"Let's not talk about it. If she's not pregnant now she'll just go into heat again and it may happen then. Let's not worry." I smile at Ellie as she rubs a hand over mine softly. "We could actually talk about how big Ryder is, because I want to know then I also don't." I chuckled but shook my head at her. I missed talking to someone who wasn't my mate but I wasn't going to reveal that information to them. When I didn't reply Ellie started to talk about her heat that was supposed to start at the end of next week. In her voice I could hear how desperate she was for her own pup, she was nearly in tears as she spoke. She wanted a pup so bad and here I was with all the chances to do so myself, and I was trying to avoid getting there. *** After I sat downstairs talking with the girls for a while I moved upstairs to the suite. Allie had joined me and we were followed up the stairs by her guards my guards and another four which further made me nervous that something bad was happening. When the door to the suite closed behind us her arms wrapped around me. I was surprised by the contact that she had given me. The only person that ever touched me more than my hand was Ryder. When Ellie had done so earlier it was quick but Allie kept her arms around me as she raised her hand up to run through my hair. A mother's touch. "I am so thankful for you Lottie, you have no idea." When she pulls back away from me I see that her eyes are watering as her hands find a secure grip on my shoulders. "I thought I was losing my son, my baby. Then you came along, I was worried for a little while because I didn't know how you were going to react. If he were to lose you like that I knew he wouldn't have been able to bounce back but here you are, loving him back, and that's all I've ever wanted for him." She's crying now and hearing her talk about me like that as well is bringing tears to my eyes. "About not being pregnant, no matter what anybody says to you and how they react, including Ryder, don't worry. As much as I am ready for a grandchild, if your body hasn't accepted it, it means that it's just not time. It will happen and this is not something that you need to rush even though everyone will pressure you." "Thank you," I whisper as I lean forward and pull her into another quick hug. "That doesn't mean you can neglect your body now, you are looking amazing sweetheart let's keep it that way." With one hand she wiped her tears and took my hand with the other. With a soft smile I follow after as she pulls me to the dining table. "Ryder sent you to watch over me didn't he?" She just smiled at me as she took a seat in front of the two plates that were set up on the table. Following her I sat down opposite her at the end of the table and picked up a fork slowly eating what was on my plate. Even though Ryder wasn't here, he had still managed to make sure I had my favourite food. "He just wants to make sure that you stay healthy." Allie said after a while and noticed that I was eating slower than normal. Adding a bigger piece of food to my mouth I look to her. "He seemed relieved after a little while when he found out that I wasn't pregnant." Allie paused for a second before she sighed and pushed her blonde hair back. It was the first time that I had seen her with her hair out and she had actually looked very casual and relaxed. "He hasn't told you." It was more of a statement than a question because she didn't seem shocked by the fact. "I don't think he tells me a lot of things." I whisper finally cleaning the last of the food off my plate. "Alex doesn't tell me a lot of things either. They're not only Alpha's, they're kings and they keep things secret because they think they're protecting us. This though..." she started her voice growing soft. "It's not something he talks about a lot to anyone but it's something I thought he would talk to you about. Ask him about it." Leaning forward she runs a comforting hand over my knee before she gets up from her seat. "Get some sleep. I'm guessing you didn't get much over there." I blushed as she smirked at me. "Shower and sleep. Ryder probably won't be back for a while but Charlie, Cyrus and Theo will be here if you need anything." When Allie said that Ryder wouldn't be back for a while I didn't think he would be crawling into bed at three o'clock in the morning. He was trying to be quiet as he pulled off his clothes down to his underwear and lifted the sheets so he could slide in next to me on the mattress. I keep quiet as he wraps his arm around my waist as he pulls me in closer to him. "I know you're awake. Your breathing changes plus your thoughts are all over the place and your heart beat is picking up." Lifting up my hand he presses a kiss to my knuckles before he opens his eyes to meet mine. "What's bothering you?" "You sent your mother to watch over me." My voice is teasing as I drop my hand down to cup his neck and pull myself in closer to him. Ryder groaned as he nuzzled his nose into my neck. "I thought that you would listen to her if you refused to eat, plus she won't take easily to orders from you. Should I regret doing that?" He asked as he pulled his face from my neck. Sliding my fingers over his neck I watch as his eyes darken lightly and he pushes himself closer to me. "She told me to ask you something." Just like that his body tensed and his eyes returned to their natural colour. "What did she tell you about?" "I was talking to her about how I wasn't pregnant and how you were relieved and she said that you hadn't told me." My voice was quiet because I honestly had no idea how he would react.