Apology Accepted

Chapter 88

"How about our children, dollface? Did they know that we are going to eat together?"

Alucard asked me questions when I prepared our food here in the Luna Queen's garden. Alucard brought me here when I told him I wanted us to picnic. However, our children were left in the mansion.

He watched my movements even though some of him wanted to help me, but I insisted that I serve him just as he served me.

"Indeed, yes," I replied and glanced at him. "And I want to be with you alone. We haven't been spending much time with each other these days. So... I missed you, pudding."

Those words that came out of my mouth made me want to be buried six feet below the ground from embarrassment. I wanted to be vocal with my feelings as much as possible to reassure Alucard, since we needed to communicate to avoid misunderstanding.

My wolf agreed with my resolve. And both of us had been longing for our pudding since he was busy for his departure, and we had this misunderstanding these past few days.

I wanted to settle scores with him and clarify things with Alucard about Simone.

As I looked at him, I saw his lips being pursed into a thin line; not only that his face flustered before he looked away and cleared his throat. "Dollface... You are making me blush..."

I grinned and sat down on his lap, wrapping my arms around his neck. "You need to get used to it, pudding." I nuzzled my nose to his cheek, showing how I wanted to show my affection.

I could understand Alucard's words since before, I wasn't being honest with my feelings. What I meant was I kept denying them, not admitting them, which was why Alucard ended up teasing me.

Now that I had matured, I wanted to be vocal with my feelings, which caught him off guard.

Alucard silenced for a moment before I felt him linking his arms on my waist. Then his face buried to my chest as I heard him sniffing my scent. Moments later, I could hear him purring softly while his hug tightened as if he didn't want to let me go.

Even though without saying a word, Alucard showed how much he wanted to be with me. So, I hugged him back, wanting to let him know that he was the only one for me.

"You came here on your own because of how I had been acting these days, right?"

My heart almost leaped out of my ribcage at his sudden question. I didn't expect him that he would reach to a conclusion about my agenda for today.

"Yes." There was no point in denying my intention here. I only came here because I wanted to settle the argument we had. "I want us to talk... to communicate as a couple, Alucard. I have been aching to speak with you, but I gave you some space..."

My fingers gently combed his silky hair, which smelled of mugwort and musky scents. It was really addicting to smell his scent as my mate, a distinctive scent of earthy elements that could be found in the forest.

I heard him sighing. "Yes, I also feel like we should talk..."

We were enveloped with silence. I was lost in my thoughts as I didn't know how to begin. If I came here, I thought I would have to encourage them to speak about my worries and give him the assurance he needed.

But here I was... I was speechless.

"Simone..."

Both of us flinched when we mentioned that name at the same time. This should be a fascinating situation, but the name mentioned was a sensitive topic for him.

"You go first." I urged him, silently praying to the Moon Goddess that Alucard would open up his feelings to me so I could understand him more.

I didn't want this to drift apart without discussing the issue first. I wanted him to be honest with me.

Nothing more, nothing less.

Alucard heaved out a sigh before clasping our hands together. He looked at my left hand and caressed my ring finger as if something was in there. I just let him before he gazed up to look into my eyes.

"I am feeling insecure that you and our children had a good relationship with Simone, dollface..." he started. "I am feeling envious that he was there when you needed someone, and I wasn't there during those times, longing for your fabricated death..." His voice began to croak. "That's why... I'm being a jerk to you... And I'm sorry, Faustina..."

His hold tightened as tears cascaded down from his eyes. His wolf inside him poured the same feelings that broke me and my wolf.

His statement made me glad that he resorted to discussing what he had been feeling these past few days. I already knew why he was being like this, but I wanted to hear them from him, and it didn't fail.

Pudding... You were doing great.

"Apology accepted, pudding." I reached for his face, stroking his cheek. "I really want to hear it from you about your worries. Thank you for being honest, Alucard." I kissed his forehead softly before deciding to wipe the tears staining his handsome features.

"Dollface... Can you please hear me out now as to why I had been horrible in the past?" I halted and looked at him, surprised. "I had been wanting to tell you everything... that all the actions I had done were to protect you."

I was skeptical, but Alucard kept me sitting on his lap when he noticed my almost flight response. The pleading look on his face hypnotized me, and he took advantage of that before cupping my face.

"Alucard..." I licked my lips, staring intently into his eyes. I could see the clear intention and eagerness glint on them.

Even though he wouldn't say anything, I could already tell that Alucard wanted to tell me everything. But there was always this hesitation spike in him because he knew I never wanted to discuss our past again.

In this way, I admired my pudding more for being so patient to open this up again.

Not knowing what to do, I closed my eyes, silently contemplating if I should finally give myself a chance to hear it. Since I was here now and we were communicating more, perhaps this was the right time to hear it.

"Tell me why you did that on purpose."

It felt like an eternity when I made a decision, and I felt a huge lump in my throat. And my reply caused his face to show a sign of relief as he held my hands together.

"Finally..." he murmured, eyes teary-eyed before bringing my hands to bestow them some featherlight kisses. "It all started when I returned home..." he began, making me gulp as I knew that I should be prepared on what was waiting for me.