Chapter 15

Chapter 15


The rain was pouring down hard and it was freezing. I was all soaked and shivering.
I didn't know what to do or where to go. I didn't want to go home. My clothes were all wet and my hair was sticking to my face. I was standing there in the middle of the parking lot, crying my eyes out. It was raining, but I didn't care.

"Are you just going to stand under the rain, Liam? Come on, let's go." Ryan said to me. He moved closer and tried to put his hand on my shoulder, but I pushed him away. I was angry at him. No. Angry wasn't the right word. I was fcking pissed off.

How could he do that to me? How could he say all those things about me? How could he call me a slt and accuse me of sleeping around? I wanted to hit him. I wanted to slap him across his face.

"Why did you have to go and do that?" I cried.

"Do what, Liam?" He asked.

"Tell Brandon the truth. Why did you have to do that?" I yelled at him.

"That's who you're fucking worried about Brandon? Really? Not my brother, Jason, that was getting cheated on. Fck! You are unbelievable. " He retorted.

"What did you want me to do? Huh? I just found out too. And Cole threatened me not to tell anyone." I snapped back.

"Threaten you?" Ryan laughed.

"Threaten you with what?" He asked.

"You." I yelled at him.

" Cole said he was going to tell Jason and Brandon everything. He was going to tell them that we were hooking up. I couldn't do that to Jason. I couldn't let him get hurt like that. It wasn't right, Ryan. I love him. he's my best friend." I told him.

"Like I care about what Jason or Brandon think about us. I don't give a shit." He spat out.

"Of course you don't." I threw my hands up in the air.

"You don't care about anything. You don't care about anything but your fcking self. You're selfish, narcissistic and arrogant. And you know what else? You're a fcking asshole, Ryan. A complete asshole." I shouted at him. I couldn't believe how much I hated him at that moment. How much I despised him. How much he infuriated me.

It was raining. It was freezing. We were both standing there arguing. I couldn't hear anything but the rain and our voices. I ran my fingers through my wet hair.

"You're a fucking asshole, Ryan" I yelled again.

" Brandon was right, you're just a good-for-nothing son of a btch."

Ryan clenched his fists.

"Oh yeah, Liam. So that's how you think of me? Is that it? Do you think I'm some sort of loser?" He said, raising his voice.

"You're damn right, Ryan. You're a fcking loser." I spat back. "And I hate you for what you just did. Now, I have lost Brandon." I shouted.

"And why the fck are you so concerned about Brandon? Is not like you have feelings for him or anything." He said, sarcastically.

"And what if I do? Huh? What if I actually have feelings for him? What if I love him? What if I want to be with him?" I shot back at him.

Ryan laughed and shook his head.

"You don't love him. You're just saying that because you're pissed off at me." Ryan replied. He grabbed my wrist and pulled me closer. "You don't love Brandon. You love me. Admit it." Ryan said, his voice low and husky.

I could feel my heart pounding and my cheeks heating up.

"No. I don't, Ryan. I hate you. I hate you so much." I yelled at him.

"That's not true. You love me. Just admit it, Liam" He said.

"You're a fcking son of a bitch." I hissed.

"I'm not a son of a bitch. But if you don't admit your feelings for me, then yes, I am." He retorted.

"Screw you." I hissed.

He laughed and pulled me closer.

"Admit it, Liam. You're in love with me." He said.

"No, I'm not. I don't have any feelings for you, Ryan." I shouted.

He moved closer and pressed his body against mine. It was as if he was ignoring my insults and curses.

"Tell me you love me, Liam" He whispered in my ear.

"No. I hate you." I cried.

Ryan laughed and shook his head.

"Keep telling yourself that, baby. Keep lying to yourself. You can't deny the truth." He said.

"The truth is, I hate you. Are you deaf" I yelled.

Ryan didn't respond to my question, instead he leaned in and kissed me. His lips were warm and soft against mine. And then his tongue slipped inside my mouth.
I gasped.

