Chapter 65 - Devastated!

**Third person's POV:**

Camelia was crying inside the hospital cabin. A few minutes after Lucifer exited, Laura entered the cabin.

"Camelia? Are you alright?" Laura went to her.

"No. I am not. Laura you know what the hardest thing is? The hardest thing is to hate the person you love so much." Camelia cried.

"Why was he here?" Laura questioned.

"To take me back. Like hell, I would go back with a motherfucker like him. Fucking asshole!" Camelia cursed.

"I asked him why he did this to me. I told him to give me one reason or one excuse. But he couldn’t give me anything. If he told me it was all a big bad prank, my stupid desperate heart would buy that too. But he was silent." Camelia wept.

Laura wiped her tears. She cried for an hour and Laura was comforting her.

"Calm down, Camelia. I have something very important to tell you. I couldn’t tell you this before because I thought you might feel stressed and doctor told you have to be stress-free. Today, I was about to say but at that moment, your ex-boyfriend came, so I had to go without telling it."

"What are you talking about?" Camelia queried frowning.

"Actually, your medicine cost, hospital fees, ICU cost- everything has been taken care of. And your ex-boyfriend, Lucifer, paid for these. For the first three or four days, my family covered these cost but later Lucifer came, and he paid me in cash. Then he told us not to pay for you anymore. At first, I didn’t know who he was and tried to stop him from seeing you. After all, he broke your trust. But later, he told me who he was and threatened me. And honestly, Camelia, no matter how our affluent family is, we couldn’t afford VIP cabin. He transferred you into VIP cabin. Later, I got to know from the doctors that he came to see you every day." Laura mentioned.

"What! Why didn’t you tell me these before?" Camelia exclaimed.

"I was confused. I didn’t understand if telling you this would be right thing to do. You were so weak and stressed. Besides, you cried whenever you mentioned him. I was also scared if you would stop receiving medical care if you had known it was Lucifer who was paying for you. But believe me, Camelia, I tried to convince him to let us pay for you. But he threatened me." Laura explained.

"Why did he pay for me? And visited me?" Camelia blinked repeatedly looking at Laura.

"I have no idea. Maybe you should ask him yourself. And honestly, Camelia, judging how powerful he is, if he wanted he could easily force you to go with him. But he didn’t." Laura said.

"It's true. He didn’t force me. And moreover something was off about him today." Camelia muttered.

"Laura, I asked him what the reason is. He could have told me if there's something. But he couldn’t say anything. He broke my heart so brutally that day, today I thought he would fight for me. He would try to take me with him. Still, he didn’t fight, he rather came here to let go of me." Camelia sighed.

Laura was confused again. She couldn’t make sense out of their relationship complications.

"Everything is over." Said Camelia.

Laura nodded. They were about to leave but got interrupted by another visitor. It was Melissa.

Melissa asked smiling, "May I come in?"

Laura didn’t know her; she asked back, "Who are you?"

Camelia turned to the door and she recognized Melissa.

"Laura, I know her. She is doctor Melissa." Camelia said.

"Please, come in." They said.

Melissa entered the cabin with a bouquet of flowers.

"Camelia, this is for you. Congratulations on your recovery." She handed the flower bouquet to Camelia.

"Thank you." Camelia politely said receiving the flowers.

"And who you are young lady?" Melissa asked warmly looking at Laura.

"She is my friend, Laura. We go to the same university." Camelia said pointing at Laura.

"Hello!" Laura greeted Melissa.

"Wow! It's really great to meet you, Laura. I am Melissa."

Laura forced out an awkward smile.

Laura thought that both of them needed privacy, so she said, "I am getting coffee for us." and left the room.

Melissa eyed the duffel bag and said, "You two are leaving? Oh, before you go, I wanted to give you something, Camelia."

And then she took out a paper from her bag and handed it to Camelia.

"What is this?" Camelia queried.

"You will know once you open it." Melissa answered.

Camelia unfolded the paper and started to read it. After she was done reading her face paled from the shocking information, hands were shaking.

"T-this d-disease, it w-was b-because of D-Devin?" Camelia’s voice trembled, eyes watered

"H-he injected me t-this?" Camelia stammered.

"Yeah, Camelia. Indeed, it was all because of him." Melissa spoke.

Actually Melissa somehow got the letter which Devin sent to threaten Lucifer. In this latter, Devin wrote Camelia's disease was no medical mystery, rather it was caused by a virus which his men injected in her body. In the same letter, he demanded if Lucifer wanted to save Camelia's life he had to say those horrible words to her and breakup with her, then record the video and audio clip and sent it to him.

"These are the same words Lucifer said to me. This is why he broke up with me? Camelia uttered.

"Yeah. It may be surprising, but he was also played by Devin. Time was so little and Lucifer was desperate to save your life. So, he said those. He had no way at that time because he didn’t know where Devin was. But later, he found him and snatched the remedy medicine from him. And this is how you got healthy. It wouldn’t be possible if it wasn’t for Lucifer." Melissa responded.

"B-but why didn’t he tell me this before? He could show me the letter." Camelia reasoned.

"Camelia, Lucifer didn’t say it because Devin asked him to give him audio and video proof that he really broke your heart. But after that he was about to tell you, but you passed out. The next morning, you left Lucifer's house without giving him any chance to explain anything. I don't blame you, what you did everyone else would do, if they were in your shoes. But the irony is, both of you are played by Devin and suffering." Melissa said.

