Chapter 45 - The Break-Up

"Are you questioning my love for you, huh?" he exclaimed. He perfectly sounded guilty.

"Oh, c'mon. I'm only expecting for a specific answer, babe. It's just yes or no. That simply. Oh, wait! What part of the question is hard to answer?! Can you just give me an answer and stop avoiding the question?! You're definitely getting into my nerves! Don't wait for me to puff flame here!" I was trying not to burst out in too much anger, but I could not stop myself from exclaiming.

"Stop freaking out, could you? Don't expect me to keep my cool when you're accusing me of something horrible. It seems like you don't trust me. You're questioning my fidelity, Miyara." He was not exclaiming, but I could feel that he was mad inside. But I was mad also.

"And you! You can't just answer my simple question! Is it that hard to answer it? Another thing, how dare you to call my name instead of our call sign? Tell me, are you insulting me?! Or you want me to break up with you, so that you can court her? Oh, wait! What if I was wrong all along? What if the girl you want is not Kaede, but Maybelle? A member of CINCO. So pretty, sexy, classy, and rich? Don't insult me big time, babe. I saw how you smiled earlier—was that really for her? Tell me! Oh, I was an idiot for thinking that you would like Kaede! She is just nothing compared to Maybelle. Nothing but a dirt. You know how daring Maybelle is. The girl is the perfect combination of Lura and Zen when wearing revealing clothes in private places. Tsss! I remembered how Kaede described her. A simple woman with deep dimples. Wavy hair and about thirteen inches long. Loves to draw, writes novel and loves eating sweets. Chocolate is her favorite food in general. Wears simple clothes and a conservative one because she does not want wearing revealing clothes. Poor Kaede, she doesn't know who really Maybelle is. But poorer me because my boyfriend likes someone better than me. CINCO is always a big pain in my as*! They're making my life extra horrible! Not all of them, but most of them! By the way, they will climb Mt. Head two days from now. Maybe you want to join, so you can flirt with the pretentious Maybelle Mortem."

"You're really bad-tempered! If you want to break up, then I'm breaking up with you. I'm no longer your boyfriend, you're not my girlfriend anymore. Dumping you is such an easy job. Zen is right that you're such an easy target. I had fun playing with you, babe. I really had." His voice was full of mockery, and the way he uttered our call sign gave me goose bumps terribly. Ingrate!

"What are you saying?! Tell me you're just kidding! Tell me you really love me! Don't break up with me! I love you so much!" I sounded begging, but I did not care because all I wanted was to reconcile with him. I was trying to hold his hands, but he kept on pushing me away.

"It's such an easy job. Zen paid me to have fun with you. You fell in love with me, then I got plenty of money from her. In short, I earned money out of trash. She told me how pitiful you were the day she talked to me. She just wanted you to feel loved. But I'm tired of it. It's game over!"

I could not believe him. No, I did not want to believe him. We were in a relationship for three years, but I never felt that it was just part of his game. Or I was just that idiot for not noticing that something was off. "I don't believe you! You're just kidding!" I exclaimed and I did not care if someone would hear me.

"I'm done here."

"Please don't leave me! Babe—"

"It's over, Miyara!" he shouted, and it made me speechless. I could not move because someone heard and saw him shouting at me. And that made me no choice but to let him leave the classroom. I had no strength to stop him from leaving. I pitied myself for Pete's sake! He was just toying me all along.

"Are you okay?" she asked after coming near me.

"You don't care, Kaede! You can't do anything to ease the pain I'm feeling right now. You're useless to me!" I shouted right on her face and walked out. I left her speechless inside our classroom. I knew Zen's plan to mislead her, but I would not tell her about it. I would not let myself to suffer alone. It should not just me.

I was just trying to stop my tears from escaping and falling from my eyes while I was in front of my boyfriend and Kaede, but I was in a trouble with my emotion deep inside me. I was in too much pain, but I did not let them to notice it. I did not want to look so pathetic on their eyes. No one should pity me.

While on my way home, I thought of what my boyfriend had said. It was Zen again. It seemed like she would not get tired of pestering me. But I really wondered if Maybelle was part of it or it was just Zen alone. However, I still did not want to believe that my boyfriend liked Maybelle. Maybe I was just overthinking. Maybe overthinking.

Zen's house was not so far; that was why walking was so possible, and it was not that tiring, most especially when I knew that I could save money because I was not paying for transportation fee. I did not say anything to Zen, even though I was very angry for what she did the moment I entered the door of her house and saw her waiting at the balcony. I knew that there was a perfect timing for everything.

"You're coming with us, and you'll be carrying my stuff. You know when and where," she said with her very bossy tone.

"Okay," I answered instantly. Then, immediately went inside my room to cry silently while hurting.