I'll fly before I fail
I'll set sail and drift away, so I won't need you here,
Love sinks and hope floats
In a river of tears
In a river of tears."
I unconsciously registered the feeling of being watched but I brushed it off, even as images of them flashed behind my closed eyes and my heart tightened in pain and longing.
"I catch your scent in every wind
And I recall the love we had.
I can't pretend that I don't miss you every now and then.
But the hurt is for the better,
Moving on is now or never.
Lost in the tide, I can't keep my pillows dry
Like there's a sea in my eyes,
I realize, that sometimes life brings you flowers and then it builds you coffins
And far too often,
We end up falling to our demise."
"I'm going down and you have watched me drown,
In a river of tears, lost beneath the stream...
Under the waves, I've found the strength to say,
The river of tears, has washed me clean
Go 'head and wish me well, I'll cry a wishing well,
I'll fly before I fail
I'll set sail and drift away, so I won't need you here,
Love sinks and hope floats
In a river of tears
In a river of tears."
I paused again, my voice trembling as I continued
"Cry me a river, build myself a bridge,
I'm over this, can't let memories become the death of me
I'm glad to see everything that you are,
And I believe that you are, everything I needed,
But I don't need no more."
My voice trailed off, unable to continue, because as much as I wanted to deny it, and act like I didn't, I knew deep within me, that I still needed Lon and Jay, I hadn't been able to get over them, I didn't think I ever would.
"Why can't I move on?" I asked aloud, my voice filled with sadness and devastation.
"Because you're ours, just as we are yours my queen." I heard a voice coming from behind me, I turned around in shock to see Jaylen and Talon, each staring at me with so much love and adoration. They both walked up to me and Jay lifted a hand to my face, wiping away tears I didn't even realize had been slipping out, my breath hitched but I turned my face away from them, forcing myself to regain composure before turning back to face them, a cold expression on my face.
"What are you doing here?" I asked glaring at them and moving away so we had some distance between us.
"We broke in." Lon replied nonchalantly and I couldn't help the twitching of my lips at his carefree attitude, giving in, I chuckled softly, raising a brow.
"You both know that's a crime right?" I asked amusedly and they grinned, obviously not the least bit concerned about breaking the laws, they were probably confident I wouldn't be able to call the cops on them, they weren't wrong.
"Ana, love, please come back to us." Lon pleaded with a cute pout on his lips and I raised a brow at his unusual cuteness, having to double my efforts to still my heart.
"You shouldn't have come here, I won't change my mind."I said with finality and Jay sighed, closing the distance between us, I looked away from him but his hand turned my face back to his gaze, locking his eyes on mine.
"Look me in the eyes and tell me you don't want us anymore, tell me you don't miss us." he dared in a seductively low tone, Lon came up to my other side, blocking my exit before I could even remember escaping was an option, now I knew why Luca and Sky weren't home when I came in, damn that traitorous couple.
"Just because you miss someone doesn't mean you should go back to them Jay. Sometimes you have to just keep missing them until you wake up one morning and realize you don't anymore." I replied solemnly, not moving my gaze from his, hurt flashed through his eyes and he didn't try to hide it, letting me see how much my words affected them, he moved away from me defeatedly, before pausing and looking back up at me, a determined look in his eyes.
"Lon and I realized a while ago what we should have always known, that we can't live without you, so we came here with admittedly bad intentions, to win back your love, be it by hook or by crook." he informed me truthfully and my heart skipped at his words. They both exchanged a glance before Jay grabbed my hand, looking into my eyes.
"Words can't express how sad I am right now, knowing you have given up on us, the worst part is knowing it is our own fault because I wasn't there when you needed me, rather than protect you like I was supposed to, I let you get conspired against and failed to believe and put my trust in you even when you tried telling me the truth, I don't even know how to begin expressing how sorry I am..." Jay paused and Lon continued.
"I was such a jerk to you, I am so sorry for all the stupid things I have said and done, it hurts us so much to know how we have ruined it with you, if only there was a reset button we could press because we love you so so much, my heart is heavy with hurt because this all began from my stupidity, I feel so ashamed and I know I don't deserve you and that you may never forgive me..." Lon's voice cracked and he couldn't continue so Jay picked up where he left off.
"We may be too late, we may already be gone from your heart, it hurts me so much to admit that but I understand it could never come close to the hurt and pain we've caused you, despite your selfless attempts to bring us together, we failed in all the duties of a mate, we failed to cherish you, to protect you and to love you like you deserve to be loved, and yet we still hope and pray to be able to win back this heart we've damaged so badly, to have you love and forgive your foolish mates who took so long to come to understand how much hurt we were inflicting on the most precious woman in the world, but we understand your heart may never be ours again. It is your heart's choice to make, and we'd never pressure you into anything, we just wish to plead for a chance with you, a chance to right our wrongs before some greater soul than ours finds you and cherishes you as you deserve, we're clinging onto the hope that the woman we love so much and yet hurt so much will see how truly sorry we are for the pain we caused, but like I said, the decision is yours to make, all we can say is we're truly, deeply sorry to you my love, my precious mate and my queen and I truly hope you will give us the chance to prove it." Jay finished, his voice truthful as they both stared at me, their gazes filled with love, longing, admiration, respect, desire and adoration so intense that I was deeply humbled to be on the receiving end.
