Chapter 128 Chapter One Hundred and Twenty-Eight

Chapter 128 Chapter One Hundred and Twenty-Eight
“Sure. Ask away.”

Spencer is quiet for a long time then finally asks. “Have you ever-“ He pauses again. “You know, have you ever done anything with another guy before?”

I smirk. “You mean besides kissing you?”

Spencer laughs. “Yeah, besides when you kissed me.”

My mind flashes back to my night with Dylan and Adalina. I can’t help but smile, that night was perfect. “Yes, I have.” I say, answering his question.

Spencer’s eyes go wide. “Wait, really? Who? When? What happened?” He asks one question right after the other.

I laugh. “Yes, really. Dylan and I kissed some, when me and Adalina were in Texas.”

“Like kissed, kissed?” He asks, quirking an eyebrow at me.

I nod my head. “Yes, like kissed, kissed. The same way I kiss Adalina, the same way you kiss Adalina.”

Spencer bites his lip and looks up at the ceiling. “Did you enjoy it?” He asks, without looking at me.

“Yeah, I actually did.” I say, smiling. I’m not ashamed to admit it.

Spencer looks over at me with wide eyes. “You really enjoyed it? Like you got hard and everything?” He asks, sounding genuinely curious.

I laugh. “I mean, I was already hard, but it definitely wasn’t a boner killer. That’s for sure.” I pause for a second, then ask. “Why are you asking?”

Spencer's cheeks turn a deep shade of red and he swallows hard, turning his head to the other side where I can't see his face anymore. He's quiet for a long time and I almost start to wonder if he fell asleep. "Spencer?" I ask. I'm not really sure why he isn't looking at me right now.

Spencer takes a deep breath and whispers. "I'm kind of embarrassed to admit why I was asking." He still isn't looking at me though.

"You don't have to be embarrassed about anything with me." I tell him, softening my voice a little. It's true, I would never judge him. He's one of my best friends, we have been through a lot together. There isn't anything he can say that would change our relationship.

Spencer looks over at me, studying my face for a long moment, then sighs. "The reason I was asking-." He pauses, and whispers the last part so low and fast that I almost can't understand him. "The reason I was asking is because well when you kissed me, I don't know it kind of made me want to like kiss you more. You know how when you kiss Adalina and you just want to keep kissing her. Well, that's kind of how I felt when you kissed me. Does that make sense?" He asks, looking away from me again.

I can't help the smile that spreads across my face. I don't know why he was embarrassed to tell me that. There isn't anything embarrassing about it and if I'm being honest, I wouldn't mind kissing him again.

"Yeah, that makes sense." I tell him, smiling at him, even though he isn't looking at me. "You didn't have to be embarrassed to tell me that. You can tell me anything. You should know this by now."

Spencer looks over at me. "I- I didn't want you to think I was weird or something. I know this relationship is about us being with Adalina and I know you only kissed me because of her. So, I don't know. I didn't want to make things weird between us. You are one of my best friends and I didn't want that to change."

I chuckle, unable to stop myself. "Dude, we have literally fucked our best friend's little sister together, and you thought telling me you liked it when I kissed you would weird me out?"

Spencer laughs. "Well, when you say it like that I feel kind of stupid."

I put my hand on his arm, looking directly in his eyes. "This relationship doesn't just have to be about us being with Adalina. If there are feelings you want to explore together, we can. I know Adalina wouldn't mind. In fact, she would probably be excited by the thought of us being together as more than friends and her boyfriends. If you decide it's not really your thing, then that's fine too. Nothing will have to change between us and Adalina. No matter what you will still be my best friend."

Spencer bites his lip and nods his head, looking back at me. "I- umm. I think I might want to explore the way I'm feeling. We umm, we will just have to take things slow. This is all new to me."

I smile and rub his arm. "It's new to me too, trust me we can go slow."

Spencer smiles. "Can we just keep this between us for right now? I mean, like not tell Jace. I don't want him freaking out or something. Especially if this is nothing."