"Lottie you shouldn't be stressing your body like this." Riley says as she looks down at my stomach. "You're body is still healing from the fall it took. It would be affecting your pup's health." My hands shook a little and I raised them up to cross over my chest to stop it. "I want to stay here and be here for him... if he wakes up." I whispered the last part out and my lip quivered a little. Riley nods her head slowly and flicks a quick look towards Ryder. "I have an idea that might make heal properly and faster. It's not going to make him any worse than what he already is but it will cause him a lot of pain even in his comatose state." "And you're going to do that now." Ryder asked softly, his hand moving up to take the back of my arm. I shoot him a look and he loosened his hold even further. Suspiciously Riley eyed the hold my mate had on me but still nodded at the both of us. "I was going to start it in an hour when I could have Jake's help to hold him down." "Lottie," Ryder pulled me back a little. I didn't want to leave and he knew that but he was forcing me. What happened to him not holding back if I wanted something? The small part of my mind told me it was for my safety and our pups but I tried to push that away. "You can come back and see him once Riley has done what she needs to." Ryder's tone went from soft to demanding as his hand tightened around me to pull me in closer to him. I couldn't explain why but I suddenly felt angry at him. Dropping my hand down to Reynolds I give his a squeeze before I leave him. Pulling my arm from Ryder grip I turn and leave the room and wipe away at the few tears that were falling from my eyes. I felt an unknown emotion roll from him as he followed after me. He didn't try to take my arm again or touch me at all but he stayed a step behind me even as the guards surrounded us with questioning looks. I knew it wasn't uncommon for couples to argue but they looked at us if we had just grown another head. As we reached the stairs up to the fifth level my steps grew slower and I felt the warmth of Ryder's hand as he moved it closer to my back to catch me if I fell. I had just stopped right in the middle of the steps though. I couldn't move. F*ck these hormones. Ryder rushed something to the guards in Jordenian and they quickly disappeared. He still didn't try to touch me even as I fell down to sit on the step. He gave everything a quick survey before he settled down on the step in front of me as well. "I've felt barley any of these symptoms over the last week let alone the last month and now they're all coming at once." My voice was breaking and I knew it wasn't going to be long till I started to cry. Again. "I don't know." He said his hands going to run over my legs but second guesses it. "I don't really know about pregnancy and all that." He thought through every word he said, gauging my reaction. "I do understand that you can't lose Reynolds and that you aren't wrong for feeling the way you do now. It's ok to cry." Shaking my head at him I don't attempt to stop the tears. "No you don't understand. The only people that I truly feel comfortable around are you and him. I have Heidi as well but she has her life back in England and she can't just drop it and be here for me." Ryder nodded at me with tears in his eyes. It wasn't a nod of understanding he was just doing it to give me a reply. "You have your family and all the other guys. They're your best friends and you've known them all your life and you can go to them." My hands started to shake and my breathing was a bit all over the place. "I don't have anyone but you if he dies." I watch his lips purse and this time he takes my hand, his touch steady enough that it stopped shaking but it was still light. "You'll have our pup." Scoffing I pull his hand a little. "A crying and popping, very fragile being. You need to do more than that." I smiled a little when I noticed his lips pull up as well. "I asked Heidi if she wanted to move into the castle." His tone had changed and I felt my tears halt. "What?" "Two weeks, if the rebels aren't a problem anymore," He pulled my hand to his lips and kissed my knuckles. "She just has to get all her stuff in order then she and her family are only going to be one floor away." My tears started again and he moved up the step to sit next to me and pulled my head over so it rested on his shoulder. "Just because Heidi is going to be here doesn't mean I can lose Reynolds now." Ryder lets a deep sigh. "It might take him a while but I really feel like he's going to pull through this."