Chapter 140 140
Chapter 140 140
\[Selena's POV\]
Alessandro comes home different.
I notice it immediately—the tight set of his shoulders, the way his eyes won't quite meet mine, the silence that wraps around him like armor. The lightness we've been basking in since the ruling has disappeared, replaced by something dark and heavy that fills the room when he enters. The air itself seems to change, growing thick and oppressive, and I feel my heart begin to race with the instinct that something has gone terribly wrong.
"What happened?" I ask, struggling to sit up straighter against the mountain of pillows supporting my aching back. "Alessandro , talk to me."
He stands by the window, staring out at the city, his reflection a ghost in the glass. The fading light catches the tension in his jaw, the shadows under his eyes that seem deeper than they were this morning. For a long moment, I think he won't answer. The silence stretches between us, growing heavier with each passing second.
"Lisette found me. Outside the coffee shop."
The name sends ice through my veins, a visceral reaction that makes my whole body go rigid. "She what? Alessandro , that's a violation of the court order. We need to call Diana—"
"She was careful. Kept her distance. Said she was just walking down a public street." His laugh is hollow, bitter, a sound that makes my chest ache. "She's always careful. Even when she loses, she finds ways to win."
Caden appears in the doorway, drawn by our voices. He takes in the scene—Alessandro 's rigid posture, my distress—and moves to join us, settling on the arm of the couch near my feet. His presence is steadying, but I can see the concern etched into his features.
"What did she say?" he asks quietly.
Alessandro is silent for another long moment. When he speaks, his voice is barely above a whisper, cracked and wounded.
"She asked if I was really going to raise the baby. Reminded me that we don't know whose child Meghanis. Said the question would eat at me forever—wondering if she's mine, wondering if I see myself in her or if I see you."
The cruelty of it steals my breath. My hands curl into fists at my sides, rage and helplessness warring in my chest. Even in defeat, Lisette found the one weapon we couldn't protect against—the uncertainty we'd agreed didn't matter, now weaponized against us.
"Alessandro ." I reach for him, but he doesn't turn from the window. The distance between us feels vast, unbridgeable. "You know that doesn't matter. We decided—"
"I know what we decided." His voice cracks, splintering on the words. "I know what we said, what we agreed, what I believe intellectually. But she's right about one thing. I do want to know. Some part of me has always wanted to know, even when I was telling myself it didn't matter."
The confession hangs in the air, heavy with implications. I look at Cassian, seeing my own complicated emotions reflected in his expression—the surprise, the hurt, the understanding that wars with both. We'd made the choice not to test for noble reasons—because biology shouldn't determine family, because we wanted Meghanto feel equally loved by both her fathers. But noble reasons don't always survive contact with reality.
"Then maybe we should know," Caden says quietly.
Both Alessandro and I turn to stare at him.
"What?" Alessandro asks.
"Maybe we should do the test. Not because Lisette suggested it—not because of anything she said. But because the uncertainty is clearly affecting you. Affecting us." Cassian's voice is measured, thoughtful, but I can see the vulnerability beneath his calm. "We told ourselves it didn't matter. But if it does matter—if it's going to be a source of doubt and pain—then maybe knowing is better than wondering."
"I don't want to know because of her," Alessandro says fiercely. "I don't want to give her that satisfaction."
"This isn't about her. It's about us." I struggle to my feet, needing to be standing for this conversation, needing to feel like an equal participant rather than an invalid in a bed. My body protests the movement, but my need to be present outweighs the discomfort. "Cassian's right. If the not-knowing is going to poison things, then we need to address it. Not for Lisette—for ourselves. For Maggie."
Alessandro finally turns from the window, his expression torn. The pain in his eyes makes my heart clench. "And what if the test shows she's not mine? What then?"
"Then nothing changes," Caden says firmly. "She's still our daughter. You're still her father. The only difference is that we'll know, and knowing will take away Lisette's power to use our uncertainty against us."
"And if she is mine? What does that mean for you?"
Cassian's expression softens, something vulnerable and true breaking through his careful composure. "It means the same thing. Nothing changes. I'm her father regardless of DNA. We decided that together, and I meant it."
The room falls silent as we process the weight of what we're considering. A DNA test felt unnecessary months ago, when we were idealistic and determined to build a family beyond biological constraints. Now, with Lisette's words echoing in our ears and doubt creeping through the cracks, it feels like the only way to move forward.
"After she's born," I say finally. "We'll discuss it properly after she's born. Right now, I can't—" My voice breaks, hormones and exhaustion and the weight of everything finally overwhelming me. Tears spill down my cheeks unbidden. "I can't make this decision while she's still inside me. It feels wrong."
Alessandro crosses to me, pulling me into his arms. His embrace is desperate, clinging, as if I'm the only solid thing in a world gone liquid. "Okay. After she's born. We'll talk about it then."