Chapter 38 Chapter Thirty-Eight
My eighteenth birthday wasn’t my first shift either. The first time I shifted I ran away for three days, because I thought something was wrong with me. I thought my pack would reject me. So, I kept it a secret, I refused to tell anyone even my own parents. When my parents asked where I ran off too and why I ran away, I made some lame excuse. I think my excuse was some boy broke my heart or something.
Whatever you do my sweet Leilani, do not keep it a secret. Find someone you trust, someone you love more than anyone in the world and tell them you are special. I hope that someone is your mate. I never told my mate, your father, about my gifts and I will regret that until the day I die. I almost told him thousands of times, but as the years went by it got harder and harder for me to bring it up, so I never did.
There is a chance you might find your mate, now that you are eighteen years old. If you have, I am so happy for you. I can not describe how much joy finding your mate will bring into your life. Having someone to love and protect you no matter what is the best feeling you can ever have.
I want to let you in on a little secret. I hope Malakai is your mate. I know he is older, but he is the best man I have ever met in my life aside from your father and I know he will take care of you.
Even if he isn't your mate, I know he will be the one doing your alpha training someday when the time comes. I know that he is the best man for the job, he will be tough, but also compassionate and you need that for your training.
He is also trustworthy, so when your gifts start to reveal themselves even if he isn't your mate, trust him enough to tell him. Let him help you develop your skills and special gifts. They might just save your life or the life on one of your pack members one day.
Don't be scared my beautiful Leilani. You are special, strong and you are going to be an amazing alpha one day. Just trust yourself and trust your own skills. Listen to your body, listen to your wolf and use your powers for good.
I love you to the moon and back!
Love, Mom xoxoxoxo
I set the letter down and turn to Malakai who has been patiently waiting for me to finish reading my letter. "Mom knows I am special. Well she knew I was going to be special, because she was too."
Malaki furrows his brows at me. "Special in what way Angel?" He asks.
I shake my head. "I don't know, she said my gifts would reveal themselves to me and I should trust you to help me develop my gifts and skills to be a better alpha." I say looking back down at the letter in my hand.
Malakai gives me a reassuring smile. "I will be here every step of the way baby. I will help you in any way I can, I will never let anything bad happen to you."
I leap into his arms kissing him hard. I can tell he wasn't expecting me to do that but he still catches me, kissing me back just as passionately. "I love you Malakai."
Malakai sets me back down on the floor kissing me one last time. "I love you too Angel." He keeps his arms wrapped around me and smiles down at me.
"What kind of gifts do you think I have?" I ask nervously.
Malakai shakes his head "I honestly don't know baby. There is something going on with your healing process. I got your blood on my claws but your skin didn't actually break open, it was like it healed instantly baby. I have never seen anything like that before. Are you sure you didn't feel any of it?"
I shake my head. "No I didn't even know you cut me, I couldn't feel anything anymore once I got really angry."
Malakai gives me a strange look, a look that makes me feel a little uneasy. "Why are you looking at me like that?" I ask.
Malakai takes a deep breath. "I noticed you started healing quickly, and fighting better when your eyes changed colors Angel."
My eyebrows furrow in confusion. "When my eyes changed colors? What are you talking about?"
Malakai cups my cheek with the palm of his hand. "Baby, your eyes. Your eyes turned a bright red color. You couldn't tell any difference?" He asks, forcing a reassuring smile. I can tell he is just as freaked out about all of this as I am.
"No I didn't feel any different at all. My vision didn't change any either. Do you think that has to do with me being special?" I ask, hating the uncertainty of all this.
I hate not knowing how to control whatever is going on inside me. I wish my mom had given me more details or told my father so he could help me.
Malakai kisses my forehead. "I'm sure it does baby. Maybe as we go through more of your training you will learn how to control it. So far your eyes only seem to turn colors when I get you really mad. So we know anger is at least one way to trigger it baby. Did your Mom say anything about Tiberius knowing about your gifts baby?"
I shake my head no, feeling overwhelmed. I feel a tear prick the back of my eyes and before I can stop it the first tear falls. "My mom said she didn't tell anyone because she was scared. My Dad doesn't even know anything about it. What if the pack members don't accept me as their alpha because something is wrong with me?" I choke out through the tears as more start falling.
"Don't cry baby." Malakai pulls me against his chest holding me tight as I sob. "It is okay baby, we will figure this out together. All of the pack members already love you baby, this won't change the way they look at you, okay? Don't worry Angel. I've got you!"