"W-where is D-Devin now?" Camelia somehow asked. Her hands and feet were getting cold in the mention of Devin. He was her nightmare.

"He is no more. You think Lucifer would let him live, even after what he did to you? He is dead."

Camelia exhaled in relief but it was short-lived.

"But why didn’t Lucifer say anything about this? He didn’t even fight for me a little. He let me go." Camelia broke into sobbing again.

"Camelia, I am not siding Lucifer but no one can love you more than him. He loves you like crazy. But a few things inside him are stopping him from getting close to you. This is why he let you go." Melissa interpreted.

"What things?"

"Guilt, the feeling of incompetence and love. He holds himself responsible for your condition and blames himself for not being able to save you at that moment. The pain, sufferings everything you went through make him scared that if you stay with him, more dangers will come to you and he may not be able to save you the next time. He thinks if he protected you better, Devin's men could never get to reach you. His life is full of danger and for not being able to save you, he thinks you don’t deserve someone like him whose life is full of danger, and who is so weak that to save the love of his life, he has to break her heart. He is guilty, ashamed and hurt. After you left Lucifer's house, I saw Lucifer crying for you for the first time. He never cries. But he did for you." Melissa described.

"But still he didn’t say anything. Not even now." Camelia blinked her tears.

Suddenly her head spun with so many questions, knowledge.

"Because he chose your life, safety over everything. Over the love. Wherever you stay, he wants you to be safe and happy."

"How can I be happy without him? My happiness is with him. I am nothing but a living corpse now." Camelia stated.

"He asked me to go back with him and said he was wrong. But he never said these. Why didn’t he say these?" Camelia queried.

"He wants you back but at the same time he wants him safe. And he prioritizes your safety more than being with you. To keep you safe he buried his want for you to stay closer. He is conflicted. He may be a mafia but his emotions are also a mess. He can't show it like you and me. His mental strength is sometimes mistaken as his indifference. But he is also hurt. He is miserable." Melissa remarked.

"Camelia, I am not saying this because I want you to go back to him and start living with him. But for the one last time go to him and ask him everything clearly. After all, l what you two did for each other, for this relationship, I don't think both of you deserve to be this miserable. You must see what his heart says. Or in the end, you will make Devin win." Melissa added.

"But I am afraid to go to him. I was angry, I rejected him now. I can't bear if he rejects me now. It would break the last part of my heart." Camelia voiced.

"I wouldn’t press you, I don't have the right but Camelia for once, go to him and ask him. You have nothing to lose anyway." Saying, Melissa took her leave.

Camelia quickly went to the doctor's room who was in charge of her for last 15 days. She was shocked when he said that Lucifer gave him a medicine and threatened him to apply it on her. This is why, she got better.

"Why didn’t you tell us about it before?" Camelia screamed before the doctor.

"How could I tell you? You weren’t in a position to know it. You were unconscious. Besides, he told me not to let others know about it. He not only provided the medicine, he visited you every day." The doctor said.

"Then why are you telling me this now?" Camelia inquired.

"Because clearly you are an exception than others. And you didn't even ask me this before. If the medicine wasn’t given at that time, we are afraid that you couldn’t be saved. Do me a favor; keep this a secret from others too." The doctor requested.

"Okay." Camelia's brain was getting muddled. Lucifer indeed provided the medicine.

She went to Laura and said, "Laura, please go home. I must go to Lucifer. I will see you later."

Saying, she got out of the hospital building and took a cab to Lucifer's mansion.

She reached her destination, the guards didn’t stop her. She entered the huge mansion. When the stuff members and maids saw her, they were surprised.

Margo came to her and beamed, "Ma'am, you came? I am feeling so happy that you got better."

"Thank you, Margo. Where is Lucufer?" Camelia asked her.

Sadness filled Margo's little wrinkled face. She said, "He is not doing well. He came home two hours ago, and he is in his room."

Camelia thanked her and climbing through the stairs, she headed to his room. She entered the room and what she was surprising. Lucifer was sitting on the carpeted floor and two bottles of vodka were rolling at his feet empty.

"Lucifer, I have something to discuss with you." Camelia said going near him.

"Camelia? It's you?" Lucifer's bloodshot eyes widened for a second.

Then Camelia replied, "Yes, I am. Get up and I want to talk to you.

Lucifer stared at her for a few seconds. Holding an empty bottle of vodka he shook his head and burst into laughter.

"Fucking vodka! Now it's even fucking with my eyes!" He groaned rubbing his temple. Then he lay on the carpeted floor on his back and closed his eyes.

"Camelia what the fuck are you doing this to me, baby? Since you have gone, you are everywhere in my mind! When I open my eyes you are in front of me, even when my eyes are closed, I can see you. My chest is aching without you." He muttered.

"I shouldn’t have loved you. It fucking hurts more than a fucking bullet."

Camelia couldn’t help tearing up watching him. The notorious mafia leader was truly devastated, he was miserable and sank head to toe in distress.

"Lucifer, I am here. It's me Camelia." She called softly, sitting beside him.

"Fuck! Now I am even hearing your voice." Lucifer snickered with his eyes still closed.

"Lucifer?"

"Lucifer?"

"Open your eyes?" Camelia cried. But Lucifer didn’t wake up. He passed out after having too much alcohol.