Chapter 82 Chapter 82
Jojo
I didn’t think a second-hand car would be this nice, I also didn’t know much about cars only that Audi’s where a good and expensive car that is why I didn’t want him to buy it. But needless to say, I didn’t win the argument we were sitting in my Audi, me behind the steering wheel, driving us back to the apartment. “Don’t you want to stop at Target?” Benji asked me. “I have everything I need.” I told him. “I thought we can go get you some crackers there’s none in the house. Just for the morning sickness and maybe look if there is something to help with that.” “You don’t have to try and convince me to go to Target Benji you had me at crackers.” “Let me just tell Anton we are stopping there.” “Okay.” I’ve searched the address of my apartment on my phone to put it in my maps as my location setting was off, you never know if my dad will try and find me like that. So, all my location settings were off on all my devices. But I’m sure I can find Target without putting the location in my phone it was close to the apartment. “Anton is going back to your place so long.” That sounded so weird my place. I stopped at Target which impressed Benji extremely. “You got it without a GPS. I’m very proud of you.” “Thank you like I said I liked driving myself around in Housten.” “Which car did you take one of the SUV’s?” “No, my dad had a Maserati in the garage so I took that out for a spin every time they weren’t home.” “Nice” That impressed him even more. We walked into Target and instead of walking to the food section Benji walked in another direction I didn’t know this Target as well as those at home so I’m not sure where he was going, but clearly, he did.
I was shocked when he stopped at the baby department. “What are we doing here?” “I thought we can buy a car seat so long and I’ll install it while I’m here.” He was looking at the car seats and I was steaming behind him. I had to count to 10 a few times. Fuck I know his meaning well but fuck this is to soon I can’t handle driving in the car with a car seat in it if there is no baby. I took another few breaths before I said “Benji thank you for the gesture but please this is to soon I can’t.” There were actually tears in my eyes although today it didn’t take much to make me cry. “Don’t cry angel I just thought I do something for the baby.” “Thank you like I said it was a nice gesture but this is to soon.” I turned around and walked away towards the food aisles.
Benji
I thought I was doing something nice, buying a baby seat and installing it, I mean who will install it when I’m gone, but clearly Jojo was not ready for it not in the least. I checked the prices of everything and thought I’ll leave cash in the babies’ room for a few things if she doesn’t want to buy something now. I eventually found her at a back of an aisle wiping tears away. At least she had a few things in her bag, crackers mostly but I saw a Reese Cup there as well. “Come let’s go home.” “Okay but you are driving.” She told me. “Okay I’ll drive.” We went to pay for everything and went back the car. We drove in silence home I saw her wipe tears away a few times but I didn’t say anything, clearly, she wanted to be left alone.
When we got back to the apartment, Jojo got out grabbed the bags before I could and walked into the house. The first thing she opened was the Reese cup, I just smiled clearly, she found something she liked. “What can I do for you angel?” “You can hold me for a while?” I looked at my watched and saw it was past 2 pm already I almost have to get ready to leave. “Let’s go lie on the bed.” We both kicked off our shoes and laid on the bed looking at each other there was a piece of chocolate at the corner of her mouth which I kissed off. “You taste so sweet.” I teased her. “So, what happens now?” She asked without making any comment about me telling her she taste sweet. “That depends on you Jojo, if you want us to stay in touch then that is what we will do. If you want us to make a clean break and have no contact with each other until we have something big to tell the other person then that is what will happen.” She rolled on her back looking at the ceiling.
“Your mother is going to watch you like a hawk Benji; I don’t want to be the reason she’s mad at you the whole time.” “Let’s not think about my parents shall we I have plans for them.” “What plans.” “Not ready to tell anyone yet I’m sorry.” “No worries it’s not like I’m going to be part of your life and that I need to know.” “Don’t be like that Jojo.” “I’m not, it’s the truth.” “So, what do you think would be the best for you?” I asked Jojo. She was still laying on her back but I could see the tears streaming down her face. “A clean break.” Before I could say anything, she threw her arms around me and held me to her. “That’s the only way I will learn how to live without you, if we talk every day, I’m still going to depend on you and I can’t I need to learn how to do this alone.” “Are you sure?” I asked because I know that is not what I wanted but I will do whatever is good for her. “Yes, I’m sure.” I held her even tighter. “As long as you know I’m only a phone call away angel. I won’t call you but you can call me anytime night or day I will be there for you.” “Thanks, Benji but I wouldn’t want to interfere in your new life, we need to put this.” She pointed a finger between the two of us “Behind us.” That hurt like a mother fucker I should say that. “You still want that photo of us together?” “Yes, please I don’t want to forget you I just don’t think it would be healthy for either of us if we stay in contact. You need to go on with your life Benji.” “You need to do that to angel.” She just gave me a sad smile.