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Juan

I still review in my thoughts the kiss I gave on that angel face of Carla's, holy shit.

A man who goes too long without having sex gets like that, like an idiot; I need to do something about it.

The fuck is that in my whole life I've only had sex and had sex, there were never any feelings, never.

Could I ever know what desire and love are?

Maybe, who knows.

I stop thinking about this bullshit and decide to call a girl to calm me down. I need a body glued to mine, to satisfy all my desires. Only after the hot sex will I be able to think clearly.

Later...

Andrezza has already left, she is my fiancé, whenever I call she comes on time. I am much better now, this woman drove me crazy.

As soon as I put on a pair of shorts I hear my mobile phone ringing, who can it be?

I take the mobile phone and see that my younger brother is calling me, what the fuck.

" Talk, Fabio."

I say without patience, he will say the same thing, the talk if I already got my wife.

" Hey brother, what's up?"

I throw my hair back in anger and say.

" I just got laid, what else do you want to know? If you're going to call me to fuck me up, just don't call. "

I say angrily and my brother answers, laughing loudly.

" Easy there, annoying sir. Anyway... I asked for a meeting because it is also my company and I want to know how business is going. If you don't get married, the company will be mine, those are our father's orders. Even if he's dead, we'll obey him to the end. I'll see you Tuesday in the meeting room. Bye, brother."

He hangs up without letting me say anything. What a stupid bastard! If I lose this company, what will become of me? I need to get married, but how?

I just don't know... I'm really screwed. My brother would not know how to run this company; I may be immature with all this love stuff and everything, but I am a good professional. I'm a good boss and thank God I've got a great designer who gets my attention sometimes. She's the most different woman I've ever seen. Anyway, I know she will give her best in the company, and my brother will see, I will get a bride. I have to do something, and yesterday.

Carla

After making my princess sleep I lie down on my bed and collapse. Being a mother is tiring, but very enjoyable.

Thinking about it a quote from Daniel comes to mind.

No matter what happens, we will always be together.

And it may be that we are together, but not really. He is the father of my daughter, but he is not my husband, he is not as he should be, only a great madness can perhaps make me forget him, the love that is still inside me. Maybe that true love will fade away, or not; he was my first love and I never needed friends, because he was my friend and my boyfriend.

Now the idiot is without a boyfriend and has no friends. Yeah, the only way to learn and turn things around is to get screwed, and I'm going to do it. I'm going to grow in my work and give my daughter a good life; now, to love again, only God knows.

In the morning...

I wake up and wash my face, tie my hair in a ponytail, brush my teeth and put on some perfume, I look at my reflection in the mirror, my face is very tired, I need to take care of it, moisturize it, my green eyes stare at the mirror and then I give up, I have to make milk for the baby first.

I start by washing the bottle, then heating the milk for her.

While it's heating up, I make myself a bauru and start boiling some coffee, nothing better than coffee, right?

Her milk is ready and I mix some sugar and corn mucilon in the bottle, she loves it.

I go to her room, she was awake, but without making noise, she smiles at me and asks for milk.

" Milk mama, give it to me."

I laugh kissing her shoulder length curly hair, I give her the milk and my pretty one starts to suckle.

I leave the door open and go to the kitchen to serve myself coffee and bauru.

I start to eat and take my coffee calmly, it's very tasty.

I finish eating, put the cup in the sink and I hear a knock on the door, who could it be?

I go to the door and open it. Who is in front of me is Daniel! What is he doing here? He always calls me. I stare at him for a moment and then ask him to come in.

I'm wearing a black tank top and shorts, a very short outfit, I should change.

He sits down on my couch.

" Did I disturb your breakfast? Sorry, my phone went off just as I was about to tell you I was coming. You look... gorgeous.

He lays his gaze on my hair and then moves down to my body."

" All right, I'm done eating, do you want coffee and a bauru? "

He nods and I start to prepare it for him. We still treat each other the same, nothing seems to have changed, it's just that we're not together anymore.

I finish fixing his coffee and hand it to him.

" How was the trip?"

He smiles and answers.

" It was good. I bought a supermarket. I know what you're going to say, I own two supermarkets and a publishing house, OK, I'll stop, but I love my job. And how are you and the little one? "

Daniel never stops, that's why we fought a lot; I didn't want to be always travelling with him, he has a work addiction and I hate that about him.

" Congratulations, you deserve it... We are doing well, I got a job, I won't need your help anymore. I don't want to be rude, but now with this job I can support myself."

He is dumbfounded. And then he says, settling down on the sofa.

" But I'll give the money to our daughter and when she grows up she can use it however she wants. I'm glad I got a job.

He smiles and finishes eating his bauru and drinking his coffee."

As soon as he finishes I go to get our daughter, and as soon as she sees her father she jumps off my lap.

" Daddy, lap."

She stretches out her arms and Daniel picks her up, kissing her curls.

" Daddy missed you, my love. "

" Me too, Daddy."

They hug and I smile watching them both.

Another knock at the door, who can it be?

I go to the door and open it, Juan and his security guard are in front of me. He smiles at me and then looks at Daniel, holding my daughter, and his gaze changes. He is serious...

What a bizarre scene... God.