Chapter 76 Chapter 76
Jojo
As we drove to the OBGYN I was looking out the window at my new City, it was weird to think about it as my new city but it was. The Reese was still in my hand. “You better eat that or it’s going to melt.” Benji said. Without thinking I opened it and took a bite. I looked at him with big eyes. “Oh my Gosh this is …… You have to take a bite.” “I had Reese before angel.” “Wow this is amazing.” “I told you there is more to life than vegetables, fruit, chicken and water. Everything in life is moderation that’s the key to life.” I finished the chocolate in no time, yes, it was only one but my gosh it was nice. I took a wipe out of my bag and cleaned my hands. “And?” “Well, those in the house will not be safe for long.” “I’m happy to hear that.” “We are here Benji.” Anton said from the front and suddenly my heart was in my throat again. Benji got out and open the door for me, I was debating if I wanted to get out. “Come on angel she won’t wait forever.” “Okay.” I said getting out of the SUV. As we approached the door a women opened the door “You must be Joelle Warren and you Benjamin Devon? I’m Dr. Young.” “Nice to meet you.” Both of us said.
“Shall we go through?” “Yes.” Benji said as he tried to get me to walk. The doctor look back at us “Nothing to be afraid of.” She said. Easy for her to say she’s not going to see that her life has fallen apart by one dot on a screen. I started to walked. The doctor told me to take of my pants and get on the bed. When she left the room, I told Benji “I should have left my shorts on.” Trying to smile. “But what about dinner?” He asked smiling probable trying to make me feel at ease but it didn’t work. I’m not only going to see my baby for the first time I going to my new bosses’ house to meet his wife and children if that isn’t daunting then what is. I didn’t smile I grabbed the sides of the bed like it was a life line. The doctor came in and started to ask questions “How far along are you?” “A few weeks. Not really sure.” I can’t remember the exact date I made the biggest mistake of my life. “Okay so maybe I’ll have to look for a heart beat with the Transvaginal ultrasound, which means I’m going to have to push this into your vagina.” She held up a thing that looked like a dildo and yes, I know what a dildo looks like.
“But first let me check your blood pressure.” She put the cuff on my arm and press the machine we waited she looked at me then at Benji “Your blood pressure is a bit elevated 128/80 are you under some stress at the moment?” “She is under a lot of stress at the moment.” Benji decided to answer for me. “Well, I suggest you try and sort that out, high blood pressure can cause a lot of problems the further a long you get.” Easy for you to say you didn’t have to leave your home town, because you got kicked out of your parent’s house, got pregnant with the first person you ever slept with, loosing the love of your life and you had to move to a different state. “I’ll keep an eye on it.” Was what come out. “You will have to do more than just keep an eye on it.” The doctor said. Looking at Benji. I wanted to say ‘Bitch his leaving tomorrow that is part of the stress.’ But I didn’t I kept my mouth shut and just listened to what the doctor had to say.
I must have missed a few steps because she was touching my vagina with that thing. “You going to feel some pressure.” Was all she said before she pushed that thing into my vagina. I grabbed Benji’s hand. He just rubbed my hand trying to calm me down. It didn’t work. “I’m going to move it inside you to find the heart beat.” For the first time I admitted to myself I didn’t want the baby because I actually prayed ‘Please God don’t let there be a heartbeat, please.’ But clearly God wasn’t listening because the machine next to me started to make a sound. “You hear that that is the baby’s heartbeat and I can tell you you are 5 weeks pregnant, congratulations.” She said but when she looked at me, she got up and gave me a tissue. She looked at Benji who was also shell shocked. I think he knew I was pregnant but he hoped I wasn’t. “You want to leave us?” The doctor asked Benji. “No, he can stay.” I told her. “I take it this is not happy news?” “No not really.” “And I take it you are not the father.” “No, I’m not.” “If you don’t mind me asking where you raped?” “I wish.” I said which made the doctor and Benji take a deep breath. “Sorry I didn’t mean it like that, it’s just this is my own doing, I lost my virginity at 24 to a guy that wanted revenge on Benji and I thought he bought me the day after pill but he swopped them with sweets. So, to make my very long answer short. No doctor I was not raped.” “Okay it sounds like a very long story.” “Oh, believe me it is doc.” Benji said.
“Well, I have to tell you you have a week if you want an abortion, abortion is legal up to 6 weeks after that your options will be adoption.” I shook my head for all the options. “No, I’ll keep it.” “Are you sure?” The doctor asked. “Yes, he or she didn’t ask for this I can’t blame them for my mistake.” Benji touched my shoulder I turned to look at him “Are you sure angel?” “Yes, Benji I’m sure.” “Well okay then. Then you can get dressed.” The doctor said. “Doctor before you go how much is this pregnancy going to cost me?” The doctor looked at Benji who didn’t say a word. “I’m paying for it doctor.” “Okay let me just go check you get dressed so long, I don’t know the numbers by heart.” The doctor left Benji and me alone, I grabbed my jeans and put them on. “Are you okay?” he asked as I got up and held the bed. “Honestly I don’t know I thought this was just a stupid evil joke.” “And now that you know it isn’t?” “Well now I have to start and deal with it probable, and the first step is to see how much it’s going to cost me.”