Past III

MEIRA SIGHED as she entered their house. She was nervous and she knew it why.

Is their Mother already know about it?

She asked herself. She was a bit tense at the same time scared because of her Mother's thought about her. She knew that was her fault but.... Acerlon had a fault too.

Why do they put all the blame in me? It's not her fault, ok! She wasn't drunk at those times but she didn't expect it either and especially she didn't even planned it!

Again, she sighed.

She swallow hard when she finally entered the house. She stopped walking when she met her sister at the middle.

"C-chira..."

She bit her lip so hard at the threatening cry.

"Are you happy now? Are you happy that you got the person you love so much?"

Her throat went dry. She opened her mouth to speak and defend herself but no words came out of it.

Chira walked over to her and shook both of her shoulders. "SPEAK UP!" Chira pushed her shoulder so hard that makes her cried and shook her head. "WHAT?! YOU'RE NOT GOING TO SPEAK? YOU'RE A TRAITOR! YOU'RE A TRAITOR! YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A WORTHLESS WHORE!"

She gasled when Chira repeatedly slapped her on the face, arm, shoulder but she couldn't do nothing but to accept it because she knew, it was her fault.

"WHY AREN'T YOU TALKING? YOU'RE SO PIG! YOU'RE WHORE! WHY DID YOU STEAL MY BOYFRIEND?! WHY?!"

At Chira's last slap on her cheek, it made a loud sound and made her face tilt. Meira did nothing but to feel her anger.

"TALK TO ME, MEIRA!" Meira's shocked when Chira stepped on her foot. She fell to the floor. At that point, she couldn't longer take what Chira's doing. She stared at Chira sharply.

"THAT'S ENOUGH CHIRA!"

"Hah!" Chira scoffed at her. "YOU FUCKING SLUT! I NEVER THOUGHT I HAD A SISTER LIKE YOU! I WISH YOU JUST DIED!"

Those were the words that broke her heart. Tears welled up in her eyes. Meira whole body went numb. She couldn't believe that Chira said those words.

"You and I, the two of us, together, promise not to trade with anyone..."

That was they're ought everytime they had a fight. She knew that by now, that promises won't exist and that's her fault.

"A-are you really that mad at me? And you want me to die... instead?" Meira words broke her heart and voice. Eventhough she knew what Chira's going to say, it was still painful to hear that her anger towards her was unmatched and Chira would still want her to die.

"Do you think I can forgive you? Yes I hate you and ask you to die. All right? Who isn't? What if you're in my situation? What if your own sister cheated on you? Won't you get angry? WON'T YOU ANGRY? HAH?! WON'T YOU BE HURT TOO MUCH AND, IN EXCESSIVE PAIN YOU JUST WANT TO DIE?! YOU EVEN STOLE MY HAPPINESS MEIRA!"

Meira couldn't speak because what Chira said was true.

"On the second thought, you won't be the woman Erlon will love. You know why? Coz you are such a bitch, slut, and whore. A fucking whore,"

"C-chira...."

"I hope, I won't see you again in this house. Leave the house, leave us, and leave Erlon. Stay away and don't ever come back here. Fucking whore. Or much better if you are going to die..."

Meira clenched her fists. "Stop it, Chira."

"Stop? WHY SHOULD I STOP? HAH! WHY SHOULD I STOP?! You must-"

"CHIRA!!!!"

Their mother shout was like a thunder. They were startled by the voice and her dark face.

"Leave Chira, I'm going to talk her..."

Chira rushed away in front of her. Chira even rolled her eyes.

"Stand there Meira and follow me to my room,"

She nodded and followed her mother. Chira and her were just babies when their father's died. They have different mother and they are aware to the story of their parents. They are the same age but she is three months older than Chira. Twenty-two years, twenty-two years they have been together but now, the good relationship will be completely lost. And that's because of her.

Her Mother pulled her to sit on the bed. She is her real Mother while Chira's Mother died together with their father.

"M-mom...." Her voice was broke. Her mother touched her cheek and wiped the tears dripping from her eyes. Her face became soft and threatened to cry as well. "I'm sorry, Mom..."

"Why baby? Why did you do that to Chira?"

"M-mom? I love him, so much..." That's the words came from her mouth.

Her Mommy shook her head. "That's wrong daughter, they love each other so you shouldn't mediate between them..."

"S-so? did you leave dad to Chira's mother even though you love Daddy? You should get married right? The two of you should be the couple but you let it go for your bestfriend,"

"Because that's the right thing to do. They love each other. We just have to put up with it and be happy."

Meira shook her head at her mother. She couldn't accept what her mother said. She is hurting because of her mother’s past but she is hurting more now. Meira feels that the past will repeat to her and to Chira.

"H-how about me, Mom? I love him too..."

"But daughter..."

"No Mom! I won't do what you did. If I had to be bad, I would just make him like me."

"MEIRA! I DIDN'T RAISED YOU THAT WAY!"

She shook her head again and stood up. "I'm not going to do what you want Mommy. Why? Why do we have to be suffer? Why?! You know I don't really understand. Why did you let yourself hurt you just to make your bestfriend happy?! You know what a stupid thing you did Mom? After they died.. they give Chira to you! For what? It really makes you look like fool when they are happy in the afterlife and together. And then what? While you are hurt. You are hurt because here... you never married because you still love Daddy... and then what? They really left Chira- a sign that he will never love you. You fools, Mom- "

Meira face twisted again at her mother's slap. She never question it because she knew, she was wrong. She was carried away by so much grief. She didn't mean what she said but it was too late because she already said it.

"Meira! I warn you, if you don't let Acerlon and Chira... I will disown you! I will accept what you said about me because I know it is true but I hope you are clear that Acerlon and Chira are for each other."

She slightly laughed at her mother before getting serious. "Will you really choose someone who is not your blood relative than me- your own daughter?" Her mother averted her gaze. Meira laughed even more and wiped the tears from her eyes.

She is hurt. She feels her own mother doesn’t love her. She is hurt because her mother would still choose to make her bestfriend's daughter happy than her- the own daughter. She is even more hurt because she feels that her Mother loves Chira more than to her real daughter.

"I won't follow you." That's her words as her mother turned to her and face darkened.

"Try me Meira and I'll really disown you,"

"Then be it!"

Meira turned her back on her mother and quickly left. She even heard her mother shout her name but Meira ignored her and not even looked back at her.

She was hurt because she thought, her mother was on her side. Who wouldn’t think? Because the two of them, she's the real daughter and not Chira. Whoever is your blood-related, they are the one who will reject you.

She laughed a little as the tears rolled down on her cheek.

I have no ally,

But she promise to herself that this time, she will win. The man she love the most will learn to love her. She will win the battle for love that her mother didn't make it.