Chapter 41 What if

“Are you okay baby? I guess not. You seem silent after your groupmates leave the mansion. I know there is something wrong.” Axiel asks her frankly. He can't see her like this. Her silent treatment is killing him. He is not used to it. Lyn is a cheerful girl and talkative.

“It's nothing. Don't mind me. I'm just exhausted because of the taping. Let's just sleep. I'm really tired.” she lifelessly says before laying at the bed facing the wall opposite to him. Avoiding the question.

He forcibly let her face him. Their eyes meet each other, Lyn sees his pleading eyes. Want to seek the truth. It breaks her heart. Axiel didn't deserve her. She's too emotional this time. Not able to control her emotions.

“I know you baby. Come on, tell me what's wrong. Can I be trusted for now? I am willing to hear and be your comfort at the same time.” coaxing her with words. Giving her a loving hug with a kiss on the forehead for assurance that it would be okay, she need to open up to him.

“I'm afraid Axiel. It is this relationship wouldn't work. I can't Axiel that's why I didn't want to get used to how you care and love me. What if I lose you someday. I don't know how to start again Axiel so please don't care too much. It's hard to get used to it.” she admitted. Knowing that Axiel will not be satisfied with her first reason to avoid it. Axiel has a strong feeling about everything.

“So that's the matter who keeping you silent. Can I ask a question to you?” he simply said. He understands what she means. It is easy to read her emotions. That's her weakness. Even if she keeps denying it but her emotions can't.

“Go on.” Lyn allows him. She didn't know what is he thinking right now but she hope that it was all good.

”Do you love me? Do you trust me?” two questions that will enlighten her. He asks for her to analyze and understand what he truly means by those questions.

If she loves and trusts him, she will regret saying those words right in front of his face. It hurts his heart when she says it. Did he lack anything? He loves and takes care of her. He gives what she wants. But why did she say those words?

“Of course yes but-”

“No more buts, you said yes so, you need to get rid of those thoughts you have. It is not good for you and it hurts me. Nothing is wrong and I know that you're the only one I will love and I want to be with you for the rest of my life.” Lyn cry because of what he said. She comes closer and hugs him, so tight. She regrets what she just said earlier. She mustn't let her emotions envelopes her.

“I love you.” Lyn's last words before passing out. It alarmed Axiel.

‘What happens?’

“Lance! Manang! Mom! Dad!” he shouted. He feels nervous and afraid of what will happen next.

‘Please baby, don't be like this.’

‘You're scaring me.’

“Baby wake up. Please wake up. I don't want to lose you. Please” tears flow from his eyes as he says those words. He hugs her tight not willing to let her go.

“Son, what's wrong? Why are you shouting?” Fernando stormed in. He's the first to come in before the others. They see him in that situation, him hugging Lyn at the bed.

“S-She p-past o-out d-dad. I-I d-didn't k-know w-what t-to d-do.” he stuttered while saying those words. His voice is hoarse because of his cry. Kyla and the other girls come near Lyn and examine her.

“What did you do son? Did you argue with her?” Mateo asks with an angry voice. He's freaking worried about his only daughter. Specifically that she has a heart sickness.

“No, dad. We talk but I didn't argue with her, promise. I swear dad.” Axiel assured his innocence about the allegation towards him.

“Her pulse is weak. We need to bring her to the hospital.” finally Joanine talk. But why? What's going on with Lyn?

“Prepare the car Lance, now!” Axiel ordered. Lance leave immediately to do what his Master ordered. Axiel carries Lyn in a bridal style leaves the room with the others following him.

“Prepare the cars now! It's an emergency!” Lance shouted when he step on the entrance of the mansion. Shocking those subordinates that are guarding the mansion. They panic but can do their work right on what is ordered.

Axiel comes out of the mansion holding Lyn into his hands and directly walk toward the car that Lance opened for him. His family and Lyn's parents follow them behind using a van when they go first.

Doc Vin wait for them at the entrance of the hospital as he received a call from Fernando. He's with his co-doctors and nurses. They instantly check Lyn when they arrived while pulling her toward the ER. All of them care when they see the result of the examination.

Lyn's heart has a hole in the right artery. Not big but it is a risk. Axiel approach him as he came out for the ER with a worried look.

“What's wrong with her? Tell me!” Axiel can't help but raise his voice.

