Chapter 17

ALEX'S POV

Until now I still can't forget Bryan's reaction when he found out about my relationship with Nic.

Flashback

"FIANCEE???"

I bit my lower lip. I know that this will happen but I didn't expect it to happen right now.

How can I explain to him about situation with Nic. Though I don't really need to explain myself to him because we have no relationship but still I know that I still owe him an explanation. I feel guilty even though I know I did nothing to him.

'What do you mean nothing? You lead him on!' my other mind scolded me.

"Of course not! I am even avoiding him right?!" I defended myself.

'Fine if that's what you want to believe. Just go on deceiving yourself.' My other mind trying to rebuke me.

"S-sorry" I only said at the same time bowing my head and biting my lip.

I feel so guilty.

"S-sorry?" he repeated what I said.

I looked at him but I immediately avoided his gazed. I can not do it. I might just cry.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you about me and Nic."

He clenched his jaw. I also saw the folding of his fist slightly trembling.

My eyes widened. Is he angry?

"So what this man is saying is true?" Bryan asked seriously.

I can't find myself to give him an answer.

"ALEX ANSWER ME!" he shouted.

Confirmed. He was angry.

"Chill dude. What's the problem?" Nic groaned while holding my shoulder.

I saw that Bryan clenched his fist even more as his eyes glazed over at Nic's hand holding my shoulder.

"Back off. Its none of your business. "Bryan answered seriously still looking at Nic's hands and my shoulders.

"My fiancee is involve here. That's make this thing my business." Nic said gently.

"Fiancee? Right!" Bryan sarcastically said and laughed bitterly and left.

End of Flashback

"You okay Lex?" Nic asked.

I straightened up and smiled at him. "I'm okay."

"You sure? Who's that guy by the way? Ex boyfriend? But I heard that you never had a boyfriend." He seems to be worried about me.

"Ex boyfriend of my best friend." I answered him.

I saw Nic's left eyebrow rise. "Woah ... but from the way he reacts earlier it looks like you are his ex girlfriend and not your best friend."

I did not answer. I also don't know what to say to him.

"But he like you." Nic concluded.

"And I assume he broke up with her." he added.

I shook my head "My best friend was the one who broke up with her."

"Yes. But he is the one who gave the hint to your best friend to break up with him." again its not a question. He seemed very sure of what he said.

I did not answer again. It seems that no matter how I hard I deny, he will not believe me.

"You like him?" Nic asked me directly.

My eyes widened.

He chuckled. "From your reaction... I guess its a yes"

I just lower my head. Again guilt hit me.

"You want me to cancel the engagement?" Nic asked.

I looked at him.

He smiled at me. "I won't force you to marry me ... especially since I know you have someone else you love."

"I just like him. I don't love him yet."

He frowned. "What do you mean?"

I gave him a forced smile. "To tell you honestly I expected that I will end up in an arranged marriage. And I have nothing against that. Because the result from my grand father to my 2 brothers is good though everyone went through some drama first but still they end having their happy ending."

He just smiled and waited for what I would say next.

"And I admit because of Bryan I forgot that possibility. But when reality hits me I think the timing is just perfect. First as I said what I feel for him is just like not yet in love. Second our status is very complicated. We can't admit our feelings for one another because my best friend will surely get hurt. And I don't want the fact that my boyfriend is my best friend's ex boyfriend. To tell you honestly most of my friends' ex boyfriend have liked me and even if I don't I want to but I was often the reason for their break up." I explained to him.

"Really?" amusement is seen on his face.

I nodded and smile "But in all of them... Bryan is different-"

"Because you never like those guys except for Bryan." Nic cut me off.

Again I nodded. He was very observant, so I am more comfortable with him. Maybe if It was another guy it probably awkward. But Nic manage to make this situation more relaxed and comfortable.

"What are you planning to do?" He asked me.

"I want to forget him and and marry you." I told him.

He looked at me intently. "Are you sure?"

I nodded.

I know that I sound selfish but I think this is the right thing to do.

"Will it be okay with you if Bryan will fall in love to other girl and forget you?" He seriously asked me.

I was stunned by Nic's question. Am I really okay with it?