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Ravi's hands rest on my waist, bringing me a little closer, as I look back, trying to see Rubens behind me.

- Mariana - Ravi suddenly catches my attention, forcing me to look at him - Where were you going?

- I...? - I breathe through my mouth, trying to catch my breath, without stopping looking at the stairs.

- I brought the obstetrician - Frowning, I look at him again, without understanding. Only then noticing the doctor that Ravi had chosen to monitor his son's development behind his back, she smiles without showing her teeth, waving in my direction.

- Today marks 10 weeks - He walks past me, taking his hands off my body, leaving a sudden emptiness as he does so - Aren't you the one who should have known that? - he questions. I close my eyes for a few moments, massaging my closed eyelids.

- I forgot - I admit, remembering that I wasn't very good at remembering dates, especially when it came to figuring out the length of a pregnancy by weeks.

The only thing I knew was that I was pregnant and that my body was changing, my previously flat belly was now taking on a rounded shape, my breasts were twice as big and a little sensitive, in addition to my hips which were visibly wider.

I didn't even need to mention the rest, mood changes and everything.

- No problem - says the obstetrician with a suitcase on wheels - We are here to remind you - I force a smile, without stopping looking at the top of the stairs, hoping to see Rubens there, however, he doesn't appear, which makes me wondering if he was still recovering from the pain or if... he had passed out - Let's go see your baby - She asks suddenly, looking at us separately. Ravi just nodded in response, apparently anxious.

The first time I saw the baby, it was alone and for an urgent reason. We didn't know if the pregnancy was still going ahead, after everything that had happened and the moment was so tense that Ravi simply didn't want to be there at the moment, clearly neither of us were prepared to hear that there was no longer any sign of life in my uterus.

But I practically cried when I heard those rhythmic sounds, the sign that despite everything, he was still inside me.

Next to me, Ravi kept his eyes on the black and white monitor, sitting in one of his comfortable chairs. He kept my eyes fixed on the obstetrician as she prepared for the ultrasound, always smiling at us, as if he wanted to reassure us.

- You'll just feel a little uncomfortable - she says after putting lubricant under the device's condom. Ravi stares at the elongated instrument and then at me, it was clear on his face that he was making a mental comparison with the organ he had between his legs. I close my eyes, grimacing, when that cold sensation invades me, ignoring the movements it starts to make inside me. At the same moment, I feel Ravi's hand on my head, this makes me open my eyes and look at him without knowing exactly what he was doing - Here it is - says the doctor, attracting my attention - On the screen appears the outline of a small body in gray, as her hand moved the device, she could see the small head, followed by what appeared to be the hands and feet.

- Can you tell if it's a boy or a girl? - Ravi asks, eyes fixed on the screen.

She smiles, without looking at him.

- Still in training. 10 weeks is too early to know the sex of the baby, but if you are anxious you can do a fetal sexing using a blood test. The ultrasound will only show it at 20 weeks.

- I'm not anxious - I reply. Ravi stares at me.

- I am - he says seriously.

- What's the problem with waiting another 10 weeks? - I question - I should be worried about his development and not... whether it's a girl or a boy.

- I'm worried about both things, but if you don't remember, this child needs clothes and there's no way to buy anything without knowing what it is.

- Have you ever heard the term “neutral clothes”? - I say impatiently, holding his gaze, without realizing that we were already in yet another discussion about that baby.

- Dads - says the doctor calmly, reminding us of her existence - You still have time to decide a lot of things.

- But Ravi didn't understand that - I say irritated, looking at him again.

- Now I'm the one who doesn't understand this?! - He raises his voice, standing up from where he was - I'm trying to do the right things, if you don't understand.

- The only thing I know is that it's turning something good into a real hell - I reply in the same tone, sitting down, thus forcing the doctor to take the device out of me.

I would need another shower, as the lube was starting to run out of me and make me dirty.

- You haven't finished taking the exam yet - he says between his teeth, trying to appear calm that in fact wasn't his.

-Continue wow you! - I turn my back to him, starting to walk.

- Mariana, come back here! - He screams, losing his pretended self-control - I'm telling you to come back! - I start to climb the stairs, using the handrail to avoid the risk of falling.

- Do you know what I remembered now? - I say, stopping for a moment, looking into his eyes - You don't rule over me and as long as this child remains inside me, you don't rule over her either!

- I'm going to... - He takes a deep breath of air, taking two steps towards me.

- What? What are you going to do, Ravi? - The seconds begin to pass, while we look at each other in silence. As time continued to pass, I couldn't see anything bad in his eyes, on the contrary, I had the impression that he didn't plan to hurt me in the way his words suggested. I wanted to hurt myself in another, more... pleasurable way.

It was a conquered position, but my heart beat faster with anxiety rather than fear as I noticed the predatory desire on his face.

— I'm going to fuck you — he says in a husky voice, positioning his knees between my thighs to spread them. There was no seduction in his voice at that moment, just a primal, aggressive need. — I'm going to fuck you until you beg for mercy... and then I'm going to fuck you again. Did you understand?

I managed to nod slightly, my chest heaving as I looked at him. My breathing was rapid and heavy. My skin burned where his body touched me. For a moment I felt his throbbing penis against my inner thigh.

Soon after, he held his penis with his free hand and guided it to my entrance.

I was wet, but I wasn't ready for the brutal thrust with which he brought our bodies together. A shock of pain ran through my nerve endings as I was penetrated.

I let out a scream and my inner muscles contracted, resisting penetration, but he didn't give me time to adjust. Ravi began to move at a hard pace, claiming me with a violence that left me shaking and breathless, unable to do anything but accept his possession.

relentlessness of my body.

Just thinking about it made my whole body heat up quickly and my panties became damp. That was the Ravi effect on my body, which my body was already more than experienced in that effect and yearned to feel every time I was so close to it.

It was strange to find myself longing for his hands on my body, slowly sliding over my skin and working their way down to the lower part of my body, right where everything was wet because of him. It was even stranger, realizing that a man caused all these sensations, when I swore to myself one day that I would never allow any man to touch me again.

- Shit - I growl, turning my back on him again, continuing to climb the stairs. I should have imagined that going to live there, with him, something like that would end up happening and the worst had already happened. I was desperately in love with Ravi and there was no way to hide it anymore, it must have been clear on my face and he had to act blind every time he looked at me.

My room was empty when I stood in the doorway. Even though I was afraid, I hesitated to enter the room and look at every space where a body could hide, including the bathroom. But there really was no sign of Rubens there. All I had to do was look at the window to know where he must have gone, closing it quickly the next moment, preventing him from entering that way later.