“Lumiere, please open the door. Let’s talk.”
I looked badly at that door as if it was penetrating the person behind it.
He had been knocking and knocking before and I was still ignoring it. Why should I? The irritation I feel for him now has doubled so I don't want to see him even more.
Annoyed, I sat on the bed and kept staring at that door.
“Baby, come on. Open the door. Let's just talk and after that, I'll go away if you still don't want to see me, ”he softly said outside so I was even more irritated.
What's with that voice? Why does he speak so attractively? Is that necessary?
"Suit yourself," I whispered to myself and stared blankly.
I went back to lying down when I felt drowsy.
When I got pregnant by Asteria, I was not like this. I felt almost nothing then except always being drowsy. This is not my mood swing either. I know what I was doing to him. I’m aware and I kinda feel sorry for him because I know he’s the one I’m focusing on right now and it’s going to be hard for him. But I can’t do anything about it. I can't control it. Even to myself, I was disgusted.
I was about to be completely swallowed up by drowsiness when I heard the banging of my bedroom door so I quickly sat down in shock.
“What? How did you get in here?” I shouted when I saw Levi walking towards me while holding a key.
I was shocked when I remembered that this room has a spare key and I hate that key now! I'll throw that away later!
“Lumiere...”
“Stop calling me by that name. Just go away with that Anne!” Full of irritation, I told him and lay down again then covered with a blanket.
I bit my lower lip when I felt his hand on my legs.
"Lumiere, let's talk, please," he said in his husky voice.
I mentioned all the curses in the whole world in my brain when he moved his hand up. What is he doing?!
"D-don't touch me," I said to him, stuttering and patting his hand.
“Let’s talk first, please? I will do anything you say after we talk, I promise,” he calmly said to me and finally lay down next to me.
He gently wrapped his arm around my waist then hugged me so tight that I couldn't breathe properly anymore. I even jumped when he started kissing me on my neck and shoulders so I pinched his arm.
"S-stop it," I scolded him but he continued even more.
Don’t tell me, he wants us to do that ‘thing’ this afternoon? Is he crazy?
"What? I told you to stop. Why are you here? You left Anne,” I almost whispered to him.
I don't know. It feels like whenever he’s around, I’m fainting. All parts of my whole being is starting to get weak.
"I can leave everything for you," he whispered to my ears so I was shocked by the tickle.
"L-Levi!"
“What? I missed you. You've been pushing me away for a few days so I won't give it to you now,” he said with a smile and kissed me even more.
Does he already know? Does he already know that we are two again? How did he react when he found out? Or if he ever finds out now, what will be his reaction? At first, he didn't even know right away that I was pregnant with Ria. I wonder how he would react.
Damn. Why am I nervous?
"Levi, I need to tell you something."
"When are you going to tell me, Lumiere?"
Right after he said that my heart erupted like a volcano and thousands of nervousness and fear spread in my chest.
Fear of what he will say and fear of how he will react.
"W-what?"
"You're pregnant again."
It wasn’t a question. It's a statement. Word by word. He did not ask. He said it.
I close my eyes and held his hand.
“I-I’m sorry. I was scared. I don't want to tell you not in person. I’m so sorry, Levi. I’m sorry,” I said to him and repeatedly kissed his hand and arm.
He leaned his head on my neck and I could feel his hot breath there so I kept my eyes closed.
“Stop saying sorry,” he whispered on me then he kissed my shoulder.
“I’m sorry if I didn’t come home for the past three days. I was gone when you found out we were pregnant. We will go to an OB tomorrow. Right now, you need to sleep cause I know you’re sleepy.”
“But—”
“I won’t leave you. I'm just here. I won't leave you until you wake up,” he said to me so I kept smiling.
Even though I still feel my irritation with him, I still feel like I want to be with him more now.
My Levi, I know my heart choose youp. It's not really a difficult decision for me. As soon as I saw you, my destiny was tied with yours. I choose you because my heart chose yours long before our bodies were born. I truly feel that we've loved one another lifetimes ago. It's always been you. And I swear to you, I have never been so sure about someone or something in my entire life.
I know it's you. And I say this without a singke doubt in my mind.
No, I didn't regret it, that you get to know more about myself. I didn't regret it when you touched everything in me. I didn't regret it when a stranger took everything from me and left me. Because that stranger...
You...
The stranger I would love to encounter again and again...
Will forever be remembered even in our next life.