Chapter 3 New Identity

I remembered, I always hear my parents having a no-ending arguments and how I hid myself in the corner while listening to them.

And there's that day where my dad asked me to come with him. I didn't wanted to, but he forced me. That was when I become part of the organization called 'Thanatos' when I was seven.

My father drags me to be part of the organization as payments to his debts or his way to get rid of me. I let him, even I know that he's still a lot of money because my grandfather is rich and I'm so tired of seeing his face.

After three years, I came back to the place that I once called home. I'm expecting my father that he already regreted what he did to me cause I'm all ready to forgive him and recreate all the things that we did together since I was a child.

Excited and blissful like I was on cloud nine when I got home. I was looking forward to what will be their reaction.

My mind was still on the verge of repairing and my heart was still fragile. I'm still a child, what do you expect?

But never did I expect that the time that my mom opened the door, I will see her beautiful face and bright smile, but instead an unfamiliar face of a woman welcome me.

"Who are you?" She irritatedly asked me. She's holding a cigarette, chewing a piece of gum, and pregnant.

I bit my lips while looking for words, "U-uhm I'm looking for my mom," I started.

She looks at me from head to foot and grins at me, "You're that bitch daughter? Aren't you?" She laughed as if there was something funny and put the cigarette inside her mouth, the smoke from her lips emit in front of me.

I didn't flinch nor cough. I was maze of what she said. Did my parents move to a new house? Where are they? And why is she calling my mom a bitch?

The whole place changes a lot, the garden that is full of plants and roses is already withered or not in the same place. The house paints were already gone and already full of moots and wild grass. Even the servants isn't anywhere to be seen.

"Where's my mom?" My soft voice couldn't resist and asked again the same question I asked earlier.

"Ha! that crazy bitch is inside the hospital for years, treating her mental issues, " She sarcastically said and laugh.

She throw the cigarette stick somewhere and raised my face using her hand, "But look at you, standing in front of my house. You even exactly look like your mom, but a blonde bitch..." she let go of me and cross her arms, "I really thought Henry already get rid of you? Why are you still alive?" She asked irritatedly.

"How did you know my dad's name?" I innocently asked instead of answering her.

"Stupid girl, I'm your father's new wife, I own this place so that means you have no rights to be in this property anymore, even if your Henry's daughter," she grins at me and lightly slaps my face, after that, she turns around, almost bumping her stomach at the wall and close the door.

I touch my face where her long nails dug. Thoughts come rushing into my mind. No one knows and No one told me. I've been inside the organization's wall where I spent my three years being someone that I don't even know I'll become.

I thought I'm gonna die. I was once inside a dark room, a prison perhaps with no perks of light. The silence and darkness almost get insane, I've been inside the room for a week and three days, It was a nightmare that will make anyone lose its sanity.

For three years, I study hard and learned stuff that a normal kid will not going to do or even try. I almost got killed, but all the torment and suffering got paid off after I stained my hand in exchange of my freedom.

The rain start to pour, I didn't even notice that it was going to rain earlier. I shed myself on the porch and hug the stuff I bring. It's getting darker and my dad's new wife didn't let me come in.

I'm already sleepy and hungry. I was trying to save my money for my mom's birthday,  I also don't have an Idea what that woman say earlier, maybe my mom was at my grandparent's house. I'll visit them tomorrow, it's raining hard and it's impossible to find a ride when it's raining and already dark.

I close my eyes to help myself. I'm so tired and I want to take a nap, but I'm outside and it's raining, I can't sleep like this, I'll be wet.

I opened my eyes after I hear a sound of a car coming from the outside garage and there I saw my father running in my direction while holding an umbrella.

"Daddy!" I called.

He stopped and almost fall. I look at him puzzled. He slowly look at me, shocked as if he saw a ghost-written all over his face.

"Welcome home!" I greeted happily.

I was twelve and stupid, I thought it was all because of our blood, that he's my father and we both have bonds with each other, but I was wrong. I'm just being stupid that I didn't realize I was in prison of my delusions for the whole time.

