STICK TO THE RULES, ALPHA.

Oceana's Pov.

Though I didn't tell anyone, I secretly craved to meet someone I could love, not some arranged Alpha.

I love him, this emotion is just too much for me to handle, this feeling that keeps swelling inside me, I can't stop this feeling.

My dreams had come true, my wishes came to pass and it happened to be the person I had been searching for all my life.

Gerard, a stubborn Alpha who is constantly adamant.

He was standing in front of me, making my heart swell with pride and dignity. I don't know how much to describe it but I am so happy to see him and I'm glad he was born into my life, thankful to the moon goddess for bringing him to me.

He is also captivating and I would love to kiss him and hug him. I usually have these dirty thoughts of how he was going to be in bed and how hard his dick was going to be, how he was going to moan and pound into me.

Damn, that would be the most amazing thing on the planet.

Come to think of it, Adolph never really answered my question but what gives anyways, I still have to find more answers to my questions, I just need to dig deeper and search for what I'm looking for and I hope, I don't do something regretful.

"That can never happen, you can never be my mate, Oceana.'

He finally spoke but his tone was so different, his reaction wasn't what I expected from him and I began to think if I was beginning to cling to him more. Was I obsessed, no, that wasn't it. I was in love with him. Does he know that or is he just not taking me seriously, why can't he just believe in me, why can't he just trust me and know my feelings for him are true.

We just met recently and this was the reaction he was giving me after everything I went through to see him and he isn't even the same person, he is acting differently towards me. Why do I feel like he is trying to avoid me?

It's been six years, I know but isn't he supposed to know how that felt? That I would be so excited to see him since he told me I was his mate. I became happy and I don't have any regrets, rather I am happy and I don't care about whatever happens to me.

"Why? Can I at least know the reason?'

I knew the reason he was saying those words to me but I just don't want to admit it. He was mine and I don't want anyone else to take him away from me, he's been the one I had always loved. All this was getting me scared of him leaving me, terrifying, I don't want him to go away from me, I love him with all my heart.

"You already know the reason.' He nearly turned his back to me when I spoke.

"I love you, Gerard.' I finally spilled it out what I needed him to listen to and hope this will change his point.

There was silence for a while, then he flared up. "Will you shut up?" I was baffled when he shouted at me. "I'm getting married Oceana, put your head out of the clouds, this is not some fantasy, but a real life, don't get us in trouble and mind your tongue, you are an Alpha, don't just spit words out of your mouth, because you want to talk with your mouth."

So, he was truly getting married, I thought it was all just an act to make me give up, so it was true.

And that woman I saw calling me her biggest fan was the one he was getting married to.

"Why are you being so stupid, you think my words are just empty words, I mean everything I say here, stop trying to sound stupid and make me look like the bad guy, is it a crime to claim you.' I yelled, this was getting on my nerves. He seemed stressed and frustrated, they were black spots under his eyes. Why didn't I notice it earlier, was he sleeping properly?

"I should be asking you the same question, Oceana, get your head straight, think about this family and the pack, don't step on me and as for me making you look like the bad guy, I don't think so. Think about the consequences you are getting into."

"What will you do if I don't do so, Gérard, I loved you with all my heart, why are you doing this to me, I don't give a fuck about anyone." I couldn't help it, my heart was about to burst, what wouldn't he just understand me?

"Are you scared, just admit it?" I demanded with a glare.

"If I were so scared like you think, I wouldn't be speaking or letting the both of us have this conversation.'

"Then, why are you not accepting me, why are you pushing me away from you, like I'm a crybaby whining for attention.'

"Because you are not serious, this is our family we are talking about, the clan is going to have our head if we go along with this mate thing you are speaking about."

"This is what you say to me, after all these years, how could you, Gerard. Mating with my brother is not a crime, the moon goddess arranged us this way, we didn't ask for it, why would the realm be against it.' I reasoned and he just sighed and looked at me once more.

That was the question, why would the realm be against it, what are their reasons for their brutal action towards this type of mates like us.

"This life we are in, Oceana, it's not the same, though we might be destined for some certain stuff, doesn't mean we are meant to do it. Listen to me, I'm doing what is best for you, it doesn't matter if we don't ask for it or not, no one cares, all I'm saying is for us to follow the right path and don't dwell on this bond that is connecting us both, to the realm's reputation we are an eyesore, we are not normal, we would be an outcast for the rest of our lives, because it is unacceptable, don't you get it."

