I could have invited Chris in and continued with what we started and ended in the car, but I also can't stop thinking about what he said about me being jealous.
He can't be right. What we have is exclusively a colorful friendship, with benefits, nothing major. After the horniness of the moment passed and we did what we did in the car, I started to think about it. I know he apologized afterward, and I was surprised by his attitude, but what if there was some truth in it? What if I was jealous?
No, Molly, of course not. You can't and shouldn't be jealous of him. Chris is not a relationship guy, and he made it clear as he brought several women to Julie's apartment. And even though he hasn't done it that often lately, I don't think he's changed his mind that much.
I want him to see that I'm not interested in that either, I need to find a way to show him that, and I think I could find a way, yes. I wish I didn't know about him so much, but even when I don't want to, I do.
After thinking a lot about it, I sleep and wake up on Sunday earlier than I would like. I think about going to Julie's house, but they are still asleep. I get tired of staying at home and decide to go to a square that is very close to home. I have an ice cream while ignoring my phone and my urge to ask Chris to meet me.
Then I realize something, maybe what is missing for this to work, is to include other people in our lives. I have made it clear to him that he can be with whoever he wants, and I think I should do the same, and maybe this schism that I was jealous of last night will disappear.
After talking with Amanda, a fellow student of mine, I invite her to take us for a walk. Julie is probably stuck with Brennan today on those couple shows at home, and I don't want to get in the way. I know that Chris and that friend of his frequent a bar a few blocks away, so as much as I don't want to run into Chris today, we decided to stop by.
.
I see Chris and his friend a few minutes after we arrive, for a change, he is a cat, and I even feel like going there to talk to him, but I also decide that it is better not to go because that is what this night is about, not going after Chris.
His friend saw me, and Chris looked in our direction seconds later. He smiles at me, and I smile back. I don't know if he had plans to come here, but if so, he gives up as soon as the handsome brunette friend of Amanda's approaches us and greets me with a kiss on the cheek.
I can't help but look in their direction and see that Chris has the same expression on his face that I must have had at the bar when I saw him talking to those women.
... Chris...
What is going on with both of us? It is getting out of the way we planned.
I don't know if I should walk over and say hello or stare as our eyes cross. Still, I decided to take the second option after Ryan approaches Molly and her friend and greets her like they are old friends, something I know is not valid. I have never seen him talking to her before, even though she has been here before and he always frequents this bar.
Ryan is one of the shittiest guys I have ever lived with, and I had the displeasure of going to a party where he was invited. We shared the same car, which made him stay with people during the event, and I have never seen a person pour so much crap out of his mouth as he did that night.
Adan notices my face as I look again in their direction, and Ryan is already getting closer and closer to Molly.
''This guy is a shit!''
Adan replies:
''I know.''
''Remember how he talked to those women at the party at Ruby's house that one time?''
Adan doesn't even loolook at them when he answers:
''I do.''
I take a deep breath and don't want to look at them, but my eyes betray me, and I do it again. Molly smiles at me, and I smile back, but she holds her gaze as if she realizes I don't like what's going on here, but I don't care. I wouldn't say I like it.
I stand up and hear Adan tell me:
''Dude, don't do this!''
But I don't even stay to hear if he has said anything else. I walk towards them, sitting there. Molly looks a little surprised to see me as I greet her, she smiles a little awkwardly, and we stare at each other for a while when Ryan greets me as if we were old friends taking her and even me by surprise. Her friend looks at me, smiles, and says:
''Aren't you going to introduce me to your friend Molly?''
Molly doesn't seem to like the way her friend looks at me but still says:
''Chris, this is Amanda.''
She promptly gets up and greets me with a lingering kiss. Molly disguises it, but I know she doesn't like this very much. Maybe all this here will make her see that it is much better if we were just the two of us somewhere else. Ryan says he will get a drink and insists I sit with them. I want to be near her to alert her to what an evil character he is, and I accept him.
As soon as he leaves, Amanda starts asking me several questions that I try to answer in the most exciting way possible, but my attention is on her, who is trying not to pay attention to us but to her cell phone. When Amanda finally diverts her attention when a girl comes over to talk to her, I approach Molly and say:
''Why don't you stop pretending you have something important on your phone and return to reality here?''