He tasted sweet and delicious.

"Liam" He moaned my name and pulled me closer. Our bodies were pressed together. My mind was going crazy and my heart was beating fast. His hand was on the back of my head, pulling me closer. He was kissing me so passionately, that I forgot everything else. I didn't even know where we were or what was happening. I couldn't think straight. All I could think about was his lips and his hands.

"Oh God. Liam." He moaned.

I was drowning in his kiss and in his touch. He was driving me insane.

"Ryan, please. Let go of me." I begged.

He didn't listen. He kept kissing me. He kissed me so hard, that it almost hurt.

"Liam" He whispered my name and pulled away from the kiss. We were both breathing heavily and staring into each other's eyes. The rain was pouring down and the wind was blowing, but I didn't care. I could feel myself falling for him.

"What are you doing to me, Liam?" He asked.

"I don't know. What are you doing to me, Ryan?" I whispered back.

"You're making me crazy." He said.

He cupped my face and looked deeply into my eyes.

"I can't stop thinking about you. You're all I can think about." He confessed.

My heart skipped a beat.

"I don't know why but every time I look at you, I feel like I'm losing my mind. You're so beautiful and amazing. And I want you." He said, caressing my face.

"Oh, Ryan." I sighed.

"You drive me crazy. Every time you smile at me or touch me, I lose control. You make me feel things I've never felt before." He said, stroking my cheek.

He leaned forward and kissed me again.

"Liam, I want you. I need you." He whispered.

It took everything. Everything in me, not to moan.

I couldn't help it. He was so handsome and sexy and he was turning me on.

"I can't get enough of you. Every time I see you, I want to kiss you. I want to touch you." He whispered, kissing my neck.

I couldn't breathe.

"I'm not asking you to date me or be with me or anything, Liam. I just asking you to fuck me." He said. I was taken aback by his words.

Did I just hear him correctly?

"Ryan What?" I was speechless.

He smiled and pulled me closer.

"I'm not asking you to be my girlfriend, Liam. All I'm asking is for one night. One night with you. That's all. No strings attached. I promise. Just let me have you for one night. I'll make sure you won't regret it." He repeated.

One night. Was he serious? He was asking me to just have sex with him and nothing else. I couldn't believe it. Brandon wanted me. Brandon wanted me as his girlfriend. He introduced me to his friends. He wanted a future with me. Brandon wanted everything. He loved me. Ryan wanted just sex. Nothing more. Just one night. No strings attached. He was a player. A player. A man whore. And now he wanted me. He wanted to use me. And probably dump me after. I slapped him. Hard. I didn't mean to. It just happened. I was angry. So angry.

"What the hell, Liam. Are you crazy?" He screamed, his hand on his cheek.

I couldn't control my emotions.

"You're a jerk. You know that? A big fcking jerk. You think you can just play with my feelings and use me. Just because you're a handsome playboy and have a perfect face and body, it doesn't give you the right to treat people like they are objects." I yelled at him. He was stunned.

"Liam" He tried to speak, but I cut him off.

"Don't say a word. You are the most selfish and insensitive person I've ever met." I cried.

"Liam." He said again.

"No. Stop talking. You have no right to talk to me. I'm not interested in having a meaningless fling with you." I screamed at him.

"In fact I want nothing to do with you anymore. I'm done. Stay the fuck away from me." I told him.

I turned around and started walking away.

"Wait. Liam." Ryan called out. But I didn't look back.

"You can't walk under this rain. At least let me drive you home."

I scoffed. Oh so now he cared about my safety? I didn't say a word.

"Liam. Stop. Please. The dorms are far away and it's raining. Come on. Just let me take you home." He pleaded.

"I'll walk. Leave me alone." I snapped.

I knew he was right. It was raining hard and I didn't want to catch a cold, but I was too stubborn and prideful to admit that.

" Liam." I heard Ryan call out my name.

