Chapter 134 Exactly As It Should Be
Chapter 134 Exactly As It Should Be
Harper's POV,
The dancing started the way dancing always starts at weddings — tentatively, with Simone's family leading the charge because they were the kind of people who didn't wait for permission, and then gradually everyone else finding their way to the floor because it felt wrong to be sitting when something that good was happening.
Maya and Simone had their first dance.
I stood at the edge of the floor and watched and didn't even try to stop crying because there was no point anymore. I'd accepted somewhere around the vows that today was a day for crying and had made peace with it.
They moved like people who'd danced together before. Simone leading slightly, Maya following in the specific way she followed things she trusted completely, which was rare enough that watching it meant something.
Crew appeared beside me.
He'd been talking to Ryan near the bar — the kind of conversation that looked easy from the outside because they'd known each other long enough to have that kind of ease, but which I suspected from the way they were standing had been about something real.
"Dance with me," he said.
Not a question. But not a command either. Just... an offer, extended the way he extended most things now. Quietly and certain.
"Rose?" I said.
"David has her." He nodded toward a corner table where David was sitting with Rose on his lap reading her something from the back of a place card with the serious investment of someone who had decided this was the most important text he'd encountered all evening. Rose was listening with equal seriousness.
"She's fine," Crew said.
"She is," I agreed.
I took his hand and we walked onto the floor.
.............
Crew's POV,
She fit against me the way she always did — like the specific geometry of us had been worked out a long time ago and just needed to be returned to.
We moved slowly. The song was something low and unhurried, one of the later reception songs when the energy had settled from celebratory into something more like contentment. Half the floor was couples who'd been together long enough to dance without thinking about it. We were one of those couples now. I wasn't sure exactly when that had happened but I was glad it had.
"Good day," Harper said against my shoulder.
"The best," I said.
"Don't tell Rose that. She'll want to relive the flower petal logistics."
"She'll want to relive them anyway. She's been talking about them all afternoon."
Harper laughed quietly. "She did throw them with conviction."
"She threw them all in the first twenty feet."
"Enthusiastically."
"Extremely enthusiastically."
We turned slowly. Maya and Simone were nearby on the floor, no longer their first dance but still clearly in their own world, Simone saying something into Maya's hair that made her smile the smile she saved for things she didn't want to share with anyone else.
I watched them for a moment.
"You know what I keep thinking about?" I said.
"What?"
"That night at the charity gala. Before—" I stopped. "Before everything. We were dancing. And I knew something was wrong but I kept thinking just a few more minutes. Just let me have a few more minutes of this."
Harper was quiet.
"I keep thinking about the distance between that night and this one," I said. "How far it actually was. And how at the time I couldn't see any of it. Couldn't see this." I meant the room, the day, all of it. I meant her. "...I couldn't see that any of this was possible."
"It wasn't possible then," she said. "It took everything that happened after to make it possible."
"Yeah." I turned her slowly. "That's what I keep thinking about. That all of it was necessary. Every terrible part."
She pulled back slightly to look at me.
"Are you getting philosophical at a wedding reception?" she said.
"I'm allowed. It's been an emotional day."
"It really has." She settled back against my shoulder. "Twenty-nine months and you're getting philosophical at parties. Recovery has changed you."
"Is that bad?"
"It's the opposite of bad."
We danced for a while without talking. The song shifted to something slightly different but equally unhurried and we didn't stop, just adjusted, the way you adjust to things when you've been doing them long enough.
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Harper's POV,
I felt Rose before I saw her.
The small weight arriving between us — Crew's arm adjusting automatically to accommodate her, his hand shifting from my waist to her back without interrupting the movement. I looked up and she was there, somehow transferred from David's corner to Crew's shoulder without me noticing the transition, her flower girl dress slightly rumpled, her eyes at half mast.
"Hey," I said softly.
She looked at me with the slow unfocused gaze of someone in the forty percent asleep zone.
"Dancing," she said. Not a question. An observation. A small person noting that dancing was the current activity and finding it acceptable.
"Dancing," Crew confirmed, his voice low so as not to tip her the rest of the way over.
She rested her head back on his shoulder and her eyes closed — slowly.
We kept moving. The three of us turning slowly in the middle of the reception while around us Maya and Simone's wedding continued; the noise and the laughter and the music and Simone's grandmother who had apparently decided to teach Ryan a dance that involved considerably more footwork than he was prepared for.
All of it happening around us while we moved in our small quiet circle.
Rose's breathing slowed and deepened.
One hand was still loosely gripping Crew's lapel — the same lapel she'd grabbed in the car that morning, the jacket he'd taken off because of it, now back on and being held again by the same small fist, completely unconscious, completely certain even in sleep that he was where she'd left him.
Crew met my eyes over her head.
Neither of us said anything.
There are moments that don't need language. That exist fully in themselves without requiring anyone to name them or preserve them or make them mean more than they already mean.
This was one of those moments.
The music played.
We danced.
Rose slept on Crew's shoulder with her fist in his lapel and her flower girl dress wrinkled from a full day of being three years old and somewhere across the room Maya Park was dancing with her wife for the first time and the Vancouver night pressed softly against the heritage building windows and everything was exactly as it should be.