Chapter 61

“Good.Again,Aaron,”Jeff said,his hand making slow circles on my back.

“What the fuck is wrong with this kid?”

I blocked out the man’s voice and concentrated on my breathing.Slowly the world began to come into view and I saw Jeff giving me a smile.

“Hi,”he said,his voice calm and soothing.

“Hey,”I said as I breathed out again.“Thanks.”I glanced across the counter and saw that a crowd had gathered.I wanted to shrink away,but I needed to get through this,so I straightened my shoulders and faced the unpleasant asshole.

“I apologize,sir.Let me get you a full refund and that additional ten you’re owed.Your popcorn and drink are on us tonight.”I figured it was worth paying for it myself in order to get him out of the way.

He watched me through narrowed eyes,as if trying to decide if I was being truthful.I opened the register and handed him the money.His only response was a grunt before he left.

“I have to get back to the ticket booth,”Jeff whispered.“I left Alicia up there alone.”

“I’m fine.”I offered him a shaky smile.“Really.”

He squeezed my shoulder,clearly not buying it,but he had to work so he hurried back to his station while I finished helping the rest of the customers.I was glad to be the only one manning the concession stand,because I didn’t want more staff seeing my panic attack.It ticked me off that the attacks had increased in frequency,but for the most part,I was happier than expected.I was graduating.I had a wonderful boyfriend.My father was in jail so he couldn’t hurt me.Why did the panic attacks continue?

Once our shifts ended,Jeff met me at the glass doors and we walked into the night.This time I grabbed his hand,and he shot me a smile.

“You okay?”he asked.

“Yeah.But I think I need to see someone.I still have that card Laura Morgan gave me.The one for a psychiatrist.Dr.Ottinger.”

At the truck,Jeff opened the door for me.“I think it’s a good idea.I lo…care about you and don’t want you to keep going through this.”

I looked at him from half-lidded eyes.Had he been about to say he loved me?My heart slammed into my rib cage.I felt that way about him also,but I couldn’t say the words.Not yet.It seemed too soon.

“I’ll make a call tomorrow,”I promised.

Even though the drive home was short,I was falling asleep by the time we arrived at the house.When he turned off the engine,I opened my eyes.

“Shit.I can’t believe I’m so tired.Although those panic attacks seem to drain me.I’m going to take a shower in the morning.Too exhausted tonight.”

“Are you coming to my room?”

Surprised he would even ask,I looked at him.“Of course.”

Thankfully,his mom was already asleep.Because Judy had ordered us to stay in our rooms,we didn’t want to blatantly break her rules—but nothing could keep us apart.We’d start out each night in our own rooms,but as soon as I felt it safe,I’d sneak into his bed.If she knew what we were doing,she hadn’t said anything to us.

We hadn’t ventured much further than jacking off together,or jacking each other,but our desire to do more was definitely ramping up.Some nights we’d sleep together naked,which I preferred.When our bodies pressed together and his cock rested against my ass,I loved it.It was the most erotic,yet comforting thing we’d ever done.We fit together so perfectly.And I loved Jeff with my whole being.I think I always had.I also knew I wanted to make love to him.But with everything going on in our lives,we barely had time to make out,let alone go further.In reality,between school,studying for finals,and working,we were exhausted each night.

Nevertheless,his kisses had become a need.When he kissed me,I floated on air.It never got old.Some days,we kissed for hours,our hands roaming,caressing,and memorizing every dip and curve of each other’s bodies.I ached to take him in my mouth and taste him,but I was nervous and he never pushed me.

Now,as I stripped out of my clothes,I felt him watching me.Feeling bold,I pulled down my boxers and let him see how hard I was for him.“See something you like?”

“God,yes.”He yanked off his clothes and crawled into bed after me.His lips found mine and we became lost in a passionate kiss.Then he pulled back.“I thought you were tired.”

“I’m never too tired for this.”I kissed him and gripped his hip,pulling him closer so our cocks rubbed together.

“Can I try something?”

I nodded,giving him my complete trust.

He lined us up facing each other,then gripped our cocks in his hand.When he stroked us together,I thought I might lose my mind.

“It’s incredible,”he admitted,stroking harder and faster.“I want us to come together.”

I wanted that,too.

His breath grew ragged as his hand moved up and down,our dicks pressing together.Every few strokes,he’d twist his hand,sliding across the swollen heads.It felt like a lightning storm had started in my cock.My balls felt heavy and tingled as I enjoyed all the sensations flooding my body.

I wasn’t sure what to do with my hands,so I cupped his cheek.God,he looked at me with those blue eyes,his pupils blown and his face flushed,and I shivered.

My balls tightened and I moaned.“I’m close.”

“I can’t hold off much longer.Come with me,baby.”

Baby.I shot over and over,painting his hand and our stomachs with my release.Through the intense pleasure rolling through me,I heard Jeff moan and felt his body tense.His hot cream spurted onto us,mingling with mine.

I opened my eyes and stared down,stunned to see his hand dripping with our release.“That is fucking hot.”I swiped my finger through the creamy mess,brought it to my lips.His eyes widened when I sucked it clean.“We taste good together.”

“That’s so sexy,”Jeff said,his voice rough.“Everything you do is sexy.I want…”

“You want what,Jeff?”I licked my lips as I reached down for another taste.When I touched his still-sensitive cock,he flinched.I gathered more and tasted it again.“Tell me,Jeff.What do you want?Don’t you know I’d do anything for you?With you?”

He watched as I lapped at my finger.