Lilith
I woke up and Eric was sitting on the bed reading. I looked at him and he turned to look at me, he smiled, and I smiled back. Kali spoke to me “See told you he would handle that well.” It was too late to say. “You sleep good?” Eric asked and I nodded. I really was not feeling great but seeing him act like there was nothing wrong was making it better. “Good, I know you are hungry.” I laughed. I was always hungry these days.
“I had the staff make Nutella waffles, strawberries, eggs, and bacon. I know you like breakfast for dinner.” I smiled he knew me to well. I felt so light. I hated to admit it, but Kali was right. Just saying it all and admitting it to the person I trusted most had been the biggest relief I could get. I got up from the bed wanting to tear into that food. “Give them a few minutes, they have to make it. They have all the stuff ready I just wanted it to be hot when we came down.” I leaned in and gave him a quick kiss.
It was strange, almost. I liked the quick kiss, but it occurred to me that I had really not shown any kind of affection to Eric in weeks. Sure, I hugged him and held his hand but that was it. There was no hot and heavy kissing. Nor any kind of sex. Eric had not pushed for it. But maybe it was because I was gross. I mean I looked like a train wreck since I got home. I was getting better and, in a week, or so I would be back to my normal self. Minus the scars, but with Ellen’s help, and her ideas on what to use they too were fading, and I was sure in time would be gone to.
It had to be more than just my looks though and I knew it did. I had been beaten up before and Eric had been on me then. No, this was my fault, it had to be. I had been pushing him away. I knew that was not right but after my confession, I was feeling much better. I didn’t feel like there was anything between us anymore. Maybe I should try to be more affectionate. But after what I told him would he even be into that. Then there were the babies, could I even be intimate with babies. I needed to find that out. “Eric did the OB give you a number to call in case I had questions?” He raised his eyebrows.
“She did but what do you need to ask her?” He asked. I blushed, why was I still blushing about this. I mean we had been together for months. “Because you love him.” Kali said in my head. “Oh, shut up I almost liked it better when you didn’t talk to me.” I lied to my wolf in my head. “Yeah right, you missed me.” Eric looked at me. “I just want to know if we can have, you know, while I am pregnant or not.” Eric stared at me for a long time and then started laughing. “What is so funny?” I said a little aggravated. “Eric?” I said and he laughed again. “Did you not listen to her at the appointment? She talked about this.” I stared at him.
“No, I had other stuff on my mind.” Partly true I listened but mostly just zoned out. I had not been listening or thinking about much during the appointment. It had been too surreal so most of it I zoned out. He snorted “Well luckily for you I listened and yes we can have sex as much as we want, but if you start bleeding, we need to call them.” He stopped and looked at me and smirked. “Why do you ask? Do you want to have a fuck fest again? Missing this big cock?” I flushed and turned around and I could hear Eric laughing hard as I went to the bathroom and closed the door.
Kali spoke. “Aww you miss him. See I told you so.” Of course, me and Kali make up and then she goes back to being a bitch. “Hey, I am not a bitch. Well, I guess I am seeing as I am a female dog, well wolf, does that count?” Ugggh, she could be annoying. “I am not, Axel likes me.” She said in my head. Eric then called out. “Lilith the food is ready.” Thank fuck, I am starving, crying really took too much energy. “Yeah, but I was right, you needed it and now we can move on.” Kali said in my head as I took a breath, trying to will my face to stop being so red. “You were so smart and intuitive now you are annoying.” I told Kali and she responded. “But you love me.” I didn’t respond to my wolf when I opened the bathroom door.
Eric stood there his huge arms crossed and a smug grin on his face. My face seemed to flush again, and I walked around him and out of our room. “Do you feel up to eating in the kitchen?” Eric asked once he caught up to me. I had not gone in there since I came home, but after confessing everything I was feeling better and confident enough to entering the space. “Yeah, I think I could eat in there.” I said and Eric pulled me to his side. His arm wrapping around my lower back and I leaned into him. When we entered the kitchen, my body seized up. Kali said to breath, and I did.
