Chapter 61

I nodded happily and he took his spoon to dig in the vegetable soup I had made for him but his eyes furrowed when he saw broccoli sprawled proudly over his favourite spaghetti and his not-so-favourite pie stuffed with spinach.

　　"I don't eat broccoli, Emi. You know that and what's with this pie? It's stuffed with grasses and-" he looked up at me and stopped speaking.

　　I glared at him my infamous glare of Eat-It-Before-I-Stuff-It-In-Your-Body-From-Down-Your-Ass!

　　He gulped in disguised fear.

　　"In fact, I'll disclose you happily my little secret Emi, that I own a broccoli tree outside my farmhouse and recently I bought a beautiful spinach garden to quench my thirst of eating spinach! Man, I love these two vegetables!" he continued to eat all of them, without looking at me.

　　My biology ghost kicked me hard on my butt to tell him how stupidly he explained my botany but I killed and buried the ghost in his office, patting its imaginary grave with my shoes.

　　"It's for your health, Eddie! See how much you've grown weak. You didn't even attend any meeting, did you? That's why I was telling you all this time-"

　　I stopped blabbering hearing a faint sound of 'click' and my head snapped immediately to see him holding his phone in his hand, taking my picture.

　　"Hey, that's-"

　　"A face that is worried for me!" he showed me his phone, tilting it to my side before swiping to show another picture of me,"And a face which misses me so much!" he swiped another, "A face which cares for me so much"

　　I snatched his phone from his hand fast and opened his gallery to see a folder ‘My Lily’ filled with all types of faces I was capable of making. Immediately blush rose to my cheeks to see he indeed kept my photos in his phone and my chest swelled up in pride to see his phone wallpaper consisted of our picture at the beach on our honeymoon to Mauritius.

　　And not the one with Lara!

　　"When the hell did you take so much of my faces-" I looked up to see him looking down, playing with the spoon on his food.

　　I knew what he was thinking.

　　"Edwa-"

　　"But I hurt you!"

　　He looked up and I saw his eyes filled with regret, remorse and sadness.

　　The three expressions I never wanted him to have after he gave me the most amazing night of my life!

　　"But Edwar-"

　　"I hurt you so bad, Lily! I'm a villain who doesn't deserve someone like you as my best friend. I should be beaten up so badly-"

　　"Edward! Will you listen to me first?"

　　"No, Lily... don't take my side. I'm a loser who can't even protect you from me myself-"

　　"Listen to me, Eddie!"

　　"And all this time I was protecting you from all those men when a real beast was lurking in my body all along-"

　　"Edward!" I yelled at him.

　　"Look at me. Here! Look at my whole self! Do I look like you hurt me? Do I?! Am I that weak to you that you think I can't even protect myself if I want to? Do you think whatever happened between us two that night was only your fault?!"

　　"But Emi-"

　　"No. It wasn't your fault alone! It was my fault as well. But what could we do anyway? We were two people with the opposite sex, clinging to each other for our facade, touched each other to fool someone and before we realised what we were doing, things got out of our hands. So it isn't anyone's fault. I understand it pretty well!"

　　"But Lily I used you for my-"

　　"No. You didn't, Eddie! It was just the heat of the moment. Nothing else!"

　　"But you're my best friend and I can't have you under me for that stupid scientific term!"

　　"I don't know. Okay. I took it my way and my way doesn't involve any of us being at fault or anything we did as a mistake!"

　　I really didn't want to cry out loudly in front of him for the pain which was shooting right through my injured heart every time I called it ‘fault’ when it seemed so much real for me.

　　"But Lily, I hurt you and no fact or reason you state can stop me from hating it or forgiving myself for that! I'm gonna repeat it my whole life!"

　　I put my hand on his shoulder to calm him down.

　　"Edward, there is only one thing you can do to hurt me and you know what that is?!"

　　He looked up at me, his eyes red from all that emotions and for a moment I thought he would cry like a child in front of me.

　　"What is that?"

　　"By behaving like this. Like I never knew you from the beginning, like I never knew if you were a beast or a villain… Like I never knew you intended to hurt me or not. Like I never knew you cared for me or not!"