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[ Aya Millenis' Vision] - Iuri!? - I call him in desperation and feel as if my throat is ripping open. I need to drink water. The scenes of what I did at the orphanage come into my mind causing me a headache, I feel as if a car had run over me twice, and the part that hurts the most is the side of my stomach… Oh yeah, I've been shot… I feel all over my abdomen, but immediately stop when I touch what looks like stitches, this area is hurting. I gather my strength and open my eyes: white, the ceiling is totally white. I move my eyes, I can't see things clearly, everything is blurred, I spend a few seconds trying to focus my sights on a single point. Yes, now I can see things clearly, I try to get up from the hospital bed, but my whole body complains, I look at my arms and see wires connected to them. In my chest there are also wires, I follow them with my gaze that goes to a machine used to monitor my heartbeat. I look to my left and see the much desired water, I try to open my mouth, but it seems to be stuck. On three, I take a deep breath and start counting mentally: one, two, three! I get up all at once and am hit by a very strong dizziness, my eyes start to blur again… I am losing my consciousness… - Aya! - a familiar voice echoes. Before I fall I am held up, the person helps me to lie back down on the bed. I close my eyes and stay like this for long seconds. - A… water - my voice comes out slurred and uttering it hurts. I hear the sound of water being poured out, I open my eyes to see, but close them, I can only be too groggy from medication. I see my father here. He would never come here. - I'll help you - he lifts my head and puts the glass to my mouth. What's going on? I can only be seeing a mirage. I drink all the water I've been given and lie back down on the bed. - W-who-are-you? - I ask in a more normal voice, my eyes are very heavy, so I don't even make an effort to open them. - Don't recognize me? - A-I think you look like my father," I take a deep breath, "but I know he hates me, and like my mother, he must have regretted having me. I'm a burden in people's lives… - Don't you ever say that again! - he shouts. - I'm sorry, you don't need to know my problems. Do you know where Iuri Stevens is? - He went to take a bath, spent the night here with you. - How long did I sleep? - A day and a half. - I see - sleep catches up with me again and I thank you, I am in a lot of pain. **** An hour later "A nightmare, it's just a nightmare" - I say mentally to calm myself down. I feel stronger, I can now sit up without feeling much pain in the area where I took the shot, it takes me a few seconds before I open my eyes. "Dad?" - I ask in thought as I open my eyes and see the figure of my father sitting in the armchair looking at me apprehensively. - How are you feeling? It is my father's voice, my father's appearance, but I cannot believe my eyes and ears. He hates me too much to bother coming here to see me in the hospital. - I'll get a nurse - he gets up. - What are you doing here? - I ask him looking into his eyes, he is tired. - Well, I wanted to make sure he was okay. - Why? - Because I am your…. - he abruptly interrupts himself - I was worried. - You have no reason to worry about me, after all you said you never wanted to see me again," I say hurt. - I would like to talk to you. - We are talking. - Last night I found out the whole truth about what happened seven… - Look, I don't want to talk about that day, I want to leave the past where it is, in the… - When I saw you on television injured and at risk of your life, it made me desperate. I felt the world breaking into pieces, a movie of all the things I've done and said to you flashed through my eyes making me feel like the worst human being on the face of the earth. I realized how many wrong things I did to you, always sticking pride and silly traditions in front, and leaving your well being aside. I thought this was the right thing to do, but I was always wrong, and today I know it, please forgive me Aya. To surprise me even more, he begins to cry, and the tears also fall from my eyes, I wanted so much to hear him talking to me, but I had already given up hope. My father sniffles and tries to wipe his eyes with the back of his hand, and with trembling voice he continues: - Forgiveness for humiliating you in front of everyone seven years ago, forgiveness for not trusting and believing in you, forgiveness for not being there when you needed it most - his voice gets louder, as if he is desperate - Forgiveness for leaving you alone in the world! Forgiveness for making you suffer so much in such an unfair way, forgiveness for depriving you of a good college education, of your hobbies, of your family - I really wish I could have your forgiveness, and have a chance to fix everything I've done, and rebuild our family which, because of my fault, split into two parts… I don't know what to say, I can't say anything but cry. - But-if this is impossible, I will disappear from your life, I want you to be happy, I will give you the money that I had saved to pay for your college, I haven't touched a cent and this money is yours. Anyway, I did to you what my father did to me, and now I see how wrong I was and the regret will accompany me for the rest of my life. But I'm going away happy that you're no longer alone. He leaves and heads for the door. I can't let him go, I don't want him to go. As if my life depended on it, I put all my strength into my legs, run towards him and hug him from behind. - Please, don't ever leave me again," I beg in tears, "I never stopped loving him, neither you nor Mom, I always wanted to talk to you again. - My daughter - he turns and hugs me. We cry together. "Thank you God, for bringing my father back" - I thank him in thought. - Aya? - I hear my mother's voice - I wanted to ask you… I pull her close and hug them both together, despite all the regrets, I missed them so much, even though they were strict, I know they only did it because they wanted to see me follow a profession and be someone in life. **** Three hours later *** I leave the hospital relieved to know that Luana and the baby managed to survive, I couldn't bear it if something worse had happened to them. My parents wanted to bring me home, but I preferred to come with Iuri. As soon as I saw him I kissed him and asked about Heloysie, he told me that the children went to a pŕoximo orphanage while Zain's was under renovation and the director is still hospitalized under observation. I was so happy I almost jumped out of the orphanage, Iuri came in with the papers for us to get our little Ysie adopted, I can't wait to finally see my little one and have her in my arms. When I get home, Iuri doesn't let me walk and makes sure to carry me in his arms to the bathroom. He helps me to take a shower, it is so good to feel clean and smelly, I feel renewed without that hospital smell in me. - Come, I'll take you," Iuri carries me again in his arms and leads me to my bed. I watch him taking care of me, he calmly lays me down on the bed and dresses me in a nightgown, sprinkling me with a little perfume. I feel so good next to him. - I love you, you know? - I speak with all the truth in my heart. - Do you know where I want to hear this? - he asks, looking at me enigmatically. - At the altar, in front of everyone and putting a ring on this finger here - he shows me his finger. - So that means? - That's right, do you accept?