Chapter 81 About to get fucked up
LISA
I was seated in the backseat of my car and everything I'd heard through my AirPods was about to mark a defining moment in my life it scared me like nothing ever had in my entire life, and I sure as hell had been through pretty scary shit in life and never flinched- but this was different, I felt my world collapsing under me as my plan came together slowly.
I sighed heavily and removed my AirPods as Axel's meeting finally came to an end. I'd listened in to every single detail since he'd left home and I knew that Prince was right to warn him at the point where he did, my heart had squeezed anxiously at that point knowing that I was the one that had backstabbed Axel.
The meeting I'd just listened in to was filled with all the details of the mission my family needed to sabotage it. The car had just halted in front of my house and I knew I would have to get off soon but the thought threatened the balance of the one thing that was right in my entire life; Axel's love.
Every detail about the mission they were about to carry out was meticulous, thought-driven, and airtight. You'd know without a doubt that millions of resources, hard work, and brain power had been put into the mission, yet I was about to burn it to the ground by betraying Axel. Without the tracking device, I'd attached to his shoes, no one could have ever gotten the slightest hint of how the mission would play out, it was perfectly thought out and their security was tight as fuck as well.
This would've easily gone down as one of the best-planned mafia missions in history if I wasn't being an asshole by eavesdropping with plans to expose every detail to my family. I stared blankly at the top of the car as I allowed my mind to wander even farther from where I was seated in reality. Most of my thoughts were tailored to dwell on the guilt that was eating me inside out as I sat fixated
in one spot.
I dwindled the flash drive that had all the information I'd gotten between my thumb and index fingers as I thought of what lay ahead after this fell into the hands of my father and Angel, no matter how much I thought of it there was no way this would possibly work out in mine or Axel's favor.
My heart was in my mouth and my hands and feet felt cold from the thoughts of how much pain Axel would be in if he ever found out that I was the reason his mission was sabotaged despite everything we'd been through. I held my face in my palms momentarily because it felt as though the world around me was spinning out of control with every passing minute.
More than anything, I was going crazy from the mere fact that Axel would be heartbroken and betrayed by everything that would go down soon. I knew how much this mission meant to him and how hard he'd worked to get it right yet I dared to ruin it and pull everything to the ground because my family had pressured me to, it broke me beyond words.
Once again, I fixed my gaze on the flash drive and grasped it in between my palms as though I wanted to crush it and get rid of the evidence that I'd betrayed the absolute love of my life, my heart was twisted in ways that hurt me too much to ignore, I was torn and downcast about the decision I'd made to betray Axel even now that all I needed to seal the deal was to hand over the flash drive and wash my hands off this shit.
As I kept pressing the flash harder in a bid to ruin it, someone knocked frantically on my car seat window and I looked up in confusion. However, as soon as my eyes met my younger sister's gorgeous face and I saw the sheer excitement in her beautiful eyes, my mood lit up instantly and I smiled back at the bee enthusiastically.
I was eager to get down from the car at that moment and I hopped off without giving it a second thought. Before I could spread out my arms she engulfed me in a satisfying bear hug and I laughed at her excitement and drew her into a tighter hit happily, she smelt like blossoms and fresh lavender which also elated my spirits that very instant, I loved Tricia with every bone and nerve in my being and she was my soul mate fashioned from a similar DNA and dropped in my laps.
"This is such a beautiful romper baby girl, where'd you get it? Fits you beautifully like a glove" I asked her immediately I noticed the lovely purple romper she had on while we began walking towards the house, hand in hand.
"I designed it and sewed it! It's one of my most recent designs, I have something for you too but I'm not quite finished, you'll love it I promise" She said excitedly and my heart swelled as I took in her expression, it was so satisfying to see how passionate she was about fashion design.
"Yeah? I guessed as much, it's perfect and I'd love one in red, please. I'm sure I'll be smitten with whatever you've planned for me sweetheart" I squeezed her palm lightly while she smiled at the compliments I'd just thrown her way.