"Go to hell, Ryan" I yelled.

I couldn't believe he actually wanted me to have a one-night stand with him. And what did he mean by 'fuck him and then forget about him?' What an arrogant bastard. I flipped him the middle finger and kept walking.



Things went bad to worse as I left the parking lot and continued walking. The rain was getting heavier and heavier and the wind was blowing furiously. My clothes were soaking wet and I was shivering. My teeth chattered and I was hugging myself tightly, trying to keep warm. The rain was so heavy that I could barely see anything.

"Oh my God." I mumbled.

What a fcking disaster. I tried to find a place to hide from the rain, but it was no use.
The rain was falling everywhere. "Fck!" I cussed under my breath. I didn't know what to do. I was walking aimlessly and getting wetter by the minute. I could feel my hands and feet turning numb and I was shivering uncontrollably. I was about to give up when a car pulled up beside me. It was a gray Mercedes.

"Liam Get in the car." Ryan's voice sounded from the car.

"No. I'm fine." I yelled.

"Fck! Stop being so stubborn and just get in the damn car." Ryan roared.

"Leave me alone, Ryan I'm fine." I screamed.

My response seemed to have amused the rain because lightning flashed over my head, causing me to jump. An angry clap of thunder followed. I felt like I was about to faint from the cold. I gripped my shoulders and kept walking.

"Liam, get in the damn car, or I swear, I will drag you and throw you in the damn car." He threatened.

"Just leave me alone." I yelled back at him. The rain was starting to feel like knives piercing through my skin. It was getting so cold that my breath was starting to come out in clouds. But I would rather freeze to death than get in a car with Ryan. I rather die.

"Damn it, Liam" Ryan cursed.

And then the next thing I knew, the passenger door was opening and Ryan was stepping out. He ran towards me and grabbed my wrist.

"Stop being such a stubborn and just get in the fucking car." He hissed.

"No. Let go of me Liam." I struggled, trying to free myself.

"Why don't you find someone else to have a one night stand with? Leave me alone. I hate you." I yelled, hitting him.

He didn't budge.

"You are driving me crazy, Liam You are the most stubborn, irritating, and frustrating guy I have ever met." He groaned.

"Good. Then let go of me." I hissed.

He didn't. Instead, he wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted me up on his shoulders.

"Ryan" I yelped. "Let me down. Let me down. Let go of me. Put me down. Ryan. Put me down. Let go. Fck you, Ryan. I'm gonna kick your ass. I hate you. Let me go."

But he didn't listen.

"Stop kicking, Liam. Or else." He growled.

"Or else what? What are you going to do? Throw me into the car?" I snapped.

"Exactly. That's exactly what I'm going to do." He replied.

"No. Don't. Put me down." I screamed.

"Nope. You asked for it. Here it goes." He warned.

And then he tossed me into the car.

I landed on the front seat, screaming and kicking and trying to hit him.

"Close the door, Liam" He ordered.

"Go to hell." I yelled back.

He shook his head and closed the door himself.

"Damn, You're such a pain in the ass." He grumbled, before jumping in the driver's seat. I didn't say anything. I sat there and leaned against the warm seat, but despite that I was still shaking. I couldn't speak, my lips trembled from the cold and the shock of the rain. I was kind of happy that Ryan saved me from the rain and didn't leave me behind, but at the same time I was angry and upset with him. He didn't respect me and he didn't care about my feelings. And he didn't understand the concept of love and commitment. And I was pissed at him.

"Liam?" I could hear rycall out my name but his voice felt so far away. I felt like I was losing touch with reality. I tried to focus, but everything around me was blurry.

My head was spinning.

I couldn't hear anything except for a buzzing sound.

I was dizzy. My heart was beating fast. I couldn't breathe.

"Oh my God, Liam" He exclaimed.

I could feel him shaking my shoulders, trying to wake me up, but it was no use.

My vision was darkening and everything was fading away.