I only realized the whole thing when I saw my mom's hanging body on the ceiling the day I visit her at the mental hospital for her birthday. Her eyes were open and were directly looking at me. The roses I bought for her birthday are scattered on the floor along with the gift that I've been wanting to give her after I know where she is.

The first time I visit her was also the first time I witnessed myself being drowned and eaten by darkness. My emotions exploded that I cried everything out till there was nothing left.

"Silas? why did mom left us?" I asked my brother, he's the unexpected visitor who attended the funeral except from my grandfather and my mother's siblings.

I want to asked him the same question, but he's occupied to notice me. It's been five years, I was five years old when my mom send him to her parents abroad. He didn't know what I've been trough or mom.

I collected myself, after the funeral Silas talked to me after years, "Lily, come with me," as a response, I smiled.

"Maybe next time," I answered.

Years had passed, I learned that I'm eligible to become the next leader of the organization. I tried harder. I exceed at everything, from getting an intel to killing. I thought that when I become the leader, I can avenge my mother and myself.

"L-lily?" I was stunned when I heard his voice, "What are you doing here?" He asked. I faced my brother, I saw the shock and confusin written all over his face.

"I've been here since the day you left," I said, smiling.

Our encounter didn't last long, but fate really playing with us. I was in the middle of playing with my preys, blood all over my clothes and smiling at the corpses lying in front me when Silas saw me. That was when  Silas saw me in that version of myself.

"I'm so sorry," he whispered after he run the distance between us and hugged me, "I should be the one protecting you."

"P-please don't leave m-me," I raised my hand to reach him, but even before I touch him The settings change, it turns into pitch black and nothing more.

I catches my breath as I slowly open my eyes. The first thing that welcomed me is a white ceiling. I heard the door open and entered, he dropped something after running towards where I'm lying.

"Thanks god, you're awake!"I didn't react when I heard a familiar voice.

"N-nate?" I called. My cousin Nathan Morgan hug me tightly.

"Fuck, you're unconscious for a month! you fucking make me worried."

"Huh? what happened?"

"Wait, I should call your doctor first."

I was left alone after he storm out of the room. I close my eyes and calm my breathing. Like what Nate said, he bring a doctor to see my condition, I was to occupied that I didn't even notice that doctor already left.

"Where's Silas?" I asked Nate who's busy peeling an apple. He almost cut his fingers.

"We shouldn't talk about it right now."

"What? Why?"

"Liliana, your brother is dead." And that hit me. Yeah, now I remember. The party, Silas, and how useless I become. Pain start to aroused inside my chest. It's hurt. It's an unbearable pain inside my chest that I can't explain.

After waking up, I mourn for Silas death for months. I caged myself and didn't let anyone try to comfort me, not even Nate. At that time, I didn't admit that I had been abandoned, it's an unbearable pain that I just think of it as a nightmare. I'm in denial, Nate tried to send to a psychiatrist, but I declined.

"Can you help me," The first time I spoke Nate for months.

"Sure, what is it?" He asked, gently stroking Arceus fur. He adopted Arceus after I lost my senses to live. Good thing, he didn't hesitate to help me and even feed Arceus.

"I want Liliana Huxley dead."

"That's easy," he smiled.

It was Christmas, I have no desires to celebrate it, especially that I'm alone. but Nate fill that day. He celebrated the Christmas with me in his condo, instead of celebrating it with his family. Arceus, Nate and me celebrate the Christmas together. Even there's a hole inside of me, I tried ro become a better and strong person after what happened.

He's dead and there's nothing that I could do rather than to accept the realization. It's hard to move forward without him, but he'll scolded me if he saw me stuck with the past.

"I have a gift, Lils!" The bright and handsome face of Nathan flashed before my eyes. He's wearing a santa hat and smiling brightly.

"What's this?" I asked. He handed me the paler he was holding. My lips formed 'o' when I saw what's written at the paper and let myself smile.

"Welcome to the world, Lily Morgan!"