Chapter 6: Forgiveness

Ozan's POV

It's been a week since i have seen her or talked to her after that morning and i miss her. I physically miss her i have this urge to just get in my car and drive straight to her place. I'm sitting with my morning coffee infront of me that reminds me of her, everything in this world reminds me of Sevinc. I pickup my mobile and open our chat from a week ago, i start typing................ HEYYY.............. It's been ten minutes since i messaged her and she hasn't replied yet. My heart is drowning deeper in the depths of the deepest ocean, I'm afraid i won't be able to see or talk to her now. My phone vibrates on the table infront of me and i jump to pick it up HI. Just a simple thing can work like magic and can pull you from the depths of the ocean, that what these two letter did to my heart. These words saved my heart from drowning. .... HOW ARE YOU DOING, SEV?.... She's typing instantly wow!!.... GOOD, YOU?.... I'M GOOD, WANNA HANGOUT TONIGHT??.... UM, OKAY WHERE?..... I KNOW A PLACE, I'LL PICK YOU AT 7. BRING A JACKET (wink emoji).... SEE YOU. How did i get myself into this mess, because i haven't got anything ready yet and I have about four hours to pull this night together. I have to work my ass off today getting the food ready and everything. It's too much. But if anyone can pull this off it's me. It's almost 6:30 and finally I'm done with every little detail and everything. So i drove straight home took a shower change into something better, that is a pair of jeans with a grey shirt. It's 6:50 and I'm pulling up in her building's parking. I take my phone out and sends her a message.. I'm here.. She sends me a screenshot of our previous chat and highlights the message that says that I'll pick her at 7.. I laugh.. and send her another message. I'll wait for 10 minutes, but not a minute more. She doesn't reply.. I'm sitting here in my car waiting for her and thinking all the things that i can say to her to compensate for the past week. I'm so lost in my thoughts that i didn't see her make her way towards my car's passenger door. Oh great! I didn't even open the door for her. That's all we need. I say to myself as i check the time and it's exactly 7:00 . I laugh a little. And unlocks the door. She adjusts herself in the passenger seat and puts her seat belt quietly never making eye contact with me. I wince from the pain because now i get it how angry she is. I put the car in drive, no one speaks for about ten minutes and i decided to break the silence. Hii Sev! She turns her face to me and eyes me cautiously, i can feel her eyes digging in my skin. I look at her for a second and i can feel the anger and sadness in her eyes. My grip on the steering wheel tightens so much that my knuckles are completely white now. I'm sorry. I say to her trying to lighten her mood and she scoffs. Oh it's okay, it's all better now. She spews the words on me . I stop the car in the middle of nowhere and faces her: Look i know you're mad, and I'm really sorry about that. I close my eyes and take a deep breath open my eyes again. I know what i did is really unforgivable, but i still need you to trust me. Ok? I made a mistake and i want you to give me the benefit of doubt. Please She sighs and finally let's go of her anger. Now she's looking at me tight lipped and there's no emotion on her face. She's completely still. I bring my hand to her jaw and slightly moves it, she moves a little and faces the road trying to hide the chills that she got from my touch. I grin and holds her face in between my palms and turns her face to me. Sev I'm sorry. I hope you forgive me because i want to give you the best night that you've ever had. I say this to her with as much sincerity as i can. I think she sees it, because she gives me a smile. I smile back and move my thumb near her lips, i lean towards her ear and whisper Thankyou, you won't regret it. I leave her on her seat her with chills all over her body. I give her a quick look from head to toe to appreciate how amazingly beautiful she looks tonight. She's wearing a blue jeans with a grey shirt and black jacket. And i think our clothes match, because my black jacket is sitting in the back seat which I'm definitely gonna wear tonigh. You look really beautiful. I look at her and she smiles again but this time the smile is just like all her smiles where her eyes also sparkles and i can see all her teeth. Thankyou, you too. Thanks for coming tonight and thanks for your apology, oz i appreciate it. This moment right here is when i lose my mind, when she calls me OZ she gave me a nick name. I'm not driving on the road but I'm flying in the wind with her by my side. Does this mean apology accepted? I arch an eyebrow at her. She grins and shrugs her shoulders . I push her shoulder playfully and focus on the road which is so hard because her focus is on me, she's looking at me, just me. Nowhere else. She staring at me. If i had a wish, i would wish to listen to whatever thoughts that are running in her head right now. But damn i love it when she looks at me like that. I continue driving, the map shows we'll be there in about five minutes. I can't wait for this night to finally begin!