Losing It

Astrid stays glaring at me while Yori and Sage remain ahead of me. It doesn’t help. Winter is getting worse, and leaving the room means walking past her.

“It’s pathetic!” She steps closer and I see Yori nod to Ash and he rushes out. “You’re just a whore, everyone knows it. This entire thing needs to fall down!” Her words are loud, and my body shakes as I try and stop myself from shifting.

“Astrid, I have sent someone to get the king, so step back and speak to him.” Yori looks at her but she ignores him.

“The king who lies? Who is covering up something to do with murders? He’s so great, the fact he let the mutt stay proves he’s weak!” She growls at me.

“Focus Elara. She wants you to snap, don’t.” I nod to Sage, I’m trying.

“The king isn’t weak.” That is all I can say.

She laughs and steps closer, my back now against the wall.

“No? Where is he now? Hiding away, no doubt.” Yori pushes her back, and she continues to laugh. “Yeah, he’s hiding. He’s good at that, right?”

“Enough! Astrid, you’re only going to get yourself in trouble speaking of the brothers like this! They are the king and prince.” Lyra stays close to her. Is she just worried she will be alone with me and Sage if Astrid leaves?

“They don’t deserve the titles. So many others worked out the truth, but they didn’t. Their dad should really have killed them along with the queen.” My body shifts, and I growl.

Sage jumps back, and Yori faces me.

“Elara focus!”

“Or don’t, please, attack me.” Astrid laughs. “Imagine that. You just got your wolf, and it gets shielded because you can’t control it.”

I force myself to step back, force Winter to calm down. Astrid notices, and I watch her shift. Her head dips as she growls at me.

“Ladies, please!” Yori stands between us, but Astrid snaps forward and catches him. I watch as he jumps out of the way.

Don’t attack her Winter. I repeat the words in my mind, and I turn so I have space to back up. She snaps forward and I step back more.

She lunges at me, and I jump back. I can’t fight her. I’m trying really hard.

Maybe after I finish you, I should find sweet little Kellan and prove just how weak he is.

I hear her words in my mind and lunge for her, my body gets knocked back and I notice Darius’ wolf in front of me facing her. I go to step around him. She threatened Kellan.

Stop! I hear Hades and Winter seems to still, but I still want to go for her. She threatened Kellan. What she said about their dad as well.

I watch as Darius shifts back, and so does Astrid. My mind tries to focus but I fail, I can’t shift back. My body is still shaking.

“Everyone leave.” Darius looks around the room. Turning he looks at me. “Calm down, focus and calm your breathing.”

She threatened Kellan. Where is Kellan? Winter growls.

“Elara, focus. Kellan is okay, I hear what she thinking, but Kellan is okay. I swear to you, he’s surrounded by at least fifteen men. Please just concentrate and shift back.”

Closing my eyes I try and focus, my body is still shaking though. I feel myself shift back, and his arms wrap around me. “I’m sorry.” I shouldn’t have listened to her.

“Don’t, I know what happened, she wanted you to shift. You lasted longer than anyone thought you would.” My body shakes against his. “Focus on my heart, listen to it, and it will calm you.”

My head nods as I keep it against his chest. “Is Yori okay? She bit him.” He shouldn’t have got hurt.

“He’s fine, it was barely anything.” My body stays clinged to him, it seems to help reassure Winter he’s fine. “Good, you’re back, keep her with you. I need to find Astrid and sort the mess out.” I smile sensing Kellan close.

“What mess?” Turning, I look at him. “She looks feral. You didn’t attack her, did you?” He laughs slightly.

“Kellan, no joking, keep her with you.” Moving, I wrap my arms around him. He’s fine. Her saying that and me not knowing where Kellan was scared me, though not as much as Winter.

“Whatever happened, you’re fine.” He smiles down at me.

“I tried, but she wouldn’t stop.” I should never have shifted, if I hadn’t, Yori wouldn’t have gotten hurt. That’s my fault, Astrid only shifted because I had.

“Hey, no guilt. Neither you or Winter should be guilty. Yori is here to protect you, so he won’t care.” Of course he heard my thoughts. He pulls me closer to him. “You do need to calm down though, your still shaking.”

“I don’t know how to.” I still feel angry, and that is all I can seem to feel right now. He grips my chin and forces me to look at him.

“Everyone is fine. No one needs protecting, focus, you will be able to feel Darius, he’s fine.” I stay still and look at him, I can hear his heart. I focus on it, using it to calm down as I stare at him.

It seems to help, until his rate quickens, and mine matches it. Leaning forward I kiss him. My hands pulling him closer to me.

“Elara, you go from one extreme to the other.” He tries speaking as I kiss him. He said focus, I’m focused on him. Only him. Moaning, I pull his shirt, not caring that I rip it. He continues to kiss me back before lifting me against him.

Wrapping my legs around his body, I tangle my hand into his hair as he pins me against the wall. I fight to get to his trousers, his hands stopping me.

“Can you not wait until we get to bed this time?” He chuckles slightly.

“You say no in bed. It’s focusing me, stopping me from shifting.” Kissing him, I pull him closer. My hands go back to his trousers, and I unfasten them. Pushing my hand inside, I grasp his cock, and he groans.

His mouth teases against my neck, before gently biting my ear. I feel his hands move down to my hips. My body shakes in pleasure. “Something is in the way.” His words are growled as he pulls and rips my underwear before thrusting into me making me scream.

His hips move fast. “We don’t have time for slow here.” His words are quiet as he bites and sucks against my neck. My body shakes as I cry out pleasure.

I want him to claim me. “Please, Kellan.” I moan and feel the orgasm rising.

“Not yet!” His words are growled as he continues thrusting. He bites lightly against my neck.

“Please.” He can’t keep saying no, he did this with sex.

His mouth continues to tease my neck. “You want me to bite and claim you?” I nod quickly and feel him kiss down my neck. “Right here?” He nips slightly, and I moan, whispering yes. “Prove to everyone you’re mine, and tell them I claimed you.”

The orgasm burns through me as I feel his mouth open more, and his teeth against my skin. My body explodes and I cry out yes as I hear him groaning. My body falls forward and he kisses my neck.

“You didn’t do it.” I was so sure he would, and for a moment everything felt so much more powerful.

“I said, not until this ends.” My head drops onto his shoulders. I’m worn out again. “Come on, you need a nap, and I haven’t slept, so I will join you.” I don’t move. I just stay in his arms and fall asleep.