Chapter 31: To Take Control
Chapter 31: To Take Control
Alessia
In the silent aftermath, you could only hear our heavy breathing. The squeaking of the bed had gone quiet and Roy dropped against me, so I could feel both our hearts beating like drums inside us. His pulsing dick was still inside me too, when I clenched a little, he groaned and grabbed me. Shoving his tongue into my mouth, we shared a long passionate kiss. We hadn't even kissed much today but in the aftermath, he was losing me in the hottest way. Then lazily again, he kissed my lips and around my ear, making my shoulder flinch up when it tickled.
Roy pulled out after that and I felt shockingly empty once he did. His heavy weight lifted off my body and he motioned to remove the condom and get cleaned up. I followed suit but my legs felt shaky today. Maybe from the overuse, maybe from the intensity of the orgasm. When I came out of the bathroom, I didn't immediately leave like the last time. I dropped down on his bed and sat in bliss. He chuckled when he saw the satisfied smirk.
“What makes you smile like that?” He called me out just for fun.
“I just got railed, what is your excuse? I see a little smirk there.” I waved my fingers around his soft shapely lips, he chuckled and it resonated deep in his chest the way I liked.
“Some gorgeous super model let me railed her, can you believe it?” He asked in mock shock and I hummed.
“Now, why should she go and do something like that?” I asked as I rolled to my side and faced his still naked body.
“Hopefully because she is impressed with my dick.” His hand between us tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear.
My hair had been up but with the movement of sex a lot of my hair felt out of the elastic. I probably look like a mess right now. I let my eyes linger on his face a second and it became palpable this chemistry between us. I let them wander down his hot body and back up to his handsome face.
“Yes, I think she was.” I tried to seduce him when I dropped my voice and inched closer to him. He wasted no time snatching me and pulling me flush against him and I like skin on skin.
“Are you going to stay a while this time?” He asked me, acknowledging my abrupt exit last time and I nodded yes because I didn't mind hanging out in bed for a while before I sneaked back to the apartment. If Faya had a date or whatever it is, then he won't be focused on me, hopefully.
Since Roy and I met for drinks directly aft he got off work, it wasn't even ten o'clock yet and I felt I had plenty of time. Smelling his cool cologne on my flesh and clung to the sheets around us smelt so good too. I nuzzled into it without meaning to. He held me against him anyway and his long fingers were idly drawing little lines and circles into the side of my body as I lay with my head on his chest. His firm delicious chest. When I peeked up at him from where I laid, his troublemaker's smirk surfaced and with this thumb, he caress my cheek, speaking.
“So pretty,” he said in a low voice.
“What do you see? When you look past the physical mass that makes up my frame, what do I amount to? Like..when you say, I am pretty, what do you mean?” I asked, I could tell I caught him off guard. He opened and closed his mouth for a second to consider his words maybe.
“Physically, you are pretty but mentally you are also very beautiful. I am not trying to be a dick when I compliment how much I like the way you look.” He replied.
“I have been calling pretty and I have called worse.” I shrugged. He could feel it because I was still against him.
“Can I ask you something?” He moved his head back on his neck to be able to look down at me and I repositioned myself to get a better look at him.
“You just asked a question.” I was a smart ass for no reason, still he granted me one of his deep chested chuckles.
“If you don't care what people think and don't like people acknowledging your looks or feel bored with compliments or all the male attention, then what got you into modeling?” He asked, valid enough question.
“To take control.” I told him simply. His eyes searched my face but not to enjoy the features this time. He was trying to read me and I felt awfully naked for being naked in the bed with him.
“Meaning?”
“Having people focus so much on my looks made me feel like people were taking pieces of me bit by bit. They made me feel like I couldn't have human struggles because I was pretty and what more would I want, right? The world is at my feet but says damn who?” I told and then continued.
“I couldn't do it, I could be pretty or I could struggle. It is like they thought I needed to have a privilege to be burdened. Pretty isn't a state of being, you know. What I mean is, damn all the beautiful and the beautiful are damned. One day, I just decided if it is my flesh they want then feast with fork and knife. But I will be the thing consumed that only leaves them starving.”
Roy sat really quiet for a second and I thought maybe my meaning was lost upon him. That was a bit extra of me, I mean what did I even just say? Did it come out the way I had meant it in my head? It is something I have mulled over more than once or twice.
“I will be the thing consumed that only leaves you starving, that is brilliant.” A crooked grin spread across his face. Did he just understand me?
“If it means anything at all to you, I think you are the most layered person I have had the privilege of meeting. I know we have only talked for a short while but I already know that to be true about you.” He said to me and that was a compliment to me more than the pretty bit. A soft smile played on my lips. We sat with that for a while, just laying there.
“I say we rest, replenish and fuck all over again.” His sudden deep voice filled the comfortable silence after a few minutes.