Chapter 165
*DEBBIE KENDALL POV*
James looked at me as if he didn't believe my words, he was surprised that tomorrow I would kill the people who did me so much harm, who destroyed my childhood and resulted in years of therapy. From the beginning I met Kevin and James I made it very clear that I didn't like the double life they had, not because I cared about them, but because I didn't think it was right, today knowing them well and carrying a part of James Inside me, I realize that whatever your involvement with the mafia or with companies, I know that you would do everything to protect me, see me safe and well. My thoughts regarding the underworld or any type of illegality were prejudiced, I told myself that I would never get involved with any problem, and here I am, thirsty for revenge and wanting to kill Patricia and Ramon.
“Are you serious, Debbie?” She asked with her eyebrow raised, her expression wasn't the best.
“We resolved this a month ago, don’t act surprised.”
James got under the shower and passed his hand over his eyes, he wasn't happy with my decision at all, so before trying to make me change my mind he softened his voice and opened his eyes:
“I know what you're feeling, that's anger and it's not enough to have the strength to kill a person in cold blood, no matter how much they hurt you.”
“You don't know anything, James. You don’t know what I suffered when I saw my mother helping that miserable man abuse me, asking him to put on a condom.” Detailing that scene I experienced for James was very painful, the tears came down from my eyes and mixed with the shower water.
“Don’t say I don’t know, do you think I entered the underworld being cold and ruthless like Kevin? I had to learn and deal with each death, it didn't matter if it was innocent or not, I had to deal with it for years until I forgot and saw that at that point it was no longer important because it had already been done. I'm not saying they won't get what they deserve, they will, but I didn't want you to be the one holding the trigger, you're pregnant and you don't deserve to have their last image in your head.”
“No need to worry about me, James, I think I’ll do fine.” One of her hands went to my chin and brought her lips to mine. Her kiss was chaste and passionate, enough that I didn't want him to pull away.
“You’ll do great!”
After leaving the bathroom we put our clothes back on and went back upstairs, when we got there, we came across Kevin and Alisson sitting on the table enjoying lobster with wine, we joined them and then went to the pool area. At the end of the afternoon, we left the yacht, said goodbye, and headed home. Once there we took another shower and put on more comfortable clothes, in my case beautiful flannel pajamas and slippers. I stayed in the room devouring a tub of ice cream and watching TV while James went to the office to resolve some of his matters, night had arrived and I spent a good part of it in bed accompanied by my baby's father, we made love and then planned to sleep.
As the light of the big moon surpassed the huge window of the room and illuminated James's face, I looked at him with admiration and wonder, in fact he had a charming beauty, he had a sensual air that bound me with unbreakable chains, before I saw him just like that, just a pretty face, but it didn't take long for me to fall madly in love. Seeing him sleeping peacefully next to me reminds me of his harsh words when I found out about the pregnancy, it was admirable to realize that the same person who said he never wanted to know about the pregnancy or the baby, is next to me sleeping in a deep and peaceful sleep, and The most admirable and no less important thing is that I had promised to never forgive him for his offenses and here I am, admiring him sleeping.
I remembered his advice earlier when it came to Patricia and Ramon, maybe he's right, I'm not used to so much violence and especially practicing it, but I'll be able to remember very well what they did to me in that dirty basement, where I can still visibly see the scar in my arm and my soul. I ran my fingers over my belly, the baby was agitated inside me, so I was awake with a thousand thoughts running around in my head. I turned to the other side to sleep, at that moment James came closer to my body and placed his hand on my belly, he felt the baby's kicks and spoke in a sleepy voice:
“Let your parents sleep, this is not the time...” Little by little the restlessness stopped and I was perplexed by the quick obedience, I went back to sleep in disbelief.