I'll never forgive you
“Elena,” I crouched in front of her, with my hands pinned on the bed, at her sides. “I understand that you're angry and shattered about this. You certainly weren't expecting that what we had was gonna result in this. I wasn't expecting it either…”
Goddess, but why were my lips quivering so much? Why were my nerves clenched in anxiety? Maybe it was the aftermath of her cold threat. Saying she was gonna get rid of my child. It got me very shaken up.
“I understand, baby. I do. I know you need more time to wrap your head around it and I'm willing to give you all the time in the world. But please don't say something as horrible as that again.”
“Horrible? What's more horrible than being impregnated by the father of my mate, who's also my father's best friend?” She scoffed amid tears. Her gaze was still stoic and icy.
It was terrifying. Being the warm and good girl Elena all her life, I haven't really gotten the chance to see this side of her. It was new and I wasn't sure how to handle it.
Still, I was willing to try. Try to appease her. Try to convince her. However, I could.
“I understand, but please don't hurt my child. I'll do anything.” I held her hands, kissing them placatingly. “Tell me what you want me to do and I'll do it.”
“Can you end your mate bond with Vanessa? Would you be willing to choose my child over what you share with her?”
I was taken aback by those words, how coldly she said them and how stern her eyes were. Again, this was a whole different Elena. The one that wasn't catering to morals. She was a full-fledged toxic vixen tonight.
But I was just as toxic. And fucking desperate too, and she just doesn't have an idea.
“If that's what you want, then sure.” Her eyes widened and she pushed back a bit. I continued. “If you want me to end my bond with Vanessa in exchange for you to keep that child, then I will.”
And that's a fact. An ugly, pathetic fact, but yeah, a fact.
“You're insane,” she whispered, breaking down in tears again. “you're so fucking insane…”
“Yes, I am. I'm insanely into you. I'll do anything. So please…”
“I'm not keeping this child! I can't keep it!” She snapped, pushing me off and getting to her feet.
“Elena, please!” I was ready to grab her if she was heading for the door. But thank goddess she wasn't. She strolled to the other end of the room, pulling her hair in sheer frustration.
“Do you have any idea what you've done to me?” She spun around and asked. “You’ve ruined me, Vince…”
“No…”
“Do you have any idea how Father is gonna feel when he finds out about this?”
“I'll take the blame for everything. I'll face his wrath alone. I'll tell him it was all my fault and you were just a victim. I'll take the fall for this, baby, I swear it…”
“Taking the fall isn't enough! I want it erased!” She snapped wildly. “And it's not just father who'll have it bad when he hears of this. Aunt Vanessa will cuss me to hell when she finds out. The poor woman, she loves you to bits but here you are, ready to exchange that love for a child you haven't met yet. You're incredibly mean.”
“Yes, you're right. I'm a mean bastard. But don't forget I'm also a man willing to wager everything I have for you. I'm willing to throw it all away…”
“I don't want you throwing anything away for me! I just wanna be free from you and I don't want this child to stay any longer inside me. It's repulsing. Don't you get it?!”
“Elena, please,” I pulled her into my arms, hugging her tightly. She shoved her hands into my chest, hitting it and struggling to get out of my hold.
“Please,” my voice broke and surrendered to the tears that lingered in them. This was the most pathetic I've ever felt. But it didn't matter. I just needed her to take pity on me and the child.
“Let me go, Vince!” She clenched out, still struggling.
“Baby, please. Please forgive me and don't hurt our child. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have sent you those pictures. I shouldn't have been greedy for you. I shouldn't have let my hunger for you overcome me that night. I regret it all but please…”
“Regrets won't fix this…”
“I know. What do you want, hmm? Say it, whatever it is. All my properties. Half of my company. Whatever it is, I'll give it to you. Just don't carry on with your plans.”
“What I want is for you to let me go!” She struggled harder. But I still had her caged in my arms.
“Cut me some slack, I beg you,” I whispered into her ears, kissing her cheek. Burying my face in her hair to inhale the sweet scent. “Elena, please…”
“Vince, let me go…” She seethed. “Let me go or you're gonna make me get rid of it tonight.”
It was a threat but I didn't even bother to call her bluff. I let her go sharply, but I didn't move away from her.
“I'm going home. I'm gonna talk with Trent and I'll get rid of this child. I'm the one carrying it. I'm the one to decide what to do with it. Not you.” She finalized and walked past me.
“Don't do it, I beg you.” The words left my lips, as my knees hit the ground. My ego was crushed before my eyes, and all my worth slipped out the window.
This was the most humiliating moment of my life. Still, it was worth a try.
She froze, watching me in astonishment.
I couldn't maintain eye contact with her for longer so my gaze dropped to the floor.
“Do whatever you wanna do with me. Call me the nastiest name ever. But spare the child. I'm begging you.”
Her sobs became louder. But then they didn't change anything. The next second, the door opened.
“I'm sorry, Vince. I'm really sorry.” She said and left my bedroom.
My soul squeezed in agony. A sudden rush of adrenaline prompted me to get on my feet and chase after her. She was already down the stairs.
I caught her hand before she could reach for the doorknob of the main door.
“If…if you hurt that child, I'm never gonna forgive you.” I meant it.
She stared at me and slowly wiggled her hand out of my grip. “That's fair enough.” She said and left my house.
A sharp pain went to my heart and I rubbed at my chest to ease it. But it didn't stop hurting. It felt like my heart was caving in.