Tears flowed freely down my cheeks and I didn't even try to wipe them away, still in awe at their loving words, my shattered heart fixed itself up piece by piece, bathing in the warmth of their intense love that I could see as clearly as I felt it.
Noticing they were still waiting apprehensively for my reply, their gazes down as if in fear of my rejection.
"I... I love you too, both of you...so much it hurts." I said finally, they both looked up immediately their gazes filled with hope.
"You'll come home with us?" Lon asked and I nodded without hesitation, smiling through my tears.
They both wrapped their arms around me, hugging me tightly as they whispered words of gratitude and love to me.
After a while, they pulled away and I noticed the hungry look in their eyes as they took in my appearance again, taking a look at myself, I chuckled evilly noticing the see through shirt I had on over my panties, it practically didn't cover up anything and I wondered how they had lasted till now without dragging me to bed.
"How about I get you both something to eat?" I asked wickedly, already heading to the kitchen and pretending I didn't notice their desire which was practically impossible with the huge bulge they both had going on for them.
As I was getting to the door,it was slammed shut in my face.
"Food isn't what we're hungry for right now." Jay said in a dangerously low tone and I spun around, staring with a smirk at the two men before me, whose eyes were ablaze with their desire for me.
"Oh really now?" I asked teasingly and Lon grinned, nodding.
"Well then, my room is through that door." I replied, pointing towards the door that connected my room to this one.
Jay growled lowly, lifting me up into his arms, my legs going around his waist immediately, his hands went to my butt, holding me firmly and I laughed at his hum of approval even as Lon held the door open for us, shutting it once we were through.
Placing me down gently on my bed, he moved away slightly letting Lon take his previous position leaned over me, Jay claimed my lips in a heated kiss, even as Lon ripped off my shirt, rather than pulling it off, probably not wanting to interrupt our kiss, Jay kissed me hungrily even as Lon ripped off my underwear, prying my legs apart, I couldn't see him with Jay blocking my view, but I sure as hell felt him as he attached his lips to my core, his muscular tongue flicking in and out of me, my loud moans were swallowed by Jay before he finally pulled away, letting me get oxygen, I noticed Jay had disappeared from view but I didn't have time to dwell on that as Lon's talented tongue drove me crazy, knowing just the right spots to caress me that had me screaming in exctasy as I reached my climax, he didn't stop though, increasing his pace as he fucked me with his tongue, I could hear him grunting slightly before he pulled away from me screaming in pleasure.
My eyes finally caught a smirking Jay, balls deep in Lon and I felt my body heat up at the erotic sight, who would have thought I'd be so turned on by two men making love, but then again, my reaction was justified, these two men were mine after all, my men... damn, I loved the sound of that.
"Don't stop, if you stop, I stop as well." Jay instructed a whining Lon who had moved away from me in his pleasure, he immediately got back to work, licking, sucking and trusting his warm muscle in me, even as Jay slammed into him from behind, his thrusts were so powerful and forceful it had Lon and I moving backwards on the bed, thankfully, my bed was huge, perharps I had always unconsciously known this day would come.
As Jay's pace increased, Lon moved his tongue faster and I moaned loudly, my back arching as another orgasm ripped through me, Lon didn't pull away, as waves of pleasure coursed through me but he did pull away to scream out his pleasure even as he also reached his climax, his essence spraying over my thighs, stomach and breasts, Jay thrusted about once or twice before also moaning out his orgasm, his body shuddering in pleasure, I slipped out from beneath them right before they collapsed on my bed, heading into the bathroom and grabbing a box of wet wipes, I got back out to see them both staring at me with loving smiles.
"I thought you couldn't get more beautiful, but now covered in my cum, damn you look hot." Lon said, staring heatedly at me, I looked down at myself, scooping some of his essence off my breasts with a finger and sensuously sucking off his essence, moaning softly at his taste, they both groaned at my actions and as Lon made to come get me, I raised a finger, wagging it with a wicked smile on my face.
"Nuh-uh, we're calling it a night." I said, they both groaned again, this time in frustration, giving me pleading looks.
"Wanna sleep in the guest room tonight?" I asked sternly, they quickly shook their heads and I nodded in approval.
"I didn't think so too, my room, my rules." I stated with finality before getting on the bed, laughing at the pitiful looks on their faces, I cleaned myself up, before cleaning them both up and they stared lovingly at me the whole time, once I was done, they positioned me between them, snuggling into me.
"Who would have thought breaking in was this rewarding, it's no wonder people do it so much, we should break in more often Jay." Lon said with a jokingly serious tone, Jay laughed nodding.
"I think breaking in is now my hobby." he replied and we all laughed, my eyes slowly fluttered shut sleepily but before I slept, I heard their thank you, goodnight and I love you's.
"Hmm... your welcome and I love you both too." I replied sleepily before giving into my body's need for rest.