Chapter 21 Twenty one
Chapter 21 Twenty one
Astra's POV.
3 hours later I was on my way to my house what I was the most miserable in my mind because I kept thinking about how this ended up becoming even as weird as possible when I could have just been crossing my legs somewhere and sipping on a bottle of wine or juice before it was so late but here I was thinking about the negative.
I kept sneaking glances at Vincent who I caught the kid at me from the corner of his eyes.
It was almost like he didn't believe that both of us would be talking to each other at this point and I kind of shared the same sentiments with him but I was hoping that we didn't get to a point where we hated each other or started thinking the worst.
It's had to be done the right way and if that was not going to be into plan we needed to find something else to do to make ourselves even better.
I had an idea that I was willing to play with as long as the truth came out to stay and that included the fact that if I was coming I had with all the things that I can considered very important to myself then I needed to do it with intent.
we didn't have to keep touching each other to know that we have a lot of Sparks running through our entire spine and I didn't want to fool myself anything that I would be able to find a solution to this when I knew how was feeling.
He was a bad idea. He was my brother's best friend a line that I should never have crossed whether now or in the future it's not because of what I wanted but because of what was necessary
"Why do you keep pushing back?"
He interrupted my peace because now I was thinking about nothing else but watching him claim my lips and bring back that sensation I used to feel when I was 18 years.
"Huh?" I blinked trying to follow on with the conversation yet coming up with nothing.
"You know we have a lot of things in common and I think that for some people who everybody could have sworn that this was a bad idea for we've been able to navigate it quite gracefully. It's not because we are that perfect or any of those things but because we know what is upstate and how we need to focus on it."
I knew that I was probably confusing him and he was trying to figure out what exactly was running through my mind but I needed to clear everything up before we found ourselves in into a mistake.
" I don't understand everything but if you have to keep lying to me after I begged you to tell me the truth then there's really nothing that we are doing here. We are only fighting for our freedom with everything that we've got." I said.
It wasn't supposed to really stir any conversation that was going to lead both of us into more problems but I wanted to deflect as bad as possible
"You know what I'm talking about darling."
Heat spread over my cheeks as soon as he called me that. I must have imagined that a day was going to come where he was going to be very confident to speak to me but... If memory served me right I have been the person pushing back all along.
Now there was even a greater thing that I was trying to establish, it wasn't because there was even more than I should have done but because I had decided to take a risk and nobody understood and it was quite fine for them.
It was going to take a long time before they ever came to terms with the issues at hand I'm by then I will show that I would have been done with it.
There was nothing more to speak about because I had already come to terms that if I was going to be moving into an uncharted territory I needed to have control of my emotions
"You probably think that everybody is out to get you one way or the other and I understand your perfectly but that's not always the truth. Everybody has a way of dealing with things but I'm not one of those who is going disturb you." He assured me.
Assuring me was a great speech but I didn't believe anything coming out of his mouth especially when my brother was still missing and refused to reach out to me after all my calls.
"Since we are in the vein of being honest why don't we have that conversation that you've been running away from?" I demanded from him watching him pause for a minute
Of course he wasn't thinking that I was just going to let this go and pretend like everything was fine because I knew that it was in that I was already to deal with it no matter the circumstances.
"I know that you probably think that this is a normal occurrence but it's not I'm very scared on your behalf that something else is going to happen that we do not like."
He was still looking at me like he didn't understand anything that I was saying but I didn't think that I was pushing for him to.
I was pushing for myself to be understood and for me to have a better mindset that was going to help me out.
"You know we could have different opinions and all of them would end up being right. But the only difference is that a few people would be able to come to terms with everything that has been going on."
He was still looking at me like he didn't understand why I was speaking this way. I was not going to let this move without me doing something about it.
"What exactly do you want to know about everything?"
"Why did you kill him? If you tell me this I would have no doubt about anything you say."