Chapter 30

FAITH

We were sitting in the waiting room Chris and I chatting when our dear gentleman walks by with a weird face, I guess his interview with Leïla didn't go as he hoped, frankly I think it's the better to do, Leïla is a charming, beautiful, intelligent girl and above all with a very big heart, she is a woman that all men would dream of having, she could have all the men she wants, I I really hope that she will be able to face everything that has happened and give herself back the means or give the chance to a man to make her happy she really deserves to be happy my little Leïla

Once the gentleman leaves the hospital, I ask Chris to come over so that we can see Faith, but he preferred to stay there to give us some privacy to talk to her, he will join me later, I I think he's right, so I go alone to Leïla's room, when I enter she was crying, I approach her, I caress her arms, she gets up and goes back to me and burst into tears again, I hug her and whisper words in her ear, there's nothing I can do to take away this pain in her heart it makes me so sad that I can't do anything for her

Leila: it’s over…it’s….. over

Me: yes I know my darling, soon this will all be history, soon you will regain your joy of living, you will become again the happy girl that you have always been, the good times are coming my darling

Leila: what if it wasn't what I wanted? What if what I wanted was to stay with him in this situation? What if I hadn't made the right choice?

Me: shuuuuttttttttt…. my heart stop asking yourself so many questions, for now it’s the best decision you can make

Leila: I never wanted to break up their relationship, all I wanted was a place

Me: I know my darling, I know… it will be fine

We stay there in each other's arms for several minutes before relaxing, we stay there talking about everything and nothing until Chris comes into the room

Chris kissing Leïla: hello! The form

Leila: yes it can go

Chris speaking to Leïla: you will have to be content for the next few hours, faith must go home to rest

Leila: that suits me greatly, I prefer you to her

Chris: we'll choose a movie to watch if you don't get tired

Leila all excited: with pleasure

Me pouting: bah pretend like I'm not there

Leila: stop being jealous, go away clear the floor

I get up and pinch his cheek before giving him a kiss, I turn to Chris I give him a kiss wanting to leave he holds me back

Chris: is that all?

Me: yes that's all you'll get

I come out of a little sad and very tired, I go to join James who drops me off at home, when I get home I go into the living room and I sit in the living room very tired, I lean back in the armchair , thinking when mom kadi arrives

Mom kadi: hello my daughter, how are you?

Me: hello mom, it's okay

Mom kadi: and Leïla, I hope she had nothing serious?

Me: It's horrible everything that happened, she lost her baby, she is really in a bad state

Mother Kadi horrified: what? How ?

I tell her everything that happened that night, she covers her mouth with her hands, so as not to scream because I saw so much horror, desolation, sadness in her eyes, all that she was able to get it out:

Mama kadi: I am sincerely sorry for her

Me: we all are, we'll prepare a room for her here, but all I ask is that you treat her normally so she doesn't feel uncomfortable you understand me?

Mama kadi: yes my daughter you are right

I say nothing more and she either I go back to my initial position but I notice that she was still sitting next to me and with an insistent look, I sit up

Me: do you want a truck?

Mom kadi: yes I want to ask you for a truck

Me: ok

Mama kadi: what is going on between your husband and you?

Me: why this question?

Mom kadi: I see some changes that's why I'm asking you the question

Me: yes we have some problems

I told her everything that happened, she remains silent throughout my story, when I finish she sits down well in her chair and resumes

Mom Kadi: Basically that's why you keep your distance from him despite all the efforts he has made to be forgiven, isn't it? You are like my daughter

This man for all the time you spent in the hospital, he was sitting here in the dark here in this armchair "pointing to the armchair of which it is about the hands" staring at a point in the void lost in his thoughts, the rare times he came back from the hospital that's what he did, he barely slept, he spent the rare moments he came home resting sitting there, you could read worry on his face, from a moment we only saw guilt on his face, the day he arrived to tell me that you woke up it was the first time I saw him so happy and it was the first time that he spoke to me with so much warmth

I have worked for him since he moved into this house, before he brought you here the girls paraded here almost every night, but he never brought a girl to his room, that is to say the one that you occupy now, and none of them had ever slept here, when they finished James always took them home, he was closed in on himself, smiled at no one, spoke only when necessary, but after a while he stopped bringing the girls here, and shortly after he brought you, he changed, you could see in his eyes that he was in love, he had changed and for the better and he never hid it from the world

If I have any advice for you today it's don't let something he's not directly responsible for ruin everything you've built and cause you to lose that man you love so much and whose you are. just as in love my daughter, learn to forgive, life with a man is never easy, things will be hard but you should learn to forgive and trust your man

I was married to my husband for like 28 years before he left, it wasn't always easy or rosy, I discovered cheating from the children outside but I stayed, I'm not going to tell you that it was easy, no it was very hard even I resented him so much, there was so much anger in me but I stayed with my husband because I loved him more than anything and because I knew that men are born with advantages that nature did not give us, in this same way he also learned to forgive me my missteps and to let it flow, we must learn to repair what is broken and not to throw it away my daughter

When she finishes she gets up to leave but I stop her

Me: thank you very much for these tips, you could have watched us tear us apart but no, you are also like a second mother to me, mine left a few months ago, if she had been there, maybe it would have been to be her who would be giving me these advices, on her return I will fix things with her I promise

Mom Kadi: I'm glad you listened to me

When she finishes she leaves, I get up too and I go up to my room, I take a shower and I put on a Chris shirt before I go to bed, I was thinking about everything mama kadi told me until so that sleep doesn't come and take me to the land of dreams