“Her condition is sudden. Her heart has a hole and we need to do an operation as soon as possible to avoid complications. Sorry Master because we just see her real condition now.” Doc Vin tells the result and apologizes as well.

“What? How come?” Mary ask. She's worried about her daughter like the others.

“Do you have a case like this in your family?” Doc Vin asks to confirm if Lyn's case is heritage on their family. It could be a reason why Lyn has this.

“Yes but not mine, my husband's family. His second cousin has heart disease too.” Mary said. It can be, there's a big chance if they have a history in the family.

“That could be the reason. Your husband's family history disease transfer to Lyn. As like what she said in my first check-up to her, she has a heart disease like yours that didn't have a cure. Maybe this disease aggravated her heart condition and worsen it.” Doc Vin explains the possible cause of Lyn's current disease.

‘When your family has a history of a certain disease, it could be the transferable generation to generations. No one knows who will be the next victim in the family.’

“Did she need a heart transplant?” Axiel ask. He can provide money for the hospital to find a donor for his baby. Even if Lyn needs to be transferred abroad for her operation, he can do that just to cure her.

“Yes, it is the only way to cure her. Do you agree on the way of operation?” Doc Vin asks. Seems that's the only one way.

“I agree. Cure her and don't mind how much it cost. I'm willing to pay just for her.” Axiel assured Doc Vin that no matter what, Lyn's disease must be cured even it will cost him. Money is not permanent but health is much more important. We only have one life so we must treasure and take care of it.

“Okay, Master. The hospital will seek a compatible donor for her and we will do the operation as soon as possible. I take my leave first Master. I need to tell the management. Lady Lyn will be transferred in her private room.” Doc Vin takes his leave after Axiel nods his head as a response.

Two nurses bring Lyn into her room using a stretcher. They slowly put her in the bed, fix her blanket and check those apparatus that are connected to her even the dextrose before leaving the room, leaving the family to take care of the patient. They will come over around every two hours.

“Son, we will go home first to get some clothes, cook food, and buy some fruits too. Take care of Lyn for now while we are not here. Everything will gonna be alright son, believe in her, she's a fighter.” Kyla said while patting Axiel's shoulder. They need to get some stuff at the mansion to use while staying here in the hospital.

“You can go, mom. Take a rest for now and you can come here tomorrow. I know you're tired as well. I'll take care of her for now. Just let the driver bring our clothes here later.” they need a rest. He's here so he can take care of her. And also he wants to be alone with Lyn. He's depressed because of the situation.

“Okay, just call us if something bad happened or you need something.” Fernando bid his goodbye and so did the others before leaving the room. He let out a sigh before turning to Lyn whose peacefully sleeping like a kitten. So cute. You can't see that she's suffering.

“I don't want to lose you, baby. You're my life and strength. I love you” Axiel takes a nap after saying those words full of love and sincerity.

Hours passed and Lyn woke up. She feels dizzy but it's bearable. She saw the man she loved beside her sleeping peacefully. He looks tired which makes her feel guilt and at the same time pity because of his position. I thought.

‘Is he okay in that position? My bed is wide but why he's sleeping at my side in a sitting position. My bed is a queen size so why’ she decided to wake him up to let him join her in the bed.

“Baby wake up. Come and join me in the bed.” she shakes him while saying it. Axiel moaned before opening his eyes. Their eyes meet each other.

“You're awake. Do you need something? Water, food, or anything? Just tell me so I can get it for you.” a little worried, he manages to say those words completely. His sleep has been distracted but it's okay because his baby woke up. He's tiredness was gone as well.

“I didn't need anything baby. You seem uncomfortable in your position while sleeping, come here and join me here in the bed, it's so wide baby.” Lyn smile a lot which convinced Axiel that nothing bad happened to her. He smiles and joins her in the bed. He hugs her sideward because Lyn stays still. The needle of her dextrose is placed at her left hand so needs to sleep in a stay still position.

“Where's my parents and your baby,” Lyn asks without glaring at him. She's busy roaming her eyes around the room but suddenly asks about it.

Axiel responds while his eyes are closed, “They go home baby. They will visit you tomorrow because they need to rest as well.” his voice is calm while saying but you can sense his sleepiness.

“Okay. Let's sleep, baby.”

“Uhmmmm” he hummed and hug her tighter but it's not that tight, she can breathe.