Chapter 72 His Seed
Kristen's POV
"You're pregnant?" Calhoun asks with his getting way too tender for their own good.
Sniffing, I nod and tuck some strands of hair behind my hair. Because, fuck!
I'm only twenty-one, about to graduate from school and then there's mom who's still out there.
I have another life growing inside of me and it's just too soon.
"It's all your fault, Calhoun. You could've been more careful. Had I known, I never should've let you touch me," raising my fist, I hit his chest and surprisingly it was not even as hard as I intended.
"Just calm down Kristen," Calhoun catches my fist, and tries to pull me into a hug but I don't let him.
"You don't even know how I feel at this point..how it fucking feels to know I'll become a father, that we're having a baby together," his voice is thought and when I look to meet his eyes, I can see he's already tearful.
Oh, Calhoun. He's making it impossible for me to hate him as much as I want.
My sobs come to a halt and I can feel my throat getting thick from the several emotions.
And then it dawns on me that this is more of a big deal to him than to me.
Because he's an Alpha and it's the first time he's having a child.
"I have never felt so overjoyed in my life.." Calhoun rasps out and blinks back his tears.
Upon seeing how I have stopped tearing up, hitting him, and being unbelievably calm, he seals my mouth with a quick kiss. Telling me a lot through it.
Having him kiss me this way shoves the worries from my mind and I lace my fingers around his large back as I kiss him back. Upon knowing he's this emotional and euphoric because I have his child inside of me.
I never expected Calhoun to even act this way, this wasn't the reaction I thought I'd receive from him. He didn't ask me if I was sure about the pregnancy or claimed he didn't release inside of me. I have never seen him emotional like this before, to the extent of tearing up.
Do I hold so much power over this man?
Calhoun only pulls away from the kiss to wrap me in a warm embrace, with his large body trembling against mine.
Eventually, my panic and everything else get away while we get lost in our own world.
One moment I cried and hit him for the first time in my life, the next I was enjoying the warmth radiating from his body.
I wept because I thought my life was a mess, but having my mate and fiance holding me like this, assures me that things won't be as terrible as I had thought. Calhoun will protect me, right? Not just me but also the child, in case someone is out to hurt us. He's more emotional than even me.
All these while, I thought I was ill, unbeknownst that I was pregnant with Calhoun's child. It was the night of our engagement that he planted his seed in my womb. When my breasts grew even more tender, I never expected it to be pregnancy, even the constant headaches were something I ignored until I skipped classes this morning and went to the hospital for a checkup, only to be told I am pregnant.
I know mom will hate me more than she already does when she finds out I am carrying Calhoun's child, it's not even something I can hide from her when I'm certain the news will spread like a wildfire.
This will add a stamp to the fact that we'll never be close in life, no matter what. She might have already disowned me upon seeing me as her contender.
"We never planned for this, Calhoun," I let this out whilst we're still hugging.
"It's true, I understand why you're even upset with me. You have every right to be mad," he pulls away from the hug and holds me by my shoulders.
"I don't even know what to do at this point, one minute I hate myself, I hate you and then I hate the entire world," I confess. Calhoun chuckles to himself, tucks my hair behind my ear, and presses a quick kiss to my forehead before pulling my hand in his. "Believe me when I say I'll ensure both you and our child are taken care of," He assures me, with his voice sounding a bit too rough for his own good. And I know if I hadn't fallen in love with him before, I would've fallen for him right here and now. The way he's showing his raw emotions, his eyes alone hold so much in them. I don't think I'll ever regret knowing him. I am grateful I have someone like him in my life.
Thankfully it's just the two of us here and no one is around to see us like this.
"We should live together, you needn't stay alone anymore," Calhoun says with all seriousness in his eyes, "I can't risk having you stay away from me when," he adds, pressing me closer to him once more.
"My graduation is in three weeks and four days, Calhoun," I point out, my tone dismissive.
"That's why we need to live with each other, I'll arrange somewhere else for us to stay so you won't go through the trouble of seeing people you'd rather avoid."
I know it's mom he's referring to and it just makes me feel sick.
Whoever has a conscience will not feel comfortable with someone talking about their mother like that, no matter how much the mom might hate them.
I can't openly admit it because I feel sorry and not guilty anymore, but I still care deeply for my mom.
"I don't think I can stay with you, Calhoun,"
"Why? Are you still afraid of your mom?"
"No, you just don't get it. I need time to rethink and process things, and prepare for my exams. I don't want to get caught up in this whole pregnancy thing," I sigh after concluding.
"But it's dangerous for a pregnant woman to live alone," Calhoun's tone is a bit persuasive, "I don't want you to get hurt in any way."
"I have my friends, they do visit,"
"You cannot rely on friends, you need the presence of a man. Your mate, your fiance, your child's father."
"I don't want to talk about this anymore," I almost yell.
And Calhoun shuts his mouth as he looks at me, before blinking unsteadily.
It's amusing and I feel a bit guilty for sounding mean.
"I'm sorry if I went overboard," Calhoun looks away from me and stares at the floor.
Not wanting to make him feel bad, I put my hand on his cheek.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell at you."
"No, it's okay," he shakes his head.
"It's not. It was disrespectful," I say.
"I'll take it that your pregnancy hormones are at work," Calhoun smiles and presses a quick kiss to my hand.
"God, I don't deserve you, this feels too good to be real."