31- New love meeting
"I can't trust you. James, you said you would talk to her, sex with her wasn't part of the conversation."
"I understand how you feel, but Alysa and I are completely finished," he tells me firmly.
"And does she know you're with another woman?"
"Out of respect for her, I didn't want to tell her, didn't want to hurt her anymore, but she knows I no longer want to be with her, and she understood," he explains.
James walks towards me, a tear falls from my cheek and he wipes it away, then he leans towards my face and kisses my cheek. I breathe deeply and feel his warm breath on my lips, my heart beats fast, his masculine scent and his aroma of man envelop me in a sacred circle of light, I feel so blessed when I am in his arms. I feel a very powerful force, an immense desire to get closer to him, then I kiss him and our kiss grows with every passing second, filling me with more and more light.
"You are like a sun that warms me, and also the moon that holds me during the nights and fills me with tenderness. Since you came into my life, I see you before closing my eyes at night, and I see you when I wake up every morning," he says.
"I love you deeply, I no longer want to be away from your side, my beloved Vicki."
I hold his words sweetly in my ears, his words of love cover and protect me from all the world's harm, but I know there is something stronger than his protection, the protection and love that I give myself from within. If James ever fails me, I will be able to protect myself from him.
"I don't want you to fail me, or ever kiss another woman who isn't me," I tell him.
"I promise you, I will never again kiss another woman."
"If I ever stop feeling protected by your side, I will let you know."
"If that happens, I will be a better man, we will seek help, I will go to therapy with you, but I will not lose you."
"Agreed," I whisper, he kisses me sweetly, leans towards me and kisses my forehead.
I feel relieved and happy that James is willing to fight for our relationship, I understand that my mother is his past, I am his present. His desire was always to have me, and now he has me. I am also willing to work on improving as a couple, together, I will always be by his side, growing together from within, discovering who we are, being happy, and sharing that happiness with each other. There is still a part of me that feels distrust, but there is no longer any doubt in what I feel. Together, we will face any challenge, I trust that together we can overcome any obstacle. I walk towards his desk and sit on his lap, he opens his legs and I can feel his penis, I melt with love as I touch him through his pants, I continue feeling his body, holding him tightly. His hands roam my legs and go up my miniskirt, I feel the bliss with his hands running over me. I know there is much to resolve and it will be a difficult path, but I am willing to fight for our love, I am willing to surrender to this love, to my best friend's dad.