Chapter 44

“I’m coming now,” I said. My voice was broken and hoarse and I was just scared. Seyah is not gone and I know it. How can mom just joke about something like that? I hit my head and laughed because she was really funny.

“Seth, Seyah just passed away a few minutes ago. I’m sorry” I hung up the call and threw the damn phone away hearing her. She didn’t.. She didn't, right? I’m not gonna believe it.. What the fuck was that?

Taking a deep breath, I calmed myself. I forcefully smiled and wiped the tears, without even my permission why the hell tears were coming out? Fucking shit… Seyah was in a damn coma, how can she just pass away like that?

Suddenly, my mind started to show me the dream I saw. No… she is not… I shook my head and started the car as I sped to the hospital. As I arrived at the hospital I ran into the room where Seyah stayed.

I looked at my parents who were crying and Eliza was also there. She looked at me and forcefully smiled before walking away. Ignoring them I ran into the room as I looked at Seyah who was laying on the bed.

My heart softened seeing her sleeping like an angel like she always was. Walking towards her, I caressed her hair. As my hand touched her skin, I felt she was getting cold. Forcing the heart pain I placed my hand on her chest.

There was no heartbeat… and she wasn’t breathing. I smiled and looked at her face. My whole body was shaking and my heart felt someone was chopping it brutally.

“No, wake up. How can you just?” I asked her but gained nothing. She looked so peaceful and innocent. I pressed my lips together and caressed her face. Is she really gone?

“Seyah, can you wake up please, I didn’t marry her.. I’m just sorry, okay? Don’t punish me anymore” I spoke hoping she would hear me and wake up but all I gained was nothing.

She had really left me alone.

I watched her face for a while and looked at her hand, the ring I put on her hand was atill the there and also the necklace around her neck not only that, the earrings. I smiled at her and waited for a while. Then I heard my footsteps.

I looked back at my parents who were crying. Then I wiped my tears and kissed Seyah’s forehead before walking out of the room. Why the fuck am I so unlucky? She’s gone and not coming back to me.

How can I just bear this pain? Am I also going to die and meet her there? I asked myself as I walked out of the hospital. Tears were coming out of my eyes as if there was no limit. I’m going insane and I fucking felt it.

How can my angel just leave like that? Last time it was only seven years and now she had gone forever without even looking at me or a goodbye. I laughed at my own self, I could have just pulled her to me before the accident happened. Why the fuck am I so foolish and ignorant? Fuck my life.

“Seth, don’t do stupid things” I stopped and looked at Eliza who was looking at me with tears. Why the hell is she crying? Didn't she hate Seyah? They were always enemy’s. I ignored her and got into my car as I drove away. I stopped at the place where Seyah and I watched the sunset and where I gave her the ring.

I sat on the ground and started to think about everything. As a man, I could have fucking find her but what did I do? I was such a loser who got fucked with everything. I just lost the girl I loved and also the girl I slept with countless times.

Memories surged into my mind and I fucking felt like killing myself. She’s gone and there’s no coming back again.

Failing to endure the pain inside of my heart, I started to sob as a woman. I cried and cried, I fucking cried untill the dawn arrived. Then I got up from the ground and walked towards my car. Getting into it, I pulled a cigarette out and lit it up as I started to smoke.

I sighed in relief as I felt the feeling of the chemical in it. I fucking didn’t do this for two months and now I’m doing it again. I just want to fucking die and go to her.

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I placed a bouquet of white roses on her tombstone and looked at the picture of her. That picture was taken by me.

“That’s ugly, why can’t you take a beautiful picture Seth?” Seyah threw her scarf at me and yelled. I laughed seeing her angry face.

“That’s not my fault. It was just because you’re ugly!” Wanting to tease her even more I said. Then she looked at me for a while and made a snowball before throwing it at me with fury. I couldn’t help but laugh seeing how cute she was.

“Alright, come.. I’ll take a good one.” I sighed and said. Then she nodded and smiled brightly at me as I took her picture. So gorgeous and innocent, that’s what she was.

Forcing my memories back, I looked at her smiling face and smiled. Did I ever think that it would be the picture of her tombstone when I took it? No I never thought. And never expected this little girl to die untimely, she was just only twenty three years old.

“Let’s go Seth, she will be at peace” I looked at Austin who came and patted my shoulder. I nodded at him and followed him as I got into my car. I turned my head and looked at the direction where she was buried, I sighed and smiled at her before starting the car.

“You want me to drive you or you want to join me for a drink?” Hearing Austin, I laughed and shook my head. I just want nothing but to stay alone for a while. I grabbed a cigarette and lit it as I placed it between my lips.

Then I looked at Austin and smiled before driving away. My eyes filled with tears remembering our memories together and I looked at Seyah’s jewelleries which were gifted by me. I took them back and I just want to live with them.

“FUCK!” I hit the steering wheel as tears rolled down from my eyes. I fucking hated, I just wanted to die and I just want her back. My vision blurred and I didn’t even wipe my eyes because I was holding my cigarette from one hand while the other hand was moving the steering wheel. But yet I fucking sped the car.

Suddenly, I felt something was wrong and car was moving so fucking fast.

“Shit..” I cursed and tried to break, I couldn’t even see the road properly because my vision was blurred. And at the same time, the tires slipped and the car went the wrong way. Then before I could think about anything I could hear the crashing sound of a vehicle and at the same time I felt a sharp pain against my shoulder as my vision turned dark.

“Seth, come on.” I opened my eyes and looked out of the windows of my car and saw Seyah was looking at me with a frown. I smiled seeing her and then she opened the door of my car as she gave her hand to me.

“Let’s go,” she smiled at me and gave her hand. Then I gladly placed my hand on her hand and got out of the car. Then without even looking back I just walked away with her. Is she alive or I’m dead?

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News..

“Seth Dawson, the CEO of the most famous companies in the country, has just passed away from a deadly car crash.”

“Due to the heartbreak of losing his sister, he had driven the car at a high speed while smoking which caused the car crash and lost his life on the spot..”

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