Reika
Waking to the feel of movement, Ryker stood up and started walking. Opening my eyes they felt like sandpaper. My skin stinging and dry from the salt in my tears.
I turned my face into his neck, inhaling his scent, I didn't want to cry anymore. Tears won't help me, nothing will anymore. I felt nothing, numbness is what I felt, and I was grateful. I could Live with numbness.
"You're awake," Ryker says and I nod my head that was on his shoulder. My arms and legs tightening around his body.
"Reika?" I hear her soft voice in my head, the voice that used to be my calm, but now I felt nothing but anger toward her, nothing but betrayal. Ryker said she did it to protect me, but how is taking the only thing that mattered to me, from me, taking my memories of her, making me forget what she meant to me, protecting me.
"Reika, I'm sorry," she says.
"Sorry isn't good enough Amanda," I say not realizing I said it out loud. Amanda whimpers trying to shove through the barrier to come forward.
Ryker stops pausing for a second.
"Your wolf is back?" He asks before continuing to walk toward the bedroom.
"I want her gone," I tell him. He stops completely placing me on my feet next to his bed.
"You need your wolf, Reika she is part of you," he says cupping my face with his large hands, they were warm and made my face tingle.
"She lied, she was the only one I could trust, and she lied to me," I told him. I feel Amanda pushing against the barrier between us trying to force her way forward. I push back, refusing to give her even the slightest piece of control.
"Yes she lied but you can't just lock her up in your head, imprison her like they did to you"
"She is no better, she locked me up too, Ryker, she held the control but not anymore," I tell him.
"You don't mean that, just hear me out," he says rubbing my arms, tingles spreading from his touch.
"Please, Reika, listen to him," Amanda begs, hitting the barrier, my head pounding from the force she was using just angering me more.
"What, now you're on his side? You don't get to change sides because he suddenly agrees with you," I tell my wolf. I walk past Ryker rushing out the door and down the stairs. Ryker follows as I go to the kitchen looking for the sedatives they had been giving me.
"Just wait Reika," he says as I pull the black bag off the fridge. I open it, ignoring him before pulling the vial and syringe out.
"You need your wolf," Ryker says.
"I don't need her," I tell him, stabbing the needle in the vial.
"He is alive," he says, making me stop.
"Who is?" I ask.
"The man from the video, the one who injected Lucy, he is still alive."
I draw some of the liquid out while listening. My mind was already made up which just pushed Amanda more to try to get through.
"Reika, I will take you to him, just don't do this," he whispers, rubbing my arms. I ignore him when he suddenly snatches it off me and I spin around to face him, he puts his hands up backing away.
"I will let you kill him," he says.
"I don't need my wolf to kill him," I tell him and he stops looking at the vial in his hand. I try to take it from him but he moves his hands back.
"Let me do it then, you will give yourself too much," he says.
He squirts some back in, before pulling it out. "You don't have to do this, let Amanda kill him, you really want to live with knowing you killed a person."
"He isn't a person, Ryker, he is a monster and he killed my daughter," I tell him. He looks at me before rubbing his hand down his face. I touch his cheek and he leans into my touch.
"Fine," he sighs before stabbing the needle in my arm. I feel Amanda try pushing forward her attempts growing weaker before I no longer feel her.
" I will take you tomorrow," he says but I shake my head, knowing he is hoping I will change my mind and let Amanda do it, but I already had my mind set.
"No, I won't change my mind, I want to go now," I tell him heading for the front door.
Ryker follows before grabbing my arm.
"At least get dressed first, you only have my shirt on," he says looking down at my bare legs.
He tugs me upstairs back to his room before rummaging in the walk-in. He brings some clothes out and I roll my eyes at the horrid grey pants. Why is everyone afraid of being naked? I wondered. Everyone preferring to feel itchy. I didn't understand it.
I pull them on and he hands me some pink shoes. I stare at them and he grabs socks, placing them on my feet before slipping the shoes on. They felt weird and my toes feel squished.
"See better," he says tugging my hand. I go to walk only to trip on these stupid feet strangling contraptions. Ryker grabs my arm, steadying me.
"Lift your feet" he chuckles.
"I am, they just feel funny to walk in," I tell him, trying to lift my feet higher to stop from treading on the back of them.
Ryker
Watching her try to walk in shoes was the most hilarious thing I had ever seen. Something so basic and she was struggling tremendously as she walked down the stairs like a cowboy who had been riding bareback for a week. I held her arm as she kept stumbling, tripping over the backs of the shoes.
"Argh these are stupid," she says sitting down and ripping them off her feet while sitting on the step.
"It's not stupid, you're just not used to wearing them"
"I don't need fake feet when I already have feet '' she says, ripping the other off. She wiggles her toes in the socks.
"That's better," she says standing up and walking off leaving the shoes behind. I roll my eyes following after her and she waits near the door. I grab my keys before grabbing her hand when Tyson comes over. He bends down pulling a shoe on.
"Where are you going?" I ask him.
"With you," he says just as Ace walks out pulling a beanie on his head.
"You should stay," I tell them.
"We are supposed to be your Beta's, yet you don't let us get involved," he says slipping the other on.
"You do realize where we are going right?" I ask him and they both nod.
"We have watched you kill plenty of people Ryker, we don't scare that easily," he says standing.
"Fine, just get it in the car," I tell them, opening the door. They race ahead climbing in the back. Reika hopped in the passenger seat. I reach over wondering how long this seatbelt will last. I clip it in for her and she tugs on the strap.
"Please don't ruin my car," I tell her and she nods, clutching the seat. I grab her hand, placing it on my thigh.
"And don't be sticking your claws in my leg," I tell her.
"I can't shift, '' she says but I knew I didn't give her enough, with enough adrenaline she was capable of partly shifting even without her wolf.