Chapter 32 Chapter 11.2
We went up again. He taught me how to do it so I could be alone. I followed his instructions. I used the ski poles to push myself. I also made sure my position was correct so I wouldn't lose my balance.
Desmond was a little ahead of me. He was facing me so he could see me.
"Woooaaahh! It's so fun to do this!" I shouted at him, which made him smile.
"Did you like it? Are you enjoying it?" I nodded at him. I was moving slowly because I was still scared. Desmond was still in front of me to make sure nothing happened to me.
I looked at him, he was looking behind me and his face was serious.
"This is not good," he muttered, which made me nervous. What's behind me? Is there an avalanche? I wanted to look back but I might lose my balance. Desmond stopped and then stepped closer to me, but before he could get to me, something hit the tip of my ski.
"Heaven!" he shouted at me. He couldn't get to me right away because he was uphill. My eyes widened when I started moving faster. No, no, no, I don't know how to stop like this.
"Desmond, please, help me!" I shouted at him. Desmond quickly followed me until he passed me. We were close to the bottom and there were children playing in the snow. I just closed my eyes, waiting to fall.
"Don't close your eyes, look at me. Just look at me. Heaven!" Desmond shouted at me. I opened my eyes even though I was scared. I had already dropped my ski poles so I was trying to balance my body. Desmond stopped in front of me and then grabbed my hand when I got close to him. My face hit his chest and because our skis were long, they hit each other, causing us to lose our balance.
Desmond hugged me tightly, he fell first while I was on top of him. I breathed a sigh of relief when nothing happened to either of us. Desmond stood up and then checked me.
"Are you okay? Does anything hurt?" he asked me. He took off his skis and then helped me stand up. I thought I was just going to fall in the snow, I thought I was going to hit the children who were quietly playing in the snow. I looked at Desmond as if I was looking for something. Was he looking for the one who bumped into me?
"Let's go, we'll get a check-up at the hospital to make sure you and the baby are okay." He said seriously. I didn't feel any pain. He was able to grab me right away so the impact was lessened.
"I'm okay, nothing hurts." He still shook his head, remaining serious.
"I need to make sure that my child is fine. Just because you don't feel anything now doesn't mean I'll be complacent. I want to make sure, let's go." He said authoritatively. He took off my equipment and then carried it and returned it.
We both left. I'm really okay, I don't feel any pain. We didn't fall that hard either. He also supported me so what is he worried about?
I was silent until we both arrived at the hospital. He was holding my hand, but before we could enter the hospital, I stopped.
"Do we still need to get a check-up? I'm okay. Nothing hurts and—"
"Don't be stubborn, Heaven. I want to make sure that my child is fine." He replied seriously and then pulled me into the hospital again. He asked at the nurse station and then pulled me again until we reached an OB clinic. He talked to her and told her what happened.
The doctor had me lie down to check me. I just followed for Desmond's peace of mind. He seriously followed every move of the doctor. Has he really accepted our child? Is he going to take responsibility? Is he going to stand as the father of my child? I should be happy because he's worried about our baby, but why am I scared? What if the happiness I'm feeling now is taken away at the right time?
"The baby is okay, it’s lively. There's no bleeding inside either. Let's just be careful next time to avoid anything happening to the baby, especially to you, mommy." The doctor said to us. I nodded. "Let's avoid activities that are dangerous for you and the baby. It's a good thing you're okay, the baby is also active," she added. I looked at Desmond. He breathed a sigh of relief when he found out that I and our child were okay.
We left immediately after he paid.
"Are you hungry?" he asked me. I nodded because I suddenly felt hungry from our skiing. I smiled because I didn't think our vacation here would be this fun.
I can't explain the happiness I'm feeling. I feel like even my child is very happy because I don't feel dizzy or nauseous. Desmond didn't allow me to eat noodles or anything unhealthy for me. I just followed him because he already gave in to me once.
At night, he took me to the tower where we could see the whole of Seoul. He didn't let go of my hand because there were so many people, he said I might disappear from his sight.
When we got to the tower, I looked outside. I was amazed looking at the city lights. Life would be so happy if there were no problems.
"Did you like it?" Desmond asked me. I nodded without looking at him. I hope we can always be like this, I hope we can maintain our good relationship not as lovers but as parents of our child.
I looked at Desmond who was also looking down. I smiled, he's really a good person when you get to know him. How could Macie waste someone like him? Desmond only wants one thing, to have his love reciprocated.
Desmond looked at me, when he saw that I was looking at him, he smiled at me.
"I hope you enjoyed it. You know, it's so nice to see your sweet smile? It's so nice to look at you, Heaven. All I can say is, thank you for coming into my life. I'm not forcing myself to be happy to forget. I smile spontaneously because of you." My heart skipped a beat because of what he said. I swallowed, especially when he smiled at me.
He came closer to me and then held my hand again.
"Let's just enjoy the view because we don't know when we'll be able to come back here again." He muttered and then looked down. I was looking at him. Why is he messing with my mind?