Chapter 74 Dearest Miss Pretty
Feeling confused, she turned her diary to another page and started reading on.
Dear Thyago's Notes:
Your Master chatted with me today and I definitely enjoyed being with him. Just wish we talked more longer than that. He actually caressed my cheek and his thumb gently massaged the side of my lips. Okay, that was partly a lie. Actually, he didn't caress my cheek, I just wish he did. He said there's a smudge on my face so he wiped it, just wish he did it because he wants to. Strange, but when I'm near him, my heart always throbs. When he touched the side of my lips, I felt certain electricity and it sent me tingling inside. When his breath fanned my face, I shivered deliciously and when he gazed at me eye to eye, gosh it seems like I'm melting like an ice cream under the sunlight. He was such an amazing person. He was smart and full of ambitions and I was glad I got to know that part of him. I know he was excellent in so many ways so there's no way he can't be the person he wants to be in the future. I can only wish him all the best in life.
I never felt this way before towards a boy, probably because he was the first person who made me feel this way. But I love these feelings somehow. He actually inspired me and makes me think about what I wanna be in the future. All these strange things I feel towards your Master, although it's new to me, I'm perfectly fine with it. Just so wish he'll feel the same way too in the future. I mean there is nothing wrong with dreaming since it was free anyway, right? I only wished he stayed more longer so he got the chance to know me more better...
Miss Pretty
She got stunned again when a message was written at the end portion of her notes. Having that nervous and excited feeling, she checked the date written. It was surprising Thyago made a reply again. Did he happen to write a response on every note she had written in this diary? With a curious mind, she started reading his reply.
Dearest Miss Pretty:
I remember when I visit Watson's house looking for Elena and I got a chance to see and talk to you. I was about to leave but you told me I can just wait for Elena. With that, I was tempted to stay longer so I immediately grabbed the opportunity. I asked you if you could accompany me and you gladly said yes without thinking twice. You're funny and smart and you never failed to amaze me, you know that? We chatted and talk different kinds of stuff and then all of a sudden I found myself confiding my secret towards my disappointment to my parents and how I wanted to take up law in college. It's kinda funny I never told anyone about that even Elena who has been a friend to me since young. You understandingly listened and gave me your honest opinion and advice. You just don't know how much that means to me.
When I wiped the smudge on your face, I had a chance to look at you more closely, and damn how I got mesmerized by that pretty and innocent face. I couldn't help to secretly smile when I saw you blushed but then all of sudden, realization struck me. Doubts, hesitations, and uneasiness suddenly crept in me. I shouldn't be feeling this way towards a kid like you. You are way out of my league and I kinda felt ashamed of myself so I just decided to go and leave after that. I could have stayed more longer and that's what I truly want but then somethings tell me to run and disregard that feeling before it causes me trouble in the future. You can say I'm a coward and a jerk but you have to believe me I was still confused about my feelings at that time...
P.S. That's one of the wonderful moments with you and I enjoyed it so much...
The Master
A warm smile painted her lips after reading his notes. She didn't know that's how he feels at that moment. Then, she just found herself turning every page of her diary as she read her own penmanship together with the corresponding messages below each page that are written by the codename The Master
Dear Thyago's Note:
I choose to love you in silence...
For in silence I find no rejection,
I choose to love you in loneliness...
For in loneliness no one owns you but me,
I choose to adore you from a distance...
For distance will shield me from pain,
I choose to kiss you in the wind...
For the wind is gentler than my lips,
I choose to hold you in my dreams...
For in my dreams you have no end.
When I read that poem on a literature collection page online, it hit me too hard because that was actually what I felt towards your Master. I adore him from a distance, kiss him in the wind and hold him in my dreams. Yeah, I know, I'm a coward. Perhaps, just afraid to be rejected. You see your Master was so hard to reach when I'm just an ordinary girl with nothing to offer. He was every girl's dream while no one even notices me.
Yes, I was doing something to be close with him but it was not enough. What can I do? I'm not that pretty and hot just like Elena. I wish I could catch your Master's attention just like she does. I wish I can make him laugh and I wish he could give me his genuine smile and concern just like he does to Elena. Oh, I wish I was that too precious for him. But as you see, that's the only thing I have- wishes and hopes...
Courage? That's probably what I needed. Macky advised me to try another tactic to catch his attention. He said what I was doing is not working. That I should do something more, that I can do better. Macky's too concerned for me as a friend that's why he gave me this suggestion and I think he's right this time. I'm gonna do it and nothing gonna stop me from doing it...
