Getting them off

I tried putting all that happened to me today behind my back and stopped thinking about it , but it was just as if I couldn't hide the thought of Jeff cheating on me with my best friend .

It was just stuck in my head and I couldn't stop thinking about it , I felt used and betrayed .

I hated this feeling to the core. I don't know why I kept on getting myself into this pain .

I don't deserve any of this but yet it just keeps happening to me , why was I always unfortunate, I thought jeff loved.

We had been dating since college and Tessa had been the perfect best friend that I could ever  of but it was just as if I had been fooled  and the both of them just played with me , they fucking played with my feeling's like it  nothing to them

I walked into my house and the quietness welcomed me back .

The first thing I saw  the moment I stepped into my living room was me and mom's picture at my graduation from college .

She had the most beautiful smile that anyone Could think of. I knew I couldn't call her at this moment. She was on a date with her boyfriend and I never wanted to disturb her , definitely not now .

"Mom had me at the early age of 18 , well her parents were disappointed and wanted her to abort me but she refused and kept me , even my dad never wanted me and I had never seen him till this day , till now mom is single and she had single handedly trained me up to this level .

I was 24 and mom was 40  but we looked like sisters and whoever saw us would think that I was her junior sister .

, my dad family never cared to look for me and I still didn't care either , he should go to hell for all I care , mom had every reason to be proud of me ,

I was definitely making her proud , I had my own fashion line and I was opening my own Company since I read business

, I was doing real good for my age and I had a lot of money that I guess was the reasons why I got a l whole lot of admirers and out of all of them I stupidly  choose Jeff how stupid I could be .

He had just gotten engaged a month ago and now today he's in bed with my best friend.

I cleaned the tears that I had in my eyes , I wasn't going to keep on sulking over someone that doesn't even care about me anymore .

Could feel my phone ringing from My bag but I didn't bother to pick it up .

I was not going to let anyone tell me what to do. I knew mom was the only one calling me right now and for a moment I wondered why she was calling me .

climbing up the stairs I picked out my phone from my pocket and I saw that mom had given me up to 30 missed calls but  I wasn't new to something like this .

she could just be calling me because she wanted to see me and she missed me and I didn't want that kind of attention now there was no need of picking it up .

I climbed up the stairs and I fell on my bed immediately I got in and that moment I let out all of my tears.

I was in so much pain .

I knew I had done literally everything to make sure this relationship works out but how could he sleep with Tessa , my best friend , how could he do something like that after everything I had done to make sure that it works .

I hated the fact that I had to be weak and this way , I don't want to be like this. How could I even think that I could get him in the first place .

Jeff came from a well to do family , his dad has one of  the biggest companies in the whole of  New York.

though they were pretty popular but one thing I knew was the fact that his mom  never like and she did literally everything to make sure that I left his son and I knew one of her reason was the fact that I was raised by a single mother but I just didn't care , I didn't want to think about it , I wasn't going to keep thinking about the past .

The sun was already setting in the sky and right in front of me the sky was getting dark and I was still sulking. .

I closed my eyes but the ringing of my phone couldn't stop me , I was still crying and mom just couldn't stop calling me .

, I picked up the phone from my bag and I immediately placed it on silence , I wasn't going to fall for such anymore I just wanted to be able to do my own thing and not mom Calling me like I owe her something or I was some kind of commodity that she could just call and order around just the way she likes .

I wasn't going there .

I kept watching the sky go dark and I knew that I Couldn't stop thinking about  what had happened .

I just had to get the thought out of my head and standing up from my bed , I grabbed my car keys and Began walking out of the house .

I wasn't going to be  crying over it , I was done sulking because of them , they were happy and I just have to be too even if it's going to be for. a second I was done being a weak fellow , I knew what to do .

I entered my car and began driving off the building. I knew what to do with them. I guess it's time that I showed them what I could really do , I was going to get drunk and wasted

I don't care about it anymore .

I needed to get away my sorrow