Chapter 117 Making up
Alessia's POV
The silence between us is not uncomfortable nor awkward its the kind of silence that is full of thoughts, regrets and memories none of us ready to break the ice just yet .
"Alessia" Alex says "Can we talk about what happened ? I want to tell you everything I remember"
For a moment I feel a twinge of pain as I recall how I found him just days ago with the witches but I nod . I have to give him a chance to explain . Gulping I let out a shallow breath .
"Carry on" I whisper softly not sure if he heard me,I shift slightly so I can face him as he talks .His hands reach for mine squeezing it once then lacing his fingers with mine as if he is afraid I will run or pull away.
"Thank you ,That morning" he continued "After you left with Enya … "He looks at the flowers he sent earlier for a moment. "I still remember having the first and second drink with Luca clearly but the third he gulps hard. I can only see a feminine hand offering it with no face ,only fragments of memory remain . The witches faces that flickers from my memory , I remember their laughter and how it irked me but I couldn’t tell them to shut up rather I encouraged them Its like my mind was being controlled" He is rambling but I let him . He needs to get it all off his chest like a purging.
My heart pounds in my chest as my throat burns . I blink back my tears threatening to fall
"Alessia please believe me when I say this" he says quietly finally facing me again . His eyes full of a raw intensity that takes my breath away “I would never disrespect you and what we are building that way .The first clear moment I had was when you walked in."
Sighing I curl my fingers around the fabric of his shirt. I was even confused when you walked in he admits, I was wondering if I was transported as I don't recall walking into that room.
\-The witches image flashes in my mind unbidden
\-Tiny gold brallette barely covering their amole bosom and their matching palazzo pants .
\-The way my heart filled with anger and disappointment
"I know I should have believed you but the evidence was too incriminating" I whisper my voice cracking .. "I just couldn’t see your point of view."
Alex flinches as he hears the pain in my voice "It's okay Alessia" he rubs my back gently "I never would have given up."
I nod as my tears threaten to fall again “When I peeped into the room and saw you …" Pausing I take a deep breath "I felt angry , jealous ,unworthy , like I meant nothing to you and it was only because of la rosa you stayed by my side."
He reaches for my face cupping it gently "My feelings for you has nothing to do with la Rosa, I will give it up a million times just to have you with me." He says his voice husky .My heart soars with this admission.
I let out a sigh "And Frederick being Frederick could not let an opportunity pass him by of course."
Alex clenches his jaw tight "He is still breathing only because of you !" His voice is calm like he is discussing the weather not killing a high council wizard!
His hands tighten on my back "Either way I failed you I should have been by your side even though we were not in a good place."
I stare at him wide eyed for a moment .He is blaming himself even though I him I needed space? Dios what did I do to deserve Alex !
"No Alex" I say firmly "It wasn't your fault ,they were hoping coming for me will help keep us apart for a longer haul."
\-The ugly truth that I laid out bare settles between us solid and undeniable .
"Alessia I have been battling with myself to remember" he admits "I almost hated myself for not being able to prove my innocence to you.I watched you walk away believing what you saw and my heart ached."
I remove my laced fingers and cup his chin for a moment as he sucks in a breath. "You are not the only one."
I confess "I almost hated myself too because I was praying for it to be true.I did not want to face the music that the coven members can be so manipulative and evil"
He pulls me in again laying my forehead on his chest . His warmth envelops me once more driving away the doubt and pain
"When I walked into the alcove and saw Frederic looking like me" He said voice low and urgent "And caught sight of him kissing you! Merde! Something broke apart inside me . I have never felt that kind of rage before."
I shiver remembering the moment I met his gaze
"He was you ,I could not tell and I thought you wanted to speak about the gifts .I trusted him."
"I don't see it as a betrayal Alessia" he says tightening his arms around me."You were tricked just like me."
His words crack open a wave of emotion that I had kept buried for days , the blame I had been carrying around in my heart loosens .
"I am scared of them,Not of their power but how easily they manipulate and twist situations !"
Alex kisses my hair once more “they failed and they shall continue to fail."
"I shift back a bit to look in his eyes we still have issues to walk through Alex"
"I know."
He agrees "But we are not where we were this morning either .We are together again with our eyes alert"
I nod slowly accepting his words "I dont know if I will ever forgive them" I add quietly
"I know I won't" Alex says
"Alex Iet let bygones be bygones,I want to forgive you" I whisper
His breath hitches for a moment ,he closed his eyes then open it and I gasp at the level of emotion or do I dare to say love ? That I see there.
"I intend to spend the rest of my life earning your forgiveness" he says
And I just melt in a puddle. I mean who wouldn't ? My Mafia king spouting poetry ?Be still my heart!
I settle back on his chest as his hands tighten around me .I feel light as a feather and relieved that we had sound proofed our room so our moments is ours. For the first time in a few days my magic settles in my belly ,instead of stirring and ever ready to strike or defend . My heart slows down and the storm of emotions inside me starts to quiet .Outside of our room the coven continues to plot malicious schemes and tricks waiting for us to emerge ,but for now in this very moment we are together again .