Twenty-one

(Mr. Lonely 😓😔😖)

🎶I woke up in the middle of the night and I know this my girl wasn't by my side...🎶Couldn't swear I wasn't dreaming, for hell I wasn't feigning so I had to take another ride...🎶Back tracking on these few years tryna figure out what I do to make it go bad...🎶Cuz ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashing and I'm so...🎶Lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely...🎧I have nobody, on my own ...🎶Lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely...I have nobody, On my own.

NICHOLAS' POV😔

A YEAR AGO,

I met Sandra at a Halloween party down town, she was wearing a creamy red dress and red heels too, her hair was styled to one side of her neck. She wasn't looking barbaric or wearing a halloween costume just like everyone.

She was the most beautiful thing my eyes ever met that night, but I couldn't speak to her because I was with Bella then. But my eyes never left her side.

She smiled a lot, laughed a lot and touched her ear a lot maybe to reveal that sexy neck of hers the more.

I wanted to talk to her but Bella was always an obstacle for me. She kept whining about what she wanted to see and what she wanted to hear all the time and I can't refuse Bella's requests.

We went away, joked and laughed but still my mind never left Sandra which I met earlier on.

Then we fell silent sitting on the sandy ground, watching the moon which had shown its full round shape reminding me of how I had told her that she was a moon.

I wondered what I was thinking about when I told her that she looked like a moon but I can't see that. Just a bunch of a scary looking kid who does nothing in her life but to annoy me.

How I told her that years ago still baffles me, maybe because, then, she was like a moon always sparkling like Luna, the moon goddess from a fantasy comic book.

And now, I can't tell how she really looks like anymore.

"Look Nicc."she pointed to the sky and her finger was directed to the moon up there.

"Yeah I saw that."I replied and she smiled looking at me

"I'm like that moon in the sky, Nicc."she said and I smiled watching her stare so intently at the moon, maybe wondering how she's a moon.

A gentle breeze blew and her hair and her back neck came bare cuz the breeze carried all her hair up, I saw her neck and it had become cuter than I used to see it.

She turned to look at me. "And I think you're that little star twinkling beside it Nicc."she said pointing to a star near the moon.

I smirked when I spotted the star beside the moon on the sky. "Why do you say so? "I asked her.

"Cuz you're always around the moon, and I have to be watchful of that star for the rest of my life, to know when that star will leave the moon's side and never watch over her again. "she said and I gave a short laugh.

"Really? A star and a moon? Rest of your life? "I asked her really surprised by her words.

Does she even know the meaning of those words she's uttering? Rest of her life? Is life that cheap to her?

She nodded her head. "Yes, if the star ever leaves the moon, the moon will be so lonely likewise the star"

I laughed again, she's been so funny tonight. "Hey what's gotten into you, definitely that star will leave that moon someday. "I argued and she frowned at me.

"Then he will be Mr. Lonely like Akon's song, the star will definitely be lonely." She replied really emotional about that speech.

I smirked. "So you mean to tell me that all those stars up there, are lonely? "I asked really finding each of her every words amusing.

"Yes, they're lonely and that's why the star came closer to the moon so it could feel the light... "

"Bella you're drunk!" I snapped, not finding any meaning to anything she was saying, even though she sounded serious.

Moon and star, it doesn't make sense at all.

An hour later, we went back into the hall and I noticed that the girl which I saw earlier in a red dress was gone!

Present 😏

NIGHT🌃

Now I understand what she meant when she talked about moon and star.

I watched the full moon which filled the sky with so much brightness but I was looking for something beside it.

A star! But none of the stars were near the moon. And for no reason, I became emotional. I reminded myself of Bella's words.

Oh no! I can't leave the moon's side, its impossible! I swallowed hard feeling my heart thump harder, glaring at the moon as if any star will appear or get closer to stay by its side but, none surfaced.

*Then he will be Mr. Lonely like Akon's song Nicc, the star will definitely be lonely. *

I understood that now, when did I leave her side? How did I start acting like I don't care anymore about her?

*You mean to tell me that all those stars up there are lonely? * I understood my own words and how lame they sound in my ears now.

"Hey close that damn window, it freaking cold here."Wyatt said from where he was lying on the bed.

I ignored him still thinking about what might've happened to make me fast forward myself away from Bella.

*Where is Wyatt? *her voice tormented me. I saw the anxiety and anxiousness in her eyes when she asked me about him

*Is he that bad? *Her voice replayed in my head and I gasped biting my lower lips.

The only person she used to be so worried about apart from me, is her mom, dad and Brad.

But now, Wyatt is included! I darted my eyes to where he was sleeping so soundly on the bed with smiles all over his face and I felt like strangling him to death.

BELLA'S POV💔

🎧I want...Someone to love me...🎹 I need...Someone to need me....Cause it don't feel right when it's late at night...🎧And it's just me in my dreams...So I want someone to love, that's what I fucking want!...Song by Lil Nax X_That's What I Want.

Why? The star is lonely now, so lonely. Tears gathered around my eyes but I held it back.

*You're not my type Bella, let's just be friends like we used to."he interrupted sounding a bit harsh*

*I mean Bella, you're a nerd, a scary nerd.. Look at how you look like *

*Do you even look at a mirror? I don't think you do. You're very scary, you never changed for a bit since I knew you... *

I recalled the past between Nicc and I, he pushed me away. He bluntly did without reserve. I fought hard not to cry, I was the moon which shined in his life until he kicked me off.

He couldn't even try to keep me so close as possible. I wish he tried so hard to keep me.

How will he feel now that he's among those stars in the sky that are as lonely as hell looking for away to get closer to the moon to feel it shiny nature?

"What's it Bella? You haven't slept? "I heard Brad's voice behind me.

"Yeah."I sounded wearily.

"Still thinking about Nicc? Or the guy who brought you home today, which one? "

I ignored him, he don't know the right time to make jokes all the time.

"Well, you're always lucky with pretty guys like us tho... But I don't like that guy who brought you home one bit, he has the looks of a player... "

"Brad?? "I called when his rattling became too much disturbing my thoughts and butting into it.

"Yes?? "He answered me.

"Get out now! Until you fall in love, don't talk to me about whom you like and whom you hate."I said and he smirked.

"Love? If this is how love is like... I mean from your experience I don't think I will ever fall in love. Its creepy Bella."

Yeah, he's right. Maybe love is creepy after all. Confusing your mind, hurting you, betraying you, teasing you, making you smile,making you cry, making you want to die and making you want to live at same time. Isn't that creepy?

Love is cruel and hits you where it hurts the most.

*I mean Bella, you're a nerd, a scary nerd.. Look at how you look like.*

*Do you even look at a mirror? I don't think you do.*

*You're very scary, you never changed for a bit since I knew you... *I recalled again and I sighed.

Love is one-sided. He chose other girls over me but my heart can't stop beating for him. Yeah, that's how one-sided love is like, will I ever taste the good side of love? Maybe someday.

I wish someday, my prince charming in a shining armour will come to me and embrace me despite how I might look like.