Chapter 5 Chapter 5
Jojo
I ran into the house like someone was chasing me I just wanted to get to my room without talking to my mother. But I wasn’t so lucky “Where have you been?” My mother said from the living room as I took the stairs to my bedroom. “I broke up with Morne.” “And it took this long?” “Yes, mom it was a 5-year relationship I had to say goodbye to.” “Don’t get snappy with me you knew this was coming. Why you had a boyfriend in the first place only you would know.” “Because I fell in love mom don’t you remember how that felt?” “Love please what do you know about love?” “Clearly a lot more than you.” I snapped at her. “Be careful Joele you are speaking to your mother.” She berated me, I was almost 23 and she still treats me like a child. There condition on me going to Uni and study law was that I stay at home where they could keep an eye on me. “I’m not in the mood for a fight mom I’m going to bed.” “I take it that low life won’t come around anymore.” “Mom!” “What?” “His not a low life.” “Well to me he is.” “No, his not coming around anymore I broke it off with him.” “And you not going to call him either?” “Why can’t I call him?” “Breaking all ties will be better.” “For who me or you?” “For you Joele.” “When did you ever give a ……” “Careful.” My mom berated me again. “You don’t care about me you just care that I marry Benjamin and that your business grow. It’s like that is the only reason you had me.” “Nonsense.” My mom said but I was already on my way to my room.
I slammed my door behind me and went straight to my bathroom to shower, I still feel ashamed after the blood I saw on the blanket and on Morne’s dick. I stood in the shower and washed myself with my vanilla soap, vanilla was my favorite smell and then it hit me what I actually did tonight. I slid down to the floor of my shower and started to cry. I was so good for 5 years I didn’t do anything that will cause me to lose my virginity and then the night I break up with him I gave in. Oh my God everyone is going to know. The dinner they are having for me, they’ll know I’m not a virgin anymore then my father and mother will be furious, I don’t even want to know what they will do to me if it comes out, I’m not a virgin anymore. The only thing that made me calm down is the fact that I know it’s only me and Morne that knows we slept together and I’m very sure he’ll keep his word and won’t tell a soul. I picked myself up off the floor and got out of the shower got my most comfortable PJs got dressed and jump into bed. I wanted to call Morne so badly, I wanted to hear his voice I wanted to feel so close to him as I felt when he took my virginity but I didn’t know if I should. Was my mother right will it be better to make a clean break and not speak to him again. But then again, I don’t know if I’ll be able to do that. Eventually I fell asleep with my phone in my hands still wondering if I should call him.
The next morning when I woke up the first thing I did was WhatsApp Morne. I didn’t call him last night and it felt weird but what was weirder the message didn’t go through, was there something wrong with his phone. Then I tried to call him but the call didn’t go through either. What was going on? Did he block me? I’m very sure he wouldn’t have done that maybe there was something wrong with his phone so I called his best friend Lesley. His phone rang and rang before a very gruffy voice answered “What?” “Hi Lesley it’s Jojo do you know where Morne is?” “Didn’t you break up or something?” He asked but I could hear he was still sleeping. “We did but I want to speak to him.” “Well Jojo I don’t think he wants to speak to you.” “But why?” “Should I spell it out for you YOU BROKE UP WITH HIM.” “I know but it wasn’t my choice.” “It doesn’t matter you still broke up with him. Don’t call me again or I’ll block you like Morne did.” Lesley said before he put the phone down in my ear. I’m sure I couldn’t have heard him right Morne blocked me, he wouldn’t have done that.
I went downstairs to use the house phone, yes, my parents still have a landline I don’t know why but I’m glad they did especially today. I first checked where my mom and dad where before I dialed Morne’s number, this time his phone actually rang, which means he did block me there was nothing wrong with his phone. “What?” He answered the call. “Morne it’s Jojo.” “Fuck Jojo why are you calling me? More importantly from where are you calling me?” “My parents have a land line.” “Fuck” “Did you block my number Morne?” It was quiet for a second to long “You did?” I said shocked “Yes Jojo I did we have nothing else to say to each other you broke up with me remember you have to be a good girl now for mommy and daddy.” “Don’t patronize me.” “Why not it’s the truth isn’t it?” “Why are you being like this?” He was so rude to me I never saw this side of him before. “Well, that is what happens when you break my heart.” “I don’t believe you I can hear voices in the back ground if you where heart broken you would have been alone.” “Oh, boo hoo Jojo eventually caught on that I’m not a Saint as she thought I was. I was with you only because you were a virgin, Jojo. I wanted it and you gave it to me now I’m done with you.” I was in utter shock the phone was still in my hand but the line went dead Morne hanged up on me and used me. ‘Oh my God, what have I done?” I thought he loved me I thought he was going to miss me but he only used me. I slammed the phone down and ran up to my room, slamming my door like a teenager fell on my bed and started to cry. Morne actually used me.