Miss Pretty
Thinking about that time when her late best friend Mackie advised her to do something to catch Thyago's attention, that was the time she dared to befriend him and did a lot of crazy things just so he can spend time with her. She suddenly remembered all the things she have done just for him to notice her. The funny and happy memories and at the same time the pain and bitter emotions affiliated with it. She then read the reply under the notes on what he felt about it.
Dearest Miss Pretty:
Reading that, I was really flattered. You might not know I watched you from afar without you noticing it. Something tells me that time, you had this crush on me because you kept on doing things to catch my attention but then I thought maybe you were just friendly and bubbly that's why you always keep me company. You see I have doubts also because you're not telling me your crushing on me just like some other girls who shamelessly admit their feelings to me. I know you're way different among them because you are one of a kind. That's maybe one of the reasons why you caught my attention.
Coward? I guess that was me. I kept on ignoring and getting rid of the feelings I have towards you. I only wish I had the courage before and just show it. That way, I should have never lost you. Little did I know, the more I get away with you that time, the more I badly wanna be with you. Now I believe to regret is in the end...
The Master
She got stunned by that reply. She never thought he felt the same feeling as her. But why the hell he's so good at keeping his feelings? He even made her believe that he was crazy in love with Elena the reason he court her. By the looks of his penmanship, it was really old and the ink that has been used simply showed that it was written years ago. She moves on to the next page then and continues reading.
Dear Thyago's Note:
I did what Macky and Hannah told me. Those friends of mine really care for me to even support me towards winning your Master's heart. I have to let out this feeling out for I am just simply a slave of him hoping he'll soon fall for me too. I decided to change my outfit although it seems like he didn't even notice it. For him, I'm willing to do everything so he could notice me.
I asked him to teach me in my lesson in Math and he gladly taught and share a little bit of his knowledge with me. He was smart, kind, and oh so good-looking. He's also sweet, funny, and mischievous plus he smells so damn good. Everything was perfect at that moment, his breath fanned my face, his scent filled my nostrils and we're too close together. You know the feeling you wanted to stop the time and stay that way for a long time? Everything seemed to be fine and perfect under the sun if only the ugly villain never entered the scene. Elena was simply a witch and I hate her for ruining that perfect moment of mine.
Elena sucks! I should have killed her and break her limbs! Haha!
Miss Pretty
She remembers this was the time when she shamelessly asked Thyago to teach her on her Math lessons. She could still remember how good and smart he was. That moment was so perfect she even wished it will last longer or not end at all. Unfortunately, that perfect moment was ruined when her cousin Elena came and showed her how Thyago swooned over her and how she can easily manipulate Thyago to go and leave her. But based on his message, he was only being sweet to Elena not to make her jealous but to disappoint her so she would stop pursuing him. Does that mean he court Elena not because he really likes her? Realizing this, she can't seem to believe he did that to Elena. Is that the reason he easily broke up to her cousin after she left the town? Oh, that vicious heart beaker! He was ruthless and so insensitive!
Dearest Miss Pretty:
You're wrong when you thought I did not notice the change of your style. You actually looked good in your outfit that time but I guess you don't have to change just for me to like you. You just don't know how adorable you are just simply being you.
I remember when you came to me at the Student's Park and asked me to teach you in Math. I asked you what made you think that I'm good in Math and what amazed me is when you enumerated all the achievements and awards I got from my previous competition in Math and even myself don't memorize all of that. I didn't know you knew me that so well. You have this amazing humor and you never failed to make me laugh with your funny remarks, you know. To tell you honestly, I enjoyed every bit of second teaching you. I never failed to notice how your pretty lips pouted and how your face distorted in irritation when your cousin came and interrupt us. You looked cute when you were mad, you looked even cuter when you smile. I guess there is nothing I can see ugly in you...
~The Master
She never noticed her lips were now painting a smile as her eyes started to water. So that's how he felt when he ask her to teach her with her Math lesson. It's kinda amazing that after all, her efforts had effects on him. She just didn't notice it because he was keeping his feelings and emotions. She then wonders what happened if she happen to discover his feelings for her too? Did it change everything that happen in the past? Perhaps, she never hated him that much for the passing years. Who knows things goes different but if that happened will they still get married? Perhaps she won't have doubts and hesitation towards his love for her that made her leave him...