"I don't need you to do what's best for me, you don't get to choose what is good for me, I am old enough to know what's best for me, you don't get to decide on what my life is going to be, I determine it and I want you as my Alpha, whatever we do, you know we can't defy the moon goddess's instructions and stop being such a scaredy cat and hiding from reality."

"What did you just say, are you even listening to me?" His eyes widened.

"You heard me.' I yelled and folded my hands across my chest and then, put them down. "I'm not going to hide it.'

"Then be ready to die.' He blurted out solemnly.

My heart skipped a beat.

"You've lived in the palace, in the mansion and the clans, you still don't know the rules and you are trying to hide to act like everything is going to be fine if we just come out together and announce it to the whole world that we are mates, the moon goddess matched us together, you can't touch us and we love each other, isn't it?' He mocked. "Is that your fucking plan, Oceana. You should know this, you are not Cinderella who got a happy ending in a movie, this is also not a novel, in which the lead characters always fought their enemies because of love and got a happy ending. Wake up to reality and think of what we are sticking our asses into if you want us to come out, is that you want us to do, you must be joking. I'm trying to save your life, you are trying to get killed, how pathetic.' He taunted again with a chuckle.

This wasn't the Gerard I knew, where did the sweet, caring, loving Gerard go to, where did the Alpha who is always by my side, consoling me, motivating me to always do the right thing, where was he? He sounded cold like he didn't want this relationship between us, even if we are mates, he wants me to reject him but why couldn't I do that? Why can't I just end this once and for all, he doesn't believe in us, he wants his life not ours.

It broke me.

I thought he would be so happy, I thought with just a few words, I would be able to convince him to bond with me. I thought with just a few words, he would be mine and we would hold hands and fight whoever comes our way, was I in my fantasy and not the real world, like he is saying I am? I know this is not some movie, but real life as it seems. I just intended to put up the courage and fight for what is mine.

What happened to Gerard and why am I seeing the opposite of him? What happened to "Be Together Forever" was it all lies?

"Gerard.' I whispered, clenching my fist.

He continued. "I thought you were going to be disgusted with me, that's why I told you, I didn't expect you to act on your feelings and not think about where you stand."

"Because I don't care, you are the one I love."

"Stop saying those words, the walls have ears, you are not a child, stop saying "I love you" put your fucking head together."

"I can't let you go, stop acting like you are someone else, you are Gerard." My eyes were beaming with tears. "The pain I felt earlier, do you think, do you think I can…"

"What the fuck is wrong with you, don't you ever understand what I say to you." He said and began walking away from me. "Geez.' He murmured.

"I'm not backing down without a fight, Gérard, I love you and that's all that matters." I quickly stated.

He laughed. "I wish that were the case. Tell me those exact words in ten years, leave me the fuck alone."

I blocked his path. "I know you love me, don't torture me anymore, please, I know you are doing this for me I don't care even if you act indifferent to me, act all rude but don't leave me. Can't you remember the good times we spent together, what we shared?"

I didn't want to bother about that anymore.

Suddenly, he slightly grabbed my neck with his hand and whispered. "Oceana, don't let me hate you for who you are."

I was terrified, why would Gérard grab my neck like that, does he really hate me.

"Behave yourself, don't draw unnecessary attention, you are an Alpha, an heir to the throne, you will rule someday, get married, have kids, and take over the realms, while you are queen, focus on that. I am not your future or the path to your happiness, understand that, Oceana, don't make this worse than it already is, think of Alex's life, our family, if you don't that to be ruined. Stay away from this mate bond and focus on the important stuff."

I struggled a little to breathe but I kept talking. "Grip my neck tighter, Alpha."

He was baffled at my words. "Are you going nuts, Oceana?"

"I don't care if you do this to me..." I panted. "If you want me to stop disturbing about being your mate and all that, kill me and tear my body to shreds, I don't want to give up on you and all those things you just said to me, I want that all from you, if you really love me, you will give it to me. It is you, I wish to be my husband."

"Dameri to sha ta no she.' He spoke in the Mackenzie language that I was crazy and insane.

I smiled at him.