Chapter 37 The other side of Nathan
Nalzen
Until I went home I didn't see Nathan. He didn't come back to my office and now he is not here at the Condo.
I'm worried about him. His phone is out of reach.
I only ordered pizza as I don't know how to cook. It's either Nathan or Aaron are cooking for me.
Aaron...
I miss him so much that I was not able to control the desire that I felt for him.
Do I love him already?
I still don't know and am not sure.
But I'm dying to be on his side.
Nathan?
Do I still love him?
He is being different nowadays. I don't understand him.
He's like water and fire. One moment he is very kind then after, he will get angry without any reason.
And I don't know! If I'm still in love with him while my body is crazy to Aaron's touch.
The door opens and there's Nathan.
He is drunk?
"D-dear... Where are you?" He shouted and I walked towards him.
"I'm here, why you're drunk?" I asked worriedly.
"Oh, I've been to a meeting and they offer a drink." He answers smiling.
"Did you eat?" I asked.
"Oh, I did not eat hehe," Nathan answered childishly.
He's drunk. This is the first time I see him like this. He is always careful about what he does.
I'am the wild one. Always drinking and partying before and Nathan is just around the corner waiting for me patiently without drinking too much.
And now what happened to him?
Did Germany change him?
I don't know!
"I still have some pizza left. I will get it for you?" I offer him the pizza that I bought.
"Sure, Dear." He answered smiling.
I give him the pizza and he eats all of it.
"Dear, you should take a shower first before sleeping." I reminded him.
But he grabbed me instead and he cuddle me on the couch.
But I can't bear the smell of the hard liquor from his mouth.
I let go of his embrace and sit down.
"You should take a bath first." I reminded him.
Then out of a sudden, his eyes becomes bigger and he grabbed my hand forcing me to lie down with him.
"What happened to you? Dear, you're hurting me!" I shouted.
He tightens his grip that causes red marks on it.
"Do I smell bad? Did you like Aaron's scent instead?" He asks angrily.
Huh?
I don't understand this attitude of him anymore!
"What are you saying? I just said you take a bath first before going to bed. I did not say that you smell bad!" I answered him trying not to get irritated for his nonsense talking.
"Now, I smell bad? While Aaron smells like heaven?" He asks again looking at me fiercely.
His eyes darken with too much rage!
"Whatever! Just let me go, okay? You're hurting me, Nathan!" I shouted.
"Tsk! I guess it's what you deserve after flirting with Aaron huh!" He said then he squeeze my hand.
And It hurts like hell!
I slap his face with my other hand.
"How dare you, hurt me like this!" I shouted out of pain.
And Nathan was blank for a moment. He didn't move and it's my chance to let go from his painful grip.
I can't live with him.
He's a monster!
What happened to him?
I immediately run to the bedroom and get my traveling bag. I empty my closet and put on all of my clothes until there's nothing left.
And Nathan is blocking the door.
This time he looks confused and bothered.
"I'm sorry Nathan. I can't live with you. I think I'm gonna die!" I shouted at him painfully.
And he gets down on his knees, asking for forgiveness.
"I'm sorry Dear. I'm so stressed nowadays that my mood keeps on changing." He said looking down on the floor.
But whatever his reasons are.
I'm done!
He is now hurting me physically! And killing me emotionally.
"I'm sorry too but I will leave. To be honest, I don't know you anymore! You are not the sweet and caring Nathan who loves me dearly. And happily cooking at me while singing." I poured what I truly felt while controlling my tears.
I wanted him to wake up and realized that he changed a lot!
Nathan lowers his gaze and looks sad.
"I'm sorry Dear. It's just that I have so many things to do that my mind could not take it anymore." He said.
"I'am here Nathan. You can share it with me." I encourage him.
I thought the problem of his family business was already solved. But now, looking at him he's worst than before!
He holds my hand gently.
"Please give me a second chance? I promise that I will not hurt you again. Forgive me, Dear." He begs and cries.
And it's not good to see him crying.
He's a man and now he becomes emotional.
My heart still cares for Nathan and I pity him for being like this.
I want to see a strong Nathan.
Not this weak one who is in front of me.
I decided to give him a chance but only this once.
If he will hurt me again.
I will be gone for good into his life.
"Okay, I'll give you a chance but if you will hurt me again. I'm sorry Nathan, I will leave you." I told him sincerely.
He stands up and hugs me.
"Thank you, Dear. Please don't leave me in times like this. I need you..." He whispers.
Then he tried to kiss me. But I refuse. I suddenly don't want a physical touch and intimacy with him after he hurt me.
"I'm sorry Dear. I just can't allow myself from your touch after you hurt me." I tell him honestly.
Then he looks at my hand and wrist. The read marks are still visible in there.
"I'm sorry Dear. Let's apply medicine in your bruises." Then he quickly runs into the kitchen and gets the medicine kit.
Now he's very kind but I don't know when he will change his attitude again. He will not share his problem with me.
I don't know what happened to him in Germany that change his whole being.
After applying for medicine on my hand. Nathan falls asleep and I'am wide awake.
I just can't sleep. Or let's say, I just can't sleep next to him.
I decided to watch the moon outside the terrace. And there's the big full moon.
It's very beautiful!
And then Aaron's face suddenly appears.
He is looking at me smiling under the Lovers Moon.
Wondering what he is doing right now. I hope that he is sleeping well and are in good health.
Why am I here in the first place?
It's because I'am guilty for what I did to Nathan.
But I didn't expect that he will change into a different being.
A different person who is very foreign to me.
A stranger to be exact.
The Nathan that I loved before is different from the Nathan that I'am with now.
Beep!!!
I hear a loud sound of a Beep.