Chapter 68 Sleepy head
Alessia’s POV
I wake up suddenly the sounds from movie playing on the tv jolting me awake. I pick up the remote and reduce the volume before laying back down on my pillow I watch Alex as he sleeps his breath warm and even. Having him this close should make me feel safer but my mind is anything but calm. Everytime I close my eyes to try and go back to sleep I keep hearing the whisper as an echo in my head.
I swallow hard slowly shifting to sit up in bed doing my best not to wake him .The early morning light filters through the curtains casting soft warm glow on the room .I look at Alex again ,He looks so calm while sleeping like nothing could rattle him. If only I had the same assurance. A soft breath escapes me as I wrap my arms around my small frame. I replay what happened yesterday over and over and over again.
\-The feeling of electricity when my foot touched Mezza soil .
\-The whispering from La Casa welcoming me
\-Alex as he stood up and addressed the air in the room
My chest grows tight as I remember the first time we met. The way he watched me eyes half lidded with something akin to desire as I danced for him. He held my chin and told me.
“I am Alex Ferrini , remember my name because from now on you belong to me” And boy has he kept his word.I didn't know it will be such a dangerous journey I stopped belonging to myself that night.
He said it in such a cold detached manner as if he was referring to luggage. I hated him for it and resisted, I was so desperate for freedom too tired of running. But eventually I gave in.
\-Today here we are
\-I am still afraid
\-Alex is still holding me down through my fear
I slide out of bed slowly, wanting to go to the living room and get a bit of fresh air. Before I get to the door I hear Alex’s sleepy sexy drawl “Alessia where are you going?”
I pause...
“Come back to bed”he murmurs
I turn around slowly, he is wide awake now his eyes half lidded but alert watching me approach him slowly. “I wanted to go to the living room, I didn't want to wake you” I whisper
“Why not? Anytime you are awake you can wake me up” He says sitting up as the sheets drop to his waist and I stare at his rock hard abs. Pausing I drink him in ,Such a glorious sight gulping I look down.. Heat flooding my cheeks
“Come here.” he commands softly parting the space beside him on the bed. “I dont bite Alessia, just come”
My feet carries me the rest of the way before my mind can stop it. When I get to the edge of the bed he reaches for me wrapping his hands around me. His thumb brushes my pulse point by my wrist slowly, grounding me with his familiar touch. My heart races with excitement as He pulls me down to sit by his side “Have you heard any whispers today?” he says .I drop my gaze from his intense eyes “No I have not” He nod once that's good
We both sit still , in silence
Not unpleasant just filled with emotions I wasn't ready to confront
His hands strolls up my arm, warm against my skin as my breath hitches
He tilts his head “If it's not the voices then what is on your mind?” I raise my eyes and meet his boldly
“You are on my mind”
His eyes widen in shock as surprise flashes across his face I doubt if it's because of my response he just didn't expect the truth to come out so easily. But I know he feels the tension, magnetic pull between us that has been humming like static electricity.
“Alessia-” he calls my name as if he is entrusting me to put him out of his misery.
“I have never-” my voice cracks “You are the only man that has ever made me feel this way. You know that” His eyes darken, not only with lust but also with something far more deeper and complex
And way more dangerous too…
“He wants to possess me”But he is holding himself back because he is scared of hurting me .He gulps “Yes Alessia” he says softly “I am aware”
I look at him “I dont understandwhat I am feeling or what to do”
“Sshhh It's okay, you dont have to “ He murmurs placing his hand on my cheek. He waits as if seeking my permission “Take deep breaths, Its me I am here with you” My pulse races out of control
He moves his palm to my shoulder ,leaving a warm trail and I melting into him like butter.
“Alessia-” he whispers again moving closer that I can feel his hot breath on my skin “I want you to look at me” I slowly raise my eyes to meet his own
My chest fills with emotions , the Fear of the unknown , Desire , Confusion ,Hope all bundled up together In a knot in my chest until I cannot breathe properly. His hand returns to my face touching my cheeks in light featherlight strokes.
“Tell me what you want from me, Dont be shy I am all yours” He whispers kissing my ear as I shudder holding on to him like a lifeline. My body is hot now as potent need fills me like a drug. I cannot deny it any longer. I desperately want him to take me.
I want him to do things to me I have never experienced before
I want him to touch my aching body
I want him to drive away all the fear and confusion
I want to belong to him : Mind, body and soul
I want him to complete me
I want him to mark me
I want him to make me his
I want to be his one and only