The fear seemed to fade as I released my breath. I sat down at the small table and the food was already there and I could see the steam rolling off of it. There was also three glasses in front of the plates. One was orange juice, one cran- raspberry and one was water. “Thank you, but can you get me some syrup too.” I asked Eric and he again laughed at my massive, sweet tooth. It didn’t matter that my waffles had hazelnut chocolate on them I also wanted maple syrup. I dug in stuffing my face. “So, what were you reading when I woke up? It didn’t look like a novel.” I said between bites.
“I was reading about being pregnancy.” I stopped eating and looked at him. Now it was my turn to laugh. “What are you thinking you are going to be carrying a baby anytime soon?” I laughed again and Eric just watched and ate while I giggled. “No, you are having babies, and I wanted to read up on it.” I nodded drinking all of the Cran- Raspberry Juice. “Yeah, I have been getting that information from Roxie.” I said and Eric responded with. “Lilith your pregnancy is not the same as Her's.” I shrugged and replied. “I am sure it is the same, well despite the fact full shifters don’t have nausea or cravings or really anything I have seen depicted in movies. All they do is eat more.” Eric looked at me with a confused look.
“So, let me get this right. You have decided to learn about what is going on with your body from someone who is going through something different and a Hollywood depiction of pregnancy.” I smiled at him with a waffle on my fork in front of my mouth. “Yes, that is precisely what I have decided.” Then I took my bite. “Sometimes I forget your age.” He said, I frowned and picked up a piece of bacon and through it at him. “Don’t be a dick.” I spoke. “Mood swings are normal.” He spoke. I put both my hands on the table and looked at him baring my teeth and growled.
He started laughing. “Calm down love, it is fine, I will learn for the both of us. Now eat up, you will need all the nourishment you can get, so you can have the energy to have that fuck fest you want so bad.” My face flushed and I looked at my food. He was flirting with me, and it was cute but also weird. I liked when he was like this but also, I got all nervous. “That is because you are wound so tight.” Kali said in my head which resulted in me telling her to shut up. “Hey, what time is it?” I asked. “Like 6pm.” I frowned. “You let me sleep through training?” Eric nodded and said, “Told the pack you needed a nap.” My mouth fell open. “Eric, now they will think I am lazy.” I said.
“Lilith, no one thinks that. If anything, you having shown up with your injuries told them you are the most resilient hard-working shifter they have ever known.” I rolled my eyes. “Oh yeah who said that?” He looked at me. “Most of them.” I rolled my eyes again. “But hey you will need to do less; I am not saying that you can’t do any of the training, but you need to make sure you are not over doing it.” I shot him daggers with my eyes. “Hey that is not coming from me but the OB. She is the one who said not to do overdo the working out. You know with how multiples are high risk.”
I rolled my eyes. Eric looked a little weirded out when he said multiples. “What was that face about?” I asked as I finished the last of my food. “What face, mine. This is my face Lilith.” I glared. “No, what was with that weird expression.” He said “Nothing.” I knew he was lying, and I told him I knew it to. “Fine, but don’t flip out.” Okay now I really wanted to know. “I called Rob while you were sleeping.” My hands turned to fists. “I wanted to make sure he got rid of the pictures and videos Bowie took of you.” I was now pissed off, he should have just left it alone, but what did that have to do with his face when he said multiples?
“Anyways, he mentioned that Draco Wolves tend to have multiple births at one time, that you all have litters.” I was intently listening now. It made sense then that I was having triplets. “He also said that when the children get their wolves and shift, they kill one another.” What the fuck. “Yeah, so I don’t know what to think? I don’t know if it is something inherent, they do, or if it is pushed on them?” I thought about my first shift, I killed someone. My hands went to my stomach, I didn’t want that to happen to my kids, I didn’t want them to kill one another. “I don’t think that will happen though, that information came from Rob, and he is not a Draco wolf, so there is that. We also will find out more when we actually go meet your father.” I nodded slowly holding my stomach.
Then a horrible thought came into my head. “Does Rob know about my pregnancy?” I asked. Fear was pulsing through my body at the idea. “No, I don’t think so.” Eric said. “You said he was talking about shifters like me and their babies. Why would he say that if he didn’t know I was pregnant?” Eric responded “He was trying to tell me about how Draco Wolves are beasts and used that as an example. He was wrong of course.” I looked at Eric who seemed to not doubt his words, it was heartwarming really. Kali said, “Your babies are not going to kill each other don’t worry about it.” But how did she know?