"Coming up real soon! Tell Tana to send me her new measurements, I heard she's been dieting and I need to update the measurements I have to match her recent size" She rambled happily and I chuckled because she actually believed Tana was dieting, what an innocent little angel she was.
"I'm sure the measurements you have will do just fine, Tana's diet is still the same, mark my words. But I'll let her know you asked though if that'll put your mind at ease" I rubbed her hair fondly and
she laughed.
"Yeah sure, that'll be plenty of help. Are you doing okay?" She asked and halted as we has almost reached the main door of the house. I paused as well and faced her when I noticed an expression of concern on her face, her nose had scrunched up in worry and that bothered me.
"Yeah, sweet. I'm alright, why are you asking?" I held both her hands in mine as I watched her struggle to reply and I wondered what had given me away this time around.
"You looked a little off in the car that's all" She finally said and I broke into a smile at how cute she was being.
"Just a little boy in trouble, but you know I can handle anything, yeah? Don't worry about anything aside from making me pretty dresses okay?" I said and watched as her expression finally softened as opposed to the concern that was written on her face earlier.
"I love you more than any of those boys, know that too. I'll always make your pretty dresses, I never need to be reminded" She said and pulled me by the arm towards the main door while I laughed in response to what she'd said.
"You first, milady" I opened the door and bowed politely for her to get in first and she chuckled before she bounced through the door I held open for her.
"Dad's waiting for you in his study, see me upstairs before you leave for school pretty please?" She said as I shut the door behind us. "Sure thing sweetheart, I'll come to you soon okay?" I watched her nod before she bounced excitedly up the stairs and I smiled in her direction until she was completely out of view.
I took a deep breath and walked towards my dad's study while my heartbeat had tripled erratically and my hands had begun to feel sweaty as a wave of anxiety washed over me. As I stood transfixed in front of the door my mind became torn between choosing my family or Axel one more time.
I hated having to battle the choice of whose side to take every single day and I felt like a chaotic mess as I trained my eyes on the door handle of my father's study.
Fuck, fuck. Fuck this..
I exclaimed in my head as I contemplated turning back and leaving instead of delivering the flash drive. But I'd come straight here and I was certain that they were aware of my presence in the house the moment I and Tricia stepped foot past the main gate. My best bet at running away would've been when I was still seated in the car.
I ran my hands through my hair in frustration and hissed because it didn't give me any form of release or satisfaction as I'd thought it would. At this point, I'd already crossed a million lines that I shouldn't have with the plans I set in place to betray Axel and this was the last line, the finish line-why was I so scared to finally go over it? I'd be done with everything once and for all so my family could get off my fucking neck and let me breathe for fuck's sake.
I pushed the door open without letting another thought cross my mind and I was met with the faces of my family members and all eyes seemed to be boring holes into my head as I took my seat
quietly.
Without a word, I connected the flash drive to my father's PC and played it on loudspeaker for them to hear the details of Axel's mission. It was torture being seated in the room while they happily listened to every single detail. I wasn't comfortable in my seat but my father and Angel seemed to be having the times of their lives while they smiled satisfactorily throughout the entire time it played. I had tuned out the excited voices of my father and Angel such that I could hardly hear the words of praise he threw my way every now and then. Angel seemed to be glowing with pride and I was genuinely irritated that I had made that possible. I was more focused on the fact that I had finally ruined the only real thing in my life and at this point, there was definitely no going back, I'd crossed
the finish line.
"I'll like to be excused please, I'm done with my mission and I'm sure you guys can take it up from here," I said gingerly with a stoic expression and stood to my feet, I just needed to be excused, I hated being in this place while I could hear Axel's voice and they listened happily.
I had begun to walk towards the door quickly even without getting a response and I had already grabbed the handle of the door when my father's voice interrupted my movements and made me halt in
confusion.
"Where do you think you're going?" He started and I turned to stare at him with furrowed brows.
"Your real mission starts here" A sinister smile spread across his face and I knew things were really about to get fucked up.
Fuck my life.