Chapter 20
Alexander
William: I knew you would feel betrayed, I wanted to tell you everything from the beginning but Thea wasn't ready yet and you know very well how difficult it is to tell her no
Me smiling in spite of myself: yeah that's not wrong
William: So I can take it that you approve of our relationship?
Me: Do I have any other choice? You've already brainwashed her, look at the way she spoke to me the last time, she never spoke to me so violently, but let me tell you the day you make her cry I'll forget that you are my brother
William smiling: I love her too much for that, I plan to make her the mother of my future children
Me: Who would have thought? William talking about having kids
William: That's because I hadn't met the right one yet.
Me laughing: in all I hope for your good that it will last if not I kill you and melt your body in acid then I will come and mobilize people to find you
William smiling: Your sister will suffer the most, where will she still find a man like me? one as handsome and manly as me?
Me: no I don't want to know the details it's still my sister
I still have to admit that it suits him well to know love, I understand better why he didn't want to talk to me the last time about the girl who was calming him down, I really hope that I don't find myself again not in the middle of this story and they will end up happy, even though my sister is young and sometimes immature i know they can build a truck together if they really want to
For having been with a little immature I know how complicated it is to support and manage them
William resuming a serious tone: I learned that Alex had left the house, what happened to make you come to this?
Me sighing: I screwed up
William: finally you start to realize things, what are you waiting for to go get your wife back?
Me: It's not like I want her back but not for us to build a husband and wife relationship, this separation I think is best for her but home is really tense and Julia sorely misses her
William: And you, don't you miss her?
Me: yes, a little, I admit that I got used to seeing her every night when I come home and I even miss the faces she gives me in the morning when she wakes up
William: Don't you think that's enough to fight to get your wife back?
Me: I don't think I'm ready to invest in a romantic relationship right now or to love anyone
William: But you already are, you like that girl, don't you notice the way you smile when you talk about her?
Me: stop seeing love everywhere, however I spoke with her mother and she asked me to come pick her up
William: Do you think going through this woman will fix things? it will only make the situation worse
Me: of course I know, I want to bring her back, not push her to put more distance, she doesn't want to have any contact with me and since I don't want to go through her mother, I put someone next to his apartment who will keep me informed of all his actions
William laughing: no, you didn't dare
Me: well if I had no other choice
William: And so far what information have you been able to get?
Me a little ashamed: she rarely leaves the house and the few times she goes out is to go to the grocery store and she always has red eyes and a swollen face
William: She spends all her days crying for you, do you realize that?
Me: of course I understood it, I don't see why she persists in staying in her corner when it hurts her
William surprised: is this the same guy who threatened to kill me who is still talking?
Me: let me handle it
William: you can see for miles that you love this girl but if you refuse to accept her and tell her how you feel let me tell you that today she is a free woman even if the divorce is not yet proclaimed and someone else could take it from you
Me pissing off: in no way she ain't a free woman, we're still legally married she's still my wife even though right now we don't live on the same roof, if she dares let another touch her I kill them
William: Isn't it you don't want her, leave your place to someone else who could assume her love and their relationship
Me: it's out of the question, anyway she had enough time for herself and to think, I plan to pay her a little visit this evening
William: you know very well that she will never receive you, don't do things in a hurry to rob her even more
Me smiling: you better know my actions are always thoughtful
William: and I noticed that when it comes to this girl you lose all your senses very easily
Me: stop with that, as I tell you I will pay her a little visit and she will be obliged to receive me since I will not be going alone, I have the perfect excuse; Julia. Don't tell me I'm using my daughter, it's for a good cause and if I'm doing all this, it's for her
William laughing: if you say so, keep making excuses...
I will say it really takes a weight off my shoulder to have cleared things up with him, plus it's the first time we've had to stay muddled for so long, I really wish he could find love in turn too, and if it's my sister who has to bring it to him, who am I to interfere? I really hope with all my heart that he will know how to stay away from his many suitors and that he will strive to make my sister happy if not I know for sure that I will find myself on his way and it would be a real shame that Such a long-lasting friendship ends like this...
Alex
I decided to take my life in hand, I will not continue to be depressed for a man who is not worth it, I consider it a bad experience that can happen to everyone has a world of his life, life is not going to stop for that, you have to know how to bounce back from your falls, so that's what I'm thinking of doing, find myself a job to be able to get out of this house, I feel like I'm suffocating here being busy will allow me to think about him less and who knows I will be able to be a man who will love me as I deserve, the simple fact of thinking about him makes me laugh since I really don't imagine myself in the arms of anyone for now except this crazy
For the moment what urges is to make myself a good dish of pasta I have the end of a wolf, I have the impression that a hole has been dug in my stomach I need a consistent truck to be able to close this hole (laughs), we don't have potato flour at home, I put a truck on my back to get what I need
Lately I have this bad feeling of being spied on or followed when I leave the house, it seems that I am simply becoming paranoid
Coming back from the grocery store I meet a man who offers to help me carry my packages, I'm sure I've never seen him but he looks so familiar that reassures me so I accept his proposal, he makes me the conversation and I answer him out of politeness, when we arrive at the bottom of my building he wanted us to exchange our contacts it was a little weird, I was a little reluctant but I see Alexender from afar who was looking at us, the simple fact of seeing the anger in his eyes, I give my card to this man with a smile on his face, I don't even wait for him to decide to come to me, I go straight up to my house
A few minutes later I call someone stunned, there's no way I'm going to open the door for him, at some point he stopped ringing it's better that he go back where he came from, I don't I don't want to talk to him anymore here it's not at home, he must call before passing
I continued to cut my tomatoes quietly, I feel two cold hands on my arms which startles me, who is it? i'm supposed to be here alone since my mom is out
When I turn around he was there behind me
Me in shock: what are you doing here? how did you get back?
Smiling Alexander: Your mother opened the door for me
Horrify me: don't take me crazy how did you get here? my mother is not here, you got the spare keys for me, right?
Alexender: your mother met us on the doorstep and ushered us in, who is this man you were with?
Me: I don't have an explanation for you as far as I know
Alexender in a harsh tone: in case you forgot you are still my wife, and if I left you here for a moment it was to take some time for yourself, I do not allow you to have so much familiarity with strangers?
Me laughing: I remind you that we are going through a divorce and who says he is a stranger?
Alexander getting angry: don't provoke me...
Julia throwing herself into my arms: Alexxx….
Me holding her tight: darling, I didn't know you were there
Alexender: I was coming to warn you like this
Julia: you forgot me, right?
Me: not at all my dear, dad is never home so it's often difficult to get in touch with you, I missed you so much
Julia giving me wet kisses: I missed you a lot too
Me: I'm making dinner tonight, it's an African dish, I hope you'll stay with me until dinner
Julia turning to her father: dad we can stay can't we? say yes, say yes...
Alexender turning to me with a smile on his face: of course we can remain my darling
He is not welcome but if spending time with Julia amounts to putting up with his presence I am ready to do it, my mother preferred to stay in her room so the three of us spent the whole evening together, we prepared together and ate together, would be lying to myself if I said that I didn't like spending this time with them, would also be lying to myself to say that it didn't make me dream, I would have liked it so much that it was like this every evening , and that we can form a real family but alas it is not possible...