Chapter 74 MISSING HOME
VANCE'S POV
This was just fucking ridiculous! It's been three months and I can't go home yet. Sianna is being hard-headed and point-blank unreasonable. I did not have sex with anyone. I have been faithful to her since I found her to be my fated one.
I drove my fist through the television screen and kicked the half-broken couch through the window, breaking the glass panes. This was the last thing in my room at the pack house that was not damaged.
Winter had come and gone. Even so, my fill was unsatisfied. At this rate, I was certain to completely wreck the entire pack house. Searching in the room for something else to smash, but everything was already demolished. Can I blow up something? Or can I simply end this damnable world? My rage will not subdue and it was rotating within me to develop into a full-fledged tropical cyclone.
I was overworked and drinking like a damn alcoholic. This was bringing me to a breaking point where I just want to storm over there, tie her to the bedpost, and fuck her senseless. Yeah, drive my cock up her pussy so hard to punish her for being preposterous and illogical over the situation.
The fucking witch was executed by me in the Supernatural Triad Council's execution chamber. The vote was three to one. But Sianna could have been there to witness it providing that she spoke to me, arrangements would have been made. The three bitches that caused all of our pain and turmoil were dead, so why the fucking hell can't I be with my mate?
The room was a mess, everything was broken or smashed, like a tornado had passed through. The unhinged door laid flat on the floor, curtains were torn down and even the bed mattress was shredded, sponge falling like snow. Like a young puppy wanting a shoe to chew on, I wanted something more to rip apart.
My breathing was ragged and the wolf raging in my head was rattling on my blasted nerves. He blamed me for fucking Chloe, yeah, well, I am only human. Well, technically.
"Grrr!" I growled aloud.
How could the love of my life refuse to be with me? When will this condemnation end?
I sent her flowers and the whole nine yards of romantic gestures, but nothing. Sianna was like an unbreakable wall that locked me into a world of maddening loneliness. She was reclused to the house as if it were her personal jail, and it was acceptable if she chose to shut down like that, as long as she was doing it with me.
Even the swearing ceremony that was held two weeks ago after being delayed due to our loss, she had blatantly not attended. Stop secluding yourself in our house like a caged bird, Sianna. How I wish for her to hear me.
By now the entire pack knew that we were having problems. Plus, I was avoiding the Elders. Damn, if they ever drag me to another meeting about my failing marriage, I might not be able to restrain my exasperation.
My mind is gone, it's spinning around, and I am just about fucking crazy. I'm a manic depressive rager. And deep inside my wolf howls as I smother the tears, I'm losing grip from a love concussion and she was not here to save me.
I want to go home today. What can I do? How much more groveling must I do? I leaned my head on the wall, there was nowhere to sit or lie down. It's another normal day with the same shitty routine.
So, I planned to break into my own house and go home tonight. Who dares to fucking stop me? The dare was extended to my invisible audience.
A soft touch on my shoulder disrupted my self-destructing mode. I leaned my head up to be greeted by her scent. I turned around to meet a blonde-haired and brown-eyed doll-looking woman. Wondering, what did I ever see in this bitch?
"Alpha, are you okay?"
I flinched so that she retracted her hands. The nerve of this woman! "The last time I checked, that was absolutely none of your goddamn business." I pushed her slightly back and ferociously snarled. "I am warning you to get the hell out."
Her intrepid expression foreshadowed a regrettable fall. Crocodile tears pooled in her eyes, slipping down her cheeks, and she sobbed. Like I gave a damn!
"Alpha, let me be your comfort. No one has to know. I do love you." She licked her lips as though that could get her the desired results. Her blouse was missing the two top buttons to display her cleavage. She must have torn her top open before entering my room to achieve her quest. Such disgusting behavior made me retch.
I pinched the bridge of my nose to restrain the urge to sever her head from her body. There was an underlying fear about her presence in my room if Sianna should ever hear of this. If only Esme could sense that I was a ticking time bomb, she would be smarter to just stay away.
'Get rid of this one quickly. Don't hitch!' my wolf roared. 'If you let one more bitch become a problem to my mate, I will make you regret it.'
My wolf and I were normally of one mind, we agreed most of the time. However, due to the turn of events where we lost our mate, all we did was argue whenever he decided to talk to me.
"Woman, this is a prequel of what will happen the next time that you stand before me." I gave her a booming tone, causing her to whimper, and then I let my wolf come out and do anything he wanted to do to her. Pathetically, they believed that they have the right and privilege to waltz in and out of my life at will, once I've fucked them.
"Alpha, I am not like Chloe. I'll be better. I swear." She backed away, pleading, and is frightened by my wolf. She quickly looked around the room to plan her escape route. When her eye caught the doorway, she attempted to dart towards it. My Alpha wolf in a speedy motion caught her by the throat, squeezing her windpipe as she gasped for air, her face turning blue. "I......love........you. D-don't....."
"I don't love you, and the doorway is not for people like you." The thunderous power in my wolf's tone caused vibration throughout the pack house. I could hear frightful screams coming from all floors.
Esme's eyes widened with shock as I hoisted her in the air like a baseball and threw her straight through the window. With the force that I used, she hit several treetops before taking a bumpy and nasty landing from all the branches that tried to hinder her descent. She had it coming and that was the last thought I had about Esme.
It was Duke who boldly rushed into my room. He halted when he saw the damaged condition of what was once a luxurious master suit.
"Alpha?" He said it like he meant, what's happening?
"Get away from here!" I growled at my Beta. My wolf retreated because we knew that Duke was not the enemy.
"You have missed several days out of the office, and you are not eating. Why don't you and I go and grab some food on the coast, at that restaurant that you love." He responded calmly while shifting some broken stuff out of his way. "The omegas could clean while we are gone."
"You are capable of handling all my duties, so piss off and leave me alone!" I grunted one more time before turning my body around to look at the landscape out the window. "What's the point of being Alpha if I can't even handle my own home?"
"You have been doing this for the last nine days, and it's not right anymore. Please do your part so that your people won't see the mess that you are," His voice stayed on the same level so as not to ruffle my feathers.
"Don't you understand what piss of means?" My eyes flickered from black to green to show him that I was not in the mood for anyone, even him.
"You have been sulking and ripping things apart. Everyone withdraws from you because they are afraid you'll tear them to shreds," he stepped closer even knowing the dangers, "I'm your Beta and your best friend so let's go for a drive and talk."
I let out an annoying sigh and gave him a cold glare, then turned to lean my hand on the window sill, looking into nature as I ignore him.
"Your father is here on behalf of the Elders." He carefully informed me, observing my body language.
My eyes fully dilated into black as a growl fumbled in my chest and bellowed, "Tell him to go to hell! Does he even remember that I am his son?"
"We both know that your father loves you the most in the world," Duke's jaw began twitching, and his hands were already coiled into fists to stifle the outburst swirling inside. "And we all share the same concern."
My eyes squinted, as I dared him to throw that punch. A good fight might clear some of the bad energy and rage fuming inside
of me.
"You have never been apart from Keisha, so you have no idea of what I am going through," I articulated a piece of what was on my mind. "The pain still feels like it was yesterday."
I was startled out of my thoughts as a piece of fabric touched my shoulder. I was only wearing my boxers and so my Beta threw clothes at me to get dressed.
"I'll get rid of your dad. Shower and go to the office. Then later, you could go home. But show Sianna that you can be home and out of her way. Maybe then she won't be bothered by your presence." Duke emphasized the 'but' that he had used. "Take baby steps and eventually you two can be good again."
Guess that was why he was my Beta because I did exactly what he said. I picked up the clothes from the floor. After taking a shower and shaving, I went downstairs to the office. Abandoning my self-pity for a few hours.
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As the hours went by and the blanket of darkness covered the earth with its twinkling lights. I went to the bathroom to freshen up. There is no way that I am jerking off tonight. I scoured my body properly, not leaving an inch of me unclean. I went to my closet and put on a short-sleeved cardigan casual striped shirt, having a summer stand-up collar with black and white stripes running down. For my lower half, I chose black jeans pants.
After getting myself together, with my black hair combed long slick back. I was ready to venture into the lair of my ferociously angry and vindictive Luna.
Getting into my dark grey Audi TT of the latest version, a sense of romance began to permeate my body. Excitedly, I was adamant that I would prevail tonight. Within ten minutes I was in front of the driveway to my house. The time was 11 pm. All the lights were off. I parked the car on the roadside and surreptitiously walked over.
Careful not to make a sound, I trod to the porch and used my key for entry. Turning the door handle, I pushed slightly so that only a crack was in the opening. Gradually opening the door further so that my body could slip through, her scent hit me. The onslaught of roses mixed with strawberries sent a shivering warmth through my framework, and I gripped myself to stop my wolf from rushing toward our bedroom.
My body was being drawn toward Sianna like a siren's call, and my determination was being sapped by it. I regret messing this up. Damn, I missed this. A grunt of solace unintentionally rolls out of me.
My wolf's eyesight allowed me to see everything well in the dark. I finally reached the stairs and took my time ascending to the first floor. I was already home, so there was no rush. I was having the time of my life and adored being here by taking in the warmth and the comforting aroma of the place that is most dear to my heart.
By the time I got to the third floor and was about to make that right turn, I could have sworn that I heard a baby crying. I sharpened my ears to focus on the sound as I halted my steps.
"Néh."
There it was again and it bugged me with perplexity.
Is there a baby in my house? Was there a visitor in my house?
Now I am pissed at the thought of someone else being here without my knowledge, while I was not supposed to even pass the fucking driveway. Who the hell is she hiding here? Veins sprang on my forehead as my wrath surged. Ready to barge in on the unwelcome person, my chest heaved wildly.
On my next step, a light was switched on. It was from the room that we had turned into the nursery, and the door was wide open. With clandestine strides, I edged closer. My wolf would not appreciate guests in our home, even if it was a pack member. Only family and close friends were permitted in my residence. Though my circle of friends was small.
I reached the doorway. Sianna's voice hummed a melodious tune and I wondered what has she been up to. Why isn't she in the master bedroom? I peered into the room while hiding the rest of my body in the dim hallway and received the shock of my life.
Sianna was nursing an infant while sitting in the rocking chair.
Did she adopt a baby without consulting me? Was this the reason that she barred me from our home? "Who's fucking baby is that?" I demanded as I entered the room, with a harsh glare of contempt. 4