34

Carla

It's a few days until the wedding, and I'm anxious and nervous, especially since Juan provoked me, that bastard, what a drug. After the service I arrived all euphoric, not knowing what to do, I've never been through that. My daughter is at my mother's house, she will sleep there, I asked my mother to pick her up from school, it's also good that my daughter spends more time with my mother, and I can organize myself better, Juan left a check at a wedding dress shop, to choose a dress for me, and tomorrow is Friday, I'm going to take the day off to try on some dresses and choose one, even if it's a fake wedding, I don't feel like it's 100% fake, because I've noticed this week that we feel a chemistry, and I intend it to be just a few nights and nothing more than that, I can't allow one more man to hurt my heart.

I stop thinking about it and get ready for bed, tomorrow will be a long day... I know it will be tiring and exhausting, I've never been married, I don't know how will be all the craziness of trying the dresses and the wedding day, and there's Sunday that is the party... my God, a lot of things to assimilate.

I turn off the lights as soon as I go to bed, I have to relax a bit.

Next day...

I wake up sleepy, walk to my bathroom, turn on the tap water and wash my face, brush my teeth and fix my hair, make a face to the mirror and say softly to myself.

" Tomorrow I'm getting married, my God... I can't believe it. I never imagined myself getting married, and tomorrow I will be."

I roll my eyes and stop thinking out loud and choose an outfit to wear, I grab a jumpsuit and a light pink blouse to wear underneath.

I grab a small pink heel and start putting on my makeup, a dark pink gloss, eyeliner, mascara and a little blush. I look great.

I look at myself in the mirror, I look really beautiful, it doesn't even look like I'm a mother yet, my body is still the same as before I got pregnant, I'm slim, I have a defined body and some curves, as I breastfed a lot I quickly lost all the pounds I gained in pregnancy, it really doesn't even look like I was pregnant before.

I examine myself one more time and leave the flat going to the shop. And of course Juan's driver came to take me, typical Juan.

Already in the vehicle I get impatient, I am tapping the phone lightly on my leg, I shouldn't be like this, I should stay calm, I'm just going to try on some dresses, that's all...

As soon as we arrive, I thank the driver and look at the name of the shop, it seems to be very fancy, it must be a fortune these dresses, my God, what's the point?

I'm wide open and enter the place, several brides are there, super smiling choosing their dress. They look at me and give me a smile, I smile and walk around the huge luxury room, as soon as I walk around the shop a brunette woman, very beautiful, smiles at me and starts to talk.

" Miss Carla Dominguez Ferreira?

I nod my head and she continues to speak smiling at me.

" Juan Fernandez, you paid for your dress, he described you. You can come with me, I will be your attendant, please follow me."

I smile at her and follow her, she shows me dozens of dresses, my God, I keep looking at every detail of the dresses and choose some to try on... I don't understand much, but I chose about five dresses to choose from.

I try them all on and I didn't like them, well what now?

I leave the bathroom and tell the brunette called Vanessa.

" Look, none of the dresses look good on me, I'm sorry."

She smiles at me and says.

" This is normal to happen, you're nervous, I have the perfect dress for you, Swan Lake, a casual one for the registry office and a more extravagant one full of details for the party, Juan has already written everything down, don't worry, I'll show you these dresses."

And there the brunette went, showed the two dresses that she talked about and I just drooled over them, they are too much, too beautiful, my God, I can't believe it, I get bright eyes looking at them and Vanessa takes the dresses and enters with me in the bathroom, she will take my measurements, if the dress is too loose she will have to tighten it.

She helps me with both dresses, and they look perfect on me, my God, I can't believe it. Just a finger to tighten the back and shoulders, the rest is perfect, I look in the mirror and for sure I will be the most beautiful bride, even if it is a lie.

At the end of the day I thank Vanessa and she gives me her card, in case in the future I come back to buy a party dress, besides wedding dresses, there are several types of dresses here.

I simply took her card and left the shop.

So far I've passed this first stage, tomorrow will be another.

The night...

I arrived home, I have already picked up my little one and she is missing me terribly, she squeezes me and says crying.

" Missing me mommy."

" I was too, my love."

I kiss her cheek and comfort her.

" Now I'm here, ok? Shall we play?"

She smiles at me happily and we go to her room to play with dolls.

I have to make it up to her, because I spent the whole day without her.

This is the only way I can cheer up and try not to think too much about tomorrow...

Next day...

Today is Saturday, the wedding day.

I'm going to wear a make up that matches the dress, silver colour and pink lipstick, I'm going to leave my hair loose and put a silver earring that I have.

I'm going to wear a white heel that contains some details of stones, it's beautiful and it was super expensive, as far as I know, my ex gave it to me, and I'm not going to throw it away, no way.

I get all dressed up and go to my daughter and put a nice red dress on her, my princess is going with me. And then I have to talk to her, but I don't know how to explain, am I going to say Juan is a friend? My God, you mustn't lie to your children.

I roll my eyes and fix her hair and put some perfume on us.

' Love, let's go out, ok?"

" Owo, out mommy..."

She says excited and I kiss her cheek, I take her in my arms and we go out to the gate to wait